My Current Love Is Married, And Her Husband Takes Turns With Me

At 34 I took position as junior counsel for a Fortune 500. I met the woman in charge of corporate tax and I was overtaken by a strong crush. The saying about feeling like a teenager pretty much described me. She was married to an older successful man. I knew better than to fall for a straight woman, married at that. But knowing and feelings are not always in sink.

One day I asked her if she wanted to have lunch. We went to a deli nearby. I talked mostly, and did my best to hide my crush. After lunch, walking back to the office she asked me if I was into women. I was caught and replied as cool as I could be that I was, why did she ask. She said she had been there before, I was pretty obvious. But, she reminded me she had baggage.

Over the following week she let me know she was lesbian, but married for money, she was fed up with being poor. He paid for her college and grad school and encouraged her to get into tax. A week later we had wine and cheese at my place, and she kissed in a sexual way. We spent the afternoon becoming acquainted wearing only a smile. The next day she mentioned she had told her husband.

Again, at 34 I had never dated a man. He pressed me on until I was being made live to by him. It was the begging of several years being a lover to her, and a quick lay to him. I'm turning forty and I'm more than ever in love with her, and giving myself to him from time to time.

What triggers me to go down with him, I haven't pinned down. But it's there, a feeling totally different of being lovers with her. She is more likely to swat me across the ass than to complain. As it's only with him.