Giving Up

The girl I was going to hook up with seems to have lost interest. I'm just going to give up and accept my sex life is over.

I'm not going to be able to find a woman that actually wants me, and my bf will never be okay with me seeing other men, so it's over. I'll probably start starving myself again to try and lose weight and see if that will get my BF interested in me, even though my weight hasn't really changed since we first met, but maybe it was an issue from the very start? He always said he loved my "chubby whore body" that my body was meant to be soft and round for babies, and I have the "perfect baby making body", but maybe he was just saying that to convince himself I was worth getting hard for.

There's a good chance he'll still have his porn addiction and choose to jack off to beautiful perfect women every single day than have sex with an average looking one every couple weeks anyways, but it's not like I have anything to lose but weight. I'm done trying to initiate anything with anybody, I wasn't meant to be desired and I have to accept that now. I probably won't be on here again.