So did you get knocked up?
Mybe you tried to kill yourself because you got raped?if that is the case please tell your mom.Did the dirtbag go to jail yet?please tell the police.It would be one less rapist on the street.
Sounds like your little pussy got hot and he cooled it off, then you got scared and started crying rape.
What a complete dumb-ass. Honey, you need to talk to somebody. If one person can't help you, keep on until someone can. When I was 5, a family friend who was a few years older than me took me into a closet and took my virginity. I don't put all the blame on him because someone obviously had to show him where to put his penis. He told me not to tell anyone, so I didn't. Even though, deep down I knew it was bad. My shame/guilt comes in the fact that I liked the feeling of what he was doing to me. Whenever our families got together, there he'd be pulling me into a closet. It wasn't til I was older did I know that I was being truly violated. Yet I was ashamed and still didn't tell. This went on for a couple of years until we moved. I don't know if there was a stamp on my forehead or just bad luck, but I was then molested by a grown man(no penetration) when I was 11. It was a friend of the family and I was dead asleep. I woke up to him trying to touch me, but I managed to keep myself covered up with my blanket. I remember the fear, how cold I felt, the anger, hate. I absolutely hated men. Other than my father. Once again I never told. It wasn't until I was 17 when I had my first kiss. I started to become more comfortable about my attraction to boys and what we could or could not do. Then, one of my best friends boyfriend raped me. I remember him touching me and me pushing him away...I don't know if it was because of what happened to me when I was younger, but my fear took over. I was literally frozen, shaking, but crying quietly. I just layed there and let him rape me. I couldn't believe it. I know that this is a long story, I'm sorry. But this is where I stress that you need to find someone to help with your emotions. Because I didn't and I had to learn the hard way. If you don't your confidence/selfworth will be nothing. Your fear will take over and along with that hate. Your body/mind/relationships will suffer. I know it hurts, but you have to work thru this. My tears, love and prayers are with you!
Did he force you?
I don't mean to imply that you could consent to sex at I4 years of age, but if he didn't force you, then he will probably say - if cornered - that you seduced him.
In either case you should tell your mother.
He may be doing this to others and needs to be stopped.