Curious Enough To Try It.

For years now I have been a porn pic collector. I like all types of porn pics straight gay and trans. I am very much into any type of anal pics.
Years ago my first wife talked me in to letting her play with my ass. I liked it when she rimmed me and used her tongue on my asshole. She started to finger me and almost every day she wanted to play with my ass.
One Saturday we were naked in the house and she was fingering my ass and licking and sucking on my cock and balls and with some Vaseline she had three fingers up my ass when she started to talk to me about us buying a strap on because she was just dying to try fucking me.
We talked about it for a week before I agreed to try it. We bought the harness and two rubber cocks one thing 6” and one fairly thick 8”. She looked so sexy with it on I wanted her to fuck me and by the end of the weekend she had me taking the thick 8” one and I liked it as much as she did. Months later I was taking a thick 12” rubber cock yo the ass once a week and we enjoyed extensive anal play and I used toys on her ass.
Now I am
Remarried and a pirn pic collector and still enjoy some type of anal penetration by only by myself. Here lately I have been in to pics of nice looking men with huge cocks. I really enjoy looking at nice cocks and think about what I would do if I had one to experiment with. When my wife is gone a few days I buy squash and big cucumbers and I will get naked collect pics and stick them up my ass. I am amazed at just how far I can stick things up my ass and how much i enjoy stretching my hole at times. A big hard cock dripping cum is exciting to look at strap on pics excite me also. Anything anal makes me crazy. Men fucking men up the ass women fucked in the ass sex toys and large objects stuck up a nice ass and two big cocks in the same asshole really makes me hard. A big black cock in a nice white ass is pretty hot too. About two weeks ago I bought a pair of butt plugs and i have them hidden really well. When I can insert one in my ass and will wear it for hours even if my wife is at home. I will be fully dressed with a butt plus up my ass.
I am hooked on big coconuts and think about one up my ass and I even think about sucking one and having his cum in my mouth if it s a really pretty nice big long fat cock Some cocks are just very nice looking and I think about being in my knees sucking in a big one then letting him fuck me and cum in my ass. I know I like that because I can get about 3” of my cock in my ass and I like to stick it in me then rub it until I cum inside myself.
One Saturday at home alone I came in myself 3 times and it felt really nasty to walk around our house with my cum leaking out of my ass dripping off my nuts and running down my inner thighs.
I remember my early years in the 5 th grade my friend and I used to go some in the woods and suck each other and in the 6th grade I let him fuck me
I have fantasies about me naked face down on a bed with several huge hung men all around the bed taking turns fucking me and all of them balks derp in my asshole when they cum. The longer this goes on the closer I get to finding men to fuck me. I am right on the edge of letting myself go and find some cock to suck but mostly I want to be fucked and I really would like for the guy to be very well hung
I know if I ever let myself go that far I will do it and want it more and more. What I would really enjoy is a well hung friend that would fuck me once or twice a week and no o e know about it. Then later on maybe he could bring a friend so while he fucks me I could suck his friend off and both of them cum in me at the same time. I would like but to be a nice clean cut married guy with a huge cock so I would feel a little safer about letting him cum in my ass. I really want to see what it’s like to have a bunch of cum running out of my ass.
If I ever do this and it becomes a craving I know I will want to try a big black cock someday. I wish my wife was in to the strap on thing because she is so hot and sexy I would love it if she fucked me but she would never go for that.
I own land and think about being out there naked on my knees ducking off a big pretty cock then driving home with an asshole full of cum. I really don’t know how much longer I can hold off from finding a man to fuck me. I am trying to resist and just use things to fuck myself but it is getting very difficult to stay straight. I really want a big cock up my ass and might like to suck on one too.
What would you do if you were me ?? I want to buy more sex toys but I don’t want the wife to find them. I really want to buy a big thick 12” rubber cock to take up my ass and a nice 7” one to suck on while I fuck my ass two cocks at the same time is a huge turn on for me. Getting my as fucked while someone sucks my cock sounds good too.