I always thought of myself as, at the very least, fairly intelligent. I'll be 40 next month and the more I think about it I was not only stupid but very naive along with my cousin Heather who I grew up with. Heather is only 6 months younger than me and I moved in with her family when I was 11. Things were great for a few years until her parents devoriced, as mine did many years before. My mother was heavily involved with drugs most of her life and my aunt was the only one willing to take me in. I was about 15 when she re-married and her new husband Paul, was very good to both me and Heather. Paul's brother Luke was the head administrator at a small clinic in a town about 30 miles away from where we lived. Paul insisted we go there since we would all be afforded free medical care. Luke was a small man with wire rim glasses and not the least bit intimadating. Not just me, but my aunt and cousin Heather were led to believe he was a doctor. I never found out he wasn't a doctor until he died in 2004. The first few times I went to him was only for a cold and we seemed to always get the sample prescrtiptions although many times we did get them from the pharmacy. Over a short period of time he began to schedule us for regular visits and thats when he began giving Heather and I physical exams. I know he also examined my aunt but Heather and I never dicussed much about it with her mother. Luke always acted professional when he examined us and as strange as it sounds Heather and I both trusted him. I don't know if my aunt ever thought much about it but she knew that he always had us undressed and in one of those ugly gowns when he did examine us. Either she or Paul would take us there and it was no secret that he was giving us a full physical examination. It didn't matter if my aunt or Paul took us there and each one of us would go into the exam room. If Paul took us he was always seen by Luke first so we assumed he was giving Paul a physical also and never thought much about it. If my aunt took us she to was seen first by him and she also undressed as Heather and I did. As embarrassing as the exams became over time I never once thought anything strange about it since my aunt or Paul were always there with us. The fact that there was never a nurse there never entered my mind or that our appointments were always in the evening hours. Paul always emphasized that we were getting free health care and prescriptions when needed. Sometimes we only went every six or eight weeks but it was always Luke who told us how often to come back. Heather and I talked about it often telling each other what was done to us. We confided in each other how humiliating it was sometimes, especially if we were completely naked or with our feet in the sturrups. He would give us breast exams and sit on a stool as he examined my vagina and anus. I remember both Heather and I talking to my aunt about it on different occassions but she often just said it was something women had to put up with. We seemed to be under Lukes control after awhile and somewhere between five and seven times each year he would examine us. I was eighteen when I started having sex and Luke knew I wasn't a virgin anymore but was very understanding about it and said he wouldn't mention it to my aunt. Heather knew I wasn't a virgin and she also admitted to me that she was having sex. By this time I completely trusted Luke and continued to be examined by him about 5 times each year up until I was twenty two years old when I moved to Memphis. A year later I got married and today have two teenage children. Heather and my aunt continued seeing Luke for many years after that. In fact Heather and my aunt went to him all the time up until a few months before he died. I went to his funeral and shorly afterwards Heather found out he wasn't an MD as we thought he was all those years. Luke did have a Masters Degree but he was not a medical doctor. Paul claimed he thought his brother was a medical doctor but I don't know if I actually believe him and he insists even today that his brother lied to him also. My aunt was hysterical about it when we found out and over the years we have dicussed it often. She admitted to me and Heather that Luke also took advantage of her all those times and examined her in the same ways he did to me and Heather. The more we talked about it the more frightening it became knowing he had us taking differnt drugs sometimes not really knowing what he was doing. The worst thing is how he had us manipulated so badly that he examined us naked most of the time and took advantage of us. He always examined our breasts and ended the examine with us in sturrups, subjecting us to vaginal and rectal examinations. He often used speculums on us and not once did any of us complain about it. As stupid as I think I was then I can't imagine how my aunt feels about it. She not only let herself be exposed and humiliated by Luke but also allowed him to do the same to Heather and I. We don't know if he did this to other women but suspect maybe he did. Heather and I still talk about it sometimes but we very seldom talk about it with my aunt. She gets so upset when we do mention it we stopped talking to her about it since she is not in good health anymore. So, as smart as I always thought I was, I was very naive and trusting of what I was told. I recall now also being aroused by him a few times but I never orgasmed from it. Luke was a very deceitful man and and it still upsets me when I think about all the things he did to us. He was so convincing that I never had any suspicions about it and never thought he was doing it for his sexual entertainment. The way he talked and the terms he used where enough to gain our trust in him. Heather has even told me that as humiliating as the exams were she never suspected anything wrong with it. He was a master of deceit and it embarrasses me that I was never smart enough to know what he was doing. He did manipulate us slowly and over a short period of time had full control over the three of us. The gowns we wore into the exam room were totally discarded after awhile and he would have us completely naked on the exam table. I know it sounds dumb and as embarrassed as I was never question why I had to be totally naked like that. I asked Heather several times and apparently she never complained about it either and just tolarated it as I did and probably how her mother did. I get angry at myself sometimes and it annoys me terribly when I think of how many times he saw me naked and probed my body the way he did. There where many times when he used a speculum that I did wonder why he was doing it and thought it unnessary but never overly complained. The few times I did say something he always seemed to have a practical reason for what he was doing to me. He had a way of putting us at ease I suspect, but still don't know how I accepted it the way I did. Now I know the frequency of the rectal exams he did on us were completely unnessary and degrading. I didn't feel as though I was being abused by him but its obvious to me now how much he took advantage of us.