Acceptance

For many years I struggled with gay desires. Now in my late 60's I see the truth as a gay man. In my 20's I has anonymous gay sex,orally serviced my best friend and then got married hoping it would curb my gay desires. In my 30's I got divorced dated women then had my first gay affairs with older gay men. In my 40's I returned to women but relationships never lasted. Then in my 50's I spent 8 years living as a gay man first having an older boyfriend then returning to being a cocksucker anonymously servicing men in adult video stores and gay bathouses. Finally in my 60's I returned to dating women but once again relationships never lasted.

Accepting that I am gay has finally permeated my existence. A few months ago I returned to the strongest gay desires that I feel deep inside. Seems that sucking cocks anonymously is my deepest need and desired role. Once a week I travel to a bigger city a couple hours away. First I get a hotel room. Then I feel the gay urges take over. I go to an adult store with video booths in the early afternoon. I get a booth watch gay porn,take some edibles then either suck men's cocks in my booth or cruise the other booths. Most of the men are older like me mainly over 50, in 60's or 70's. A few are younger and I suck them off too. I tend to prefer the older men as that has been a preference my whole life. I drain a bunch of cocks and swallow the loads finally leaving in the late evening. I prefer not to be sucked and instead masturbate back in my hotel room reliving the whole time blowing men. The next morning I leave to return home feeling the needs are satisfied. Each week I return for a repeat occurrence. The truth is that I am now an old cocksucker who loves men's cocks dies not matter what they look like as long as they are relatively clean.