My Assistant Is Like A Daughter To Me, But I Want To Fuck Her

I can't believe I'm having these feelings. I've been "good" my whole life, honor roll, professional success, happy wife and beautiful family.

Now, my kids are grown and they have moved away, and my wife is immersed in her hobbies and clubs, so she doesn't have much time for me.

At work I'd always respected professional boundaries and never once been attracted to anyone. Until Marissa.

She started as a clueless intern. As a manager, I was invested in her success not only for her own sake but also because our department needs positive employee feedback. Basically, if she'd done poorly, it would have reflected poorly on the department.

With all of the coaching I gave her, she completed a very successful, high-visibility project. And after finishing her last year of college, she returned to us as a full-time employee. I had no hand in her hiring or placement, other than to give her a thumbs-up rating based on the growth I'd witnessed during her internship.

Imagine my surprise when Marissa came in as my new assistant! Having her by my side all day at meetings, staying late at the end of the month to finish reports, attending business lunches and dinners together, has made something else grow, and it's not professional at all.

I know the infidelity survivor community always doubts claims that people "just kissed", short of fucking, but in our case, it is the truth.

I see her almost like a daughter, I want to protect her, and to that end, we have only cuddled and kissed.

It's already bad, though, because we do it a lot. Last week I told my wife I had a business trip, but Marissa and I both took a week's vacation and we traveled together. Every night she fell asleep in my arms.

Because we care about each other we've had frank conversations about the future. The farthest I've let it go is for her to masturbate me, but only through my boxers, no direct touch. She wants more, she wants to suck my dick and for me to make love to her. Her fantasy is for me to give her a baby and leave my wife for her.

Part of me knows it's ridiculous. Even if I could satisfy a girl as beautiful as she is, she is young and will always have other options. Plus the carnage that would result if I left my wife for someone half my age, and a co-worker and subordinate, no less.

Part of me is ready to say "fuck it", retire, offer my wife a generous financial settlement, and cruise off into the sunset with this girl. There's not much left to look forward to at my age, and this chance won't come again in my life.

What should I do? What's the right thing to do? What would you do? Tell me in the comments. Thanks for listening to an old man with a glimmer of light in his life.