The Turning Point

I was soon to turn 40 and my relationship with my latest girlfriend had soured. Just like in my failed marriage the conflicts and incompatibilities had got to the point of no return. Underlying my feelings of disappointment was this repressed attraction to men especially older fellows. I would masturbate thinking about a man I had observed and about havung sex with him. These desires had been there since I was a teenager but would diminish a bit when I got involved with a woman. I did not want to be gay so pushed the desires to the back of my mind. However when drinking or feeling horny the desires flooded my brain.



One night I went to a bar outside my neighborhood to have a few beers. It was a quiet place with a few couples and several men drinking alone. There was a man sitting near me having a beer. He was tall,slim,with greying medium length hair,cleanshaven and looked lonely. I guessed he was in his late 50's. I was feeling lonely myself and initiated a conversation with him. He brightened up and we talked for quite awhile. He invited me to join his table so I did. His eyes kept meeting mine and I felt a warmth inside me. When he invited me back to his place for a nightcap I felt this willingness to spend more time with him. In the back of my mind I sensed he desired me but kept reminding myself maybe he is just being friendly.

He lived nearby in the basement apartment in an older home. I sat on his couch and he prepared a rum and coke for me. We sat together sipping our drinks. We talked and he moved close beside me. He told me he was gay and very attracted to me. I let him know I had never been with a man and unsure about any gay activity. He smiled and suggested I see if I like it by allowing him to take the lead. He promised to go slow. At this moment of truth I realized his advance had made me horny and my cock was getting very hard. My horniness had me nodding for him to go ahead. He leaned over and kissed me. The kiss was more sensual and direct than I expected. I kissed him back as I felt myself giving in. Our kissing became ardent and more intense. From there I ended up in his bed both of us now naked with him on top as we kissed deeply. He ended up sucking my cock until I exploded in his mouth. I spent the night and recall looking longingly at his sexy cut cock which was a bit bigger than mine. I never touched his cock that first night. We exchanged numbers and the following weekend I was in his bed again. More of his sucking and exploring my body. As the weekend wore on as I stayed over my inhibitions disappeared. I began sucking his cock and tasted my first load. I began seeing him regularly and the sex intensified. We were now having intercourse and I loved both giving and receiving especially receiving. More and more I got used to his cock deep inside me as it no longer hurt just felt insanely good. We went for romantic drives and movies,dinners. I realized he was now my boyfriend and I was essentially part of a gay couple. After a couple years I moved in with him. A larger apartment became available upstairs from his place and we moved into that.

The last 8 years with him have been further exploring onto my gay sexuality. We both discovered my submissive side. He takes charge and I submit and please him . As part of that another gay top comes over some weekends and they both fuck me. This guy is a big bear type around 60 with a beard and belly. He has me sexually and I enjoy it. My lover says he gets a bit jealous seeing this guy mount me but in a strange way it makes him love and desire me even more. My guy really fucks me hard and deep after the bear has blown inside me.