Fuck I'm In Love And Don't Know What To Do Now

I never thought I would be there. I am 28 and work remote now, but prefer to be in the office. I'm a people person, and remote made a good job become a bad job for me, except for the money. To get my people feeling I do two things. One I work out at a gym close to my apartment. And two I do go to this one bar in the evening where I have made friends. It is a bar with a lot of other lonely women and I've seen one and two and three go down that route. And I catch myself looking.

At the gym a new girl started working out, her name is Beatriz, she is Mexican, like real Mexican but not maid Mexican. She is a lawyer. She is fit and wears very tight outfits and doesn't mind showing off her woman package. I've daydreamed about getting on my knees and slurping, but that's another thing I dream about. She's been friendly to me, and asked me a lot of questions. No I am not attached, for instance. She asked me where to go for a drink, she works in the area, so I invited her to come to the bar with me. She's a head turner, men and women. She stuck to me and held my hand several times while we were there. When we were alone for a second she looked up at me, I'm taller, and said she really, really, really needed a kiss right then and offered her lips to me. What I had never done I did and I kissed her. After the kiss she didn't let go of my hand for the rest of time we were there.

We went to her place and she got out of everything, and she was completely and I mean completely waxed, shaved, lasered. Not a semblance of pube anywhere. She stood before me and I held her by her hips and lapped up her pussy. I stripped quickly and we were in bed doing it, kissing and kissing and kissing, like if we had never kissed before. Her face so soft, and her tits, well what if they are small, they are still tits and fit in my hand perfectly and I kissed them, and sucked hard on her nipples. I found myself making love and she let me, I went down on her on the bed and tongue fucked her and licked her butt hole. She later ate me, slowly and with a lot of attention, but asked me to shave for the next time.

I have to ask her out. I have to set up the date. I have to pay. I have to take her with me. I have to make love to her. She dresses and makes up and holds my hand and calls me 'Katie'. My name is Kate, not Katie. She wants to go on a road trip, like some unfulfilled dream from growing up in Mexico. I don't wear a dress now, she likes me in trousers and short hair and all the other signs of being the butch in the relationship. I don't tell her that I've been where she is, on the bottom of some man fucking me, and I like that. I'm not good at this role, but she is the 'girlfriend'.

An old boyfriend gave me a real nice necklace, but when I wore it she asked me for it. I'm spending my free time with her, she is a lawyer so she works long hours, and she needs attention. We go to the gym a couple of times a week now, the rest of time we are shopping, eating, drinking, socializing at the all girl's club and dancing. I so need to get fucked right now, I don't care if he is a truck driver or a doctor. Please. please, just fuck me and leave me.

I don't know how to answer, she is all about being in love for the first time ever, really in love. In Mexico she couldn't be who she is, family and social pressure. Now she is 'gay', 'lesbian', whatever. She bought this silly pair of gay pride shorts, but I did not let her leave the apartment with them on. I find that I have to set the rules, establish the boundaries. I've been honest with her, I don't have the balls for it. I'm the one that wants to cook when I'm in love, not set boundaries.

Long ago I was single, and went out with guys I knew and some I didn't. Long ago I started admiring a nice looking girl, long ago I realized that I'm not into big tits, I'm more of a slim girl girl. I don't know when I crossed over. But Beatriz is serious, serious. For her it's forever, for her it's her first love. For her it's her first ever pussy loving relationship. For me it is too. I'm afraid. Beatriz wants to get married.