PLEASE DON'T JUDGE ME! every human makes mistakes.
Okay so me and my hubby were/are trying to start a family but he(my hubby) has no sperm and didn't want to go through a sperm bank.well a lesbian couple told me to post on craiglist that i was looking for a donor.well i did that and got all kind of stupid responses.the only serious guy who was willing to help me wanted to help me through natural insemination,which is sex.i back down at first but i was desperate to start a family so i agreed.now this guy is married but his wife was away for a few months so he was alone at the time.things between me and this guy was pretty much simple.nothing special.i was super scared about doing this because my husband was my first and i had never cheated on him.the first time me and this guy met up we had sex.after that first time the sex was none stop,not because i wanted to have sex with him,but because i really wanted to become pregnant.well i did not become pregnant and got my period on schedule.but what i failed to mention is that the whole time i was doing this guy he wasn't the type to just hit it and quit it.we went out a few times.he always showed me effection no matter where we were.things were kind of romantic between us.we talked online everyday,seen each other every night.well recently(like a day ago) we met up,spent the day together and of course had sex.he went home with his shirt turned inside out and it had cum spots on it.so since he couldn't explain what happened he just came clean about what he was doing.i feel so bad for this.i know i didn't make him help me but i still feel responsible for this.he even told me that if he and i were to ever get divored that he would want to date me full time.which i like the guy but my marriage isn't all gold either.me and my hubby get into fights over simple crap.it's to the point where i want out my marriage but not to be with this other guy.i have became good friends with this other guy and we both that understanding...but it's hard to have an understanding like that when everytime i get ready to leave this guy wants a goodbye kiss.i mean this whole cheating thing is new to me and i even started having feelings for the guy,but that went away as soon as it hit me i was still married.i just don't know what to do with myself.this guy has a daughter and a wife.i feel selfish for not thinking of them first and just telling him no.i even started to miss him after his wife came back home.i don't know what to do with myself.
Okay so me and my hubby were/are trying to start a family but he(my hubby) has no sperm and didn't want to go through a sperm bank.well a lesbian couple told me to post on craiglist that i was looking for a donor.well i did that and got all kind of stupid responses.the only serious guy who was willing to help me wanted to help me through natural insemination,which is sex.i back down at first but i was desperate to start a family so i agreed.now this guy is married but his wife was away for a few months so he was alone at the time.things between me and this guy was pretty much simple.nothing special.i was super scared about doing this because my husband was my first and i had never cheated on him.the first time me and this guy met up we had sex.after that first time the sex was none stop,not because i wanted to have sex with him,but because i really wanted to become pregnant.well i did not become pregnant and got my period on schedule.but what i failed to mention is that the whole time i was doing this guy he wasn't the type to just hit it and quit it.we went out a few times.he always showed me effection no matter where we were.things were kind of romantic between us.we talked online everyday,seen each other every night.well recently(like a day ago) we met up,spent the day together and of course had sex.he went home with his shirt turned inside out and it had cum spots on it.so since he couldn't explain what happened he just came clean about what he was doing.i feel so bad for this.i know i didn't make him help me but i still feel responsible for this.he even told me that if he and i were to ever get divored that he would want to date me full time.which i like the guy but my marriage isn't all gold either.me and my hubby get into fights over simple crap.it's to the point where i want out my marriage but not to be with this other guy.i have became good friends with this other guy and we both that understanding...but it's hard to have an understanding like that when everytime i get ready to leave this guy wants a goodbye kiss.i mean this whole cheating thing is new to me and i even started having feelings for the guy,but that went away as soon as it hit me i was still married.i just don't know what to do with myself.this guy has a daughter and a wife.i feel selfish for not thinking of them first and just telling him no.i even started to miss him after his wife came back home.i don't know what to do with myself.
