Girl At Work

I'm a man in my fifties. Recently we have had a new girl start at work. She is in her early twenties fresh out of university.

She dresses casually, but not sexually if you understand me. She is very friendly with everyone, quite bubbly, almost flirty, but again nothing sexual. Whether this is her natural personality, or just trying to get on at work I couldn't say.

Although she has been friendly and chatty with everyone, I feel that she has been particularly friendly with me, seeking me out at break times for chats and so on. I know she I engaged, but I don't know anything about her partner. I admit to forming quite a crush on her despite my age.

Recently I gave her a lift. We got chatting and I admitted a bit about my attraction to her. I parked up to talk further and it ended up with her masturbating me and giving me head, although briefly and sadly not to completion. She never undressed and I didn't touch her despite this. She seemed very up for it and she left in a friendly manner.

However I feel she isn't the same with me anymore at work, and although I still see her I get the feeling she is avoiding me when she can. I don't know whether it is guilt, or that I should have gone further with her.

I know I am not a teenager anymore, but it is still getting me down.