Female Led Relationship

I was a big cock sucker in the 70's. Only had sex with one woman. When she found out I was a virgin with women it was like it was a mission with her to take my virginity. She was in her 30's I was 19 at the time. First time she seen me naked she laugh at my small cock said it was cute and no wonder I was still a virgin. I felt so humiliated and ashamed. I kind of liked it but embarrassed. She taught me how to pleasure a woman with my mouth and tongue. 2 months later she moved.
In 1979 I met an 18-year-old girl the first night we had sex. She wasn't a virgin but very little sexual experiences. We had sex the first night. On our 4th date took her to see a porn movie later that night she gave her first blow job and swallowed my load. Our sex life took off and she was an eager to try different things. She still lived home with her parents but on weekends stayed at my place. I got her to wear stockings instead of pantyhose with no panties. I got to be a bit of an exhibitionist flashing truckers. After 4 months of dating asked her to move in with me. I said before you do I have to tell you something. I confessed I was a cock sucker. At first, she laughed and said yea right but when she realized I was serous the look on her face made me think maybe I should have kept it to myself. She said I would have never in my wildest dreams you would suck cock. She told me she has to sleep on it. 2 days later she called me asked when she could move in, I said anytime. She moved in and we were always naked having sex lots of sex. Around 2 years later one night we were fucking her feet on my shoulders rubbing on both sides of my face. She told me to kiss her feet in a demanding tone. So, I did she started to rub her citrous and brought her 34 dd tits to her mouth and suck her big nipples. She ordered me to suck her toes, so I did and licked between them she went nuts having one orgasm after another. She told me to cum on her feet I did then told me to lick it up so I did. As time went on, she became more domineering and demanding and I became more submissive to her. As time went on, she became more perverted and started fucking me with a strap-on and denied me her pussy to fuck. One day came took a shower and went in my underwear draw and found no men underwear just panties. I asked her she said yea only panties for your small cock. I gave up protesting anything at that point. One Saturday she told me we are going to get a full waxing. I not going to lie it hurt so much. I was red swollen for a week. But will admit I did like the results of being smooth. She started get me more feminine got a great paying job I stayed home cook clean at her began and call. She started bringing guys home to fuck her in front of me and put me in chastity denying me orgasms. I stop getting hard years ago she was the boss. She died 8 years ago and I miss her