Changing Desires

When i was a preteen me and a friend experiment with sex . We wanked each other . We gave each other blowjobs . We could both cum when we were 10 . We tried fucking each other in the butt . When we were 12 . We stopped meeting . I wanked and looked at an old magazine that i had found . When i was 14 i had a girlfriend and we had sex . After that i was only interested in girls . I imagined having sex with girls that i knew when i wanked . I got married when i was 21 to the girl i had first met when i was 14 and she was 13 . She was and still is beautiful . All my pals fancy her and she knows it . The thing is . I now fantasise about giving a young guy blowjobs . Tasting his cum and swallowing it . I still love my wife and i find her sexy . Putting my hands on her bare back under her blouse when we kiss turns me on . My ultimate fantasy is watching a young guy fuck my wife and licking his cum from her pussy . Then when he is ready having my wife watching me give him a blow job . Letting him cum in my mouth and showing it to her before i swallow . I don't know how to find a guy to blow . This is England . The only thing that i can think of . Is driving to a dogging site . Hoping to find the guy who will let me give him a blowjob . When my wife is out , i wank thinking about doing it . I know it can never happen but i would like to give a 13 or 14 year old his first real blowjob .