Older Man Wet Dreams

This is a homegrown confession. For some time, starting in my fifties I started engaging in gay porn. From the beginning I have a deep attraction to the man on the bottom. Watching a hot cock fucking another man is a come on. I wish I was there with a cock in my ass.

But being who I am I never have engaged with another man. I have only had sex with my wife, and we were young then, high school kids when she got pregnant. She is a dependent, a homemaker. I'm like her big brother, she transferred her dependence on him to me when we had sex. Sex had been at best boring for a long, long time. She isn't interested and I'm not interested either.

So to get back to my wet dream, if only I was there when I'm watching. I masturbate but that's a poor substitute. I never masturbate to a woman.