i really still love my ex boyfriend, but he hates my guts. he is a mutual friend between us all. but i think that they chose his side, be cause i have a new guy that isn't even my bf yet. it lookz that way to the public. but it isn't wat it seemz. the new guy is all fine an dandy, buttt... when ever we drink together things take a turn. if he getz to drunk, he turns into this crazy maniac who hatez my ex. and still believes i have feelings for him. only because when we first statred talkin he knew about my ex and how i felt about him, he saw how sad i was, and i was very vulnerable. he jumped on that i guess knowing, that i was such a sweet person with alot to offer inna relationship. lets just call him mr.new. and my ex is my ex. so mr.new really loves me by now. i took his virginity and we shared alot of good timez together. but i am scared now. cuz when we drink together he turns really violent. not only towards me, but even strangers that we dont even know sometimes. its been a couple of time mr.new and i, have went out for a few drinks, then he turns into this monster he pushes me, calls me names, even hits me really really hard in my face. just friday he fuckin beat me up infront of our 2 friends. which are females. he slammed my head on the car windown numerous time. threw me out of the car onto the sidewalk, even choke slammed me onto the car trunk several time. i cant even remember but this is wat my friend were tellin me...this happened around 5 times already. with throwing 2 cell phones of minez across the room and shattering them to pieces. is this because he still thinks i want my ex? but anyway the 2nd time it happened i was in so much pain, that i told my ex wat happened. and he was fucking furious. he said "babe look how many times we hung out and i never did these things to you" mind you ive been wid my ex 2 1/2 yrs. and this guy which isnt even my bf yet 8 months. my ex was really upset, that he hit me and thinks that im too scared to leave mr.new which i am inna way only because i think he will go crazy or someshit. but now my ex doesnt even speak to me period. what kinda friend is that? but anyway i told myself the last time he did it i would leave for go0d, but i just cant just pick up and leave like that knowing, that someone i know, has such a problem. if mr.new hits me now what will happen later on in life, if i do make it official with him?..