Straight Female / 23
Crossing My Rubicon
This is about sex with a man much older than me. I was in fact 22 when he had sex with me. It was scary, and the sex was scary. I had up to that time not had sex, not even held hands. I was questioning myself, I had a friend and roommate who discovered she was a lesbian in college and was pushing me to experiment with her.
The circumstances leading up to sex with me was the day he took me to lunch because he wanted to talk with me about me sitting on the fence. I was at that time contemplating experimenting with my friend. He was of the opinion that I needed to find out what all the noise was about, because he saw me as a repressed sexual type, like the old church lady who finally has sex with the minister one night.
My home life included a dominant father who is a fire captain and a mother who opted to be a housewife after I was born. I'm the eldest of three kids. We lived in a rural setting just outside of town, in my maternal grandparents' old house. It had electricity and central air and indoor bathrooms, you no longer had to use the pump to get water, or the outhouse that was still standing as a reminder of the past. We didn't have a garden or chickens. My mother is the indoor type. As the first daughter I was brought up helping with my younger sisters.
He told me that day that if I wanted to know, he would help me find out. Offer for me to experiment sex with him, before I experimented with my lesbian friend. Of course my friend called him out as trying to seduce me and take advantage of the disparate positions of power and all that. I sat watching a movie that night, I was alone, my roommate was out with friends, and I decided that before I experimented with her, I would find out from him.
As I said before, it was scary. But he wasn't new to this, and he went slow, spending a lot of time getting me 'hot' until I was flowing before he 'mounted' me and consummated sex. He insisted that I had to have sex several times, and for that I needed to stay with him overnight. A midnight sex, and a morning sex, a fun sex, and a serious sex, a flippant sex and a get pregnant sex. To remain naked until I was fully comfortable being naked with him. To perform oral sex on him. To let him position me to have sex with me. To worship him, to have sex until I worshiped his penis. To accept him as my man and accept that I was his woman. A lot for one night, which lasted three nights, until I stood beside him with my arms outstretched and twirled before him. I wanted to be naked with him, and suffer the consequences.
I suppose that another way to say it, during that long sex weekend, I lost my inhibitions.
I never did lose my inhibitions with my roommate. She continued to press me. The part that wasn't for me is that I could not take her seriously. I still can't. And like a hand in a glove I fit perfectly with him. Exactly, no adjustment needed, not too big, not too small, not too hot, not too cold, a perfect fit. I could accommodate him perfectly, and it felt natural in his arms when he held me.
No one in my real life, that has known me all my life, was surprised that I ended up with an older man and not someone my age. An older man to finish raising me.
The circumstances leading up to sex with me was the day he took me to lunch because he wanted to talk with me about me sitting on the fence. I was at that time contemplating experimenting with my friend. He was of the opinion that I needed to find out what all the noise was about, because he saw me as a repressed sexual type, like the old church lady who finally has sex with the minister one night.
My home life included a dominant father who is a fire captain and a mother who opted to be a housewife after I was born. I'm the eldest of three kids. We lived in a rural setting just outside of town, in my maternal grandparents' old house. It had electricity and central air and indoor bathrooms, you no longer had to use the pump to get water, or the outhouse that was still standing as a reminder of the past. We didn't have a garden or chickens. My mother is the indoor type. As the first daughter I was brought up helping with my younger sisters.
He told me that day that if I wanted to know, he would help me find out. Offer for me to experiment sex with him, before I experimented with my lesbian friend. Of course my friend called him out as trying to seduce me and take advantage of the disparate positions of power and all that. I sat watching a movie that night, I was alone, my roommate was out with friends, and I decided that before I experimented with her, I would find out from him.
As I said before, it was scary. But he wasn't new to this, and he went slow, spending a lot of time getting me 'hot' until I was flowing before he 'mounted' me and consummated sex. He insisted that I had to have sex several times, and for that I needed to stay with him overnight. A midnight sex, and a morning sex, a fun sex, and a serious sex, a flippant sex and a get pregnant sex. To remain naked until I was fully comfortable being naked with him. To perform oral sex on him. To let him position me to have sex with me. To worship him, to have sex until I worshiped his penis. To accept him as my man and accept that I was his woman. A lot for one night, which lasted three nights, until I stood beside him with my arms outstretched and twirled before him. I wanted to be naked with him, and suffer the consequences.
I suppose that another way to say it, during that long sex weekend, I lost my inhibitions.
I never did lose my inhibitions with my roommate. She continued to press me. The part that wasn't for me is that I could not take her seriously. I still can't. And like a hand in a glove I fit perfectly with him. Exactly, no adjustment needed, not too big, not too small, not too hot, not too cold, a perfect fit. I could accommodate him perfectly, and it felt natural in his arms when he held me.
No one in my real life, that has known me all my life, was surprised that I ended up with an older man and not someone my age. An older man to finish raising me.
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