Ok here it goes. When I first turned 18 after High school, I moved to another city and started a job in a factory. Shortly after I started there I met some really good friends, and one of them just happened to be a married man, everyone had told me stories about him cheating on his wife, but he was a really nice guy, and I did like him a lot. The biggest problem was he was married, 2 kids, and 22 years older then me. Well this didnt stop me at all. I knew it was wrong, but we had so much fun together, and we were able to have a decent conversation, one thing led to another. In the next year I got engaged and thought I was in love but I was always cheating with this man, and there were others too, but I was comfortable in this relationship and I didnt want to lose my fiancee. Well finally my fiancee and I broke up, and I moved 1200 miles away. I was gone for about 6 months or so, and then I moved back home. I have been home now for about 6 months and lately he has started calling me and driving by moy house wanting to get together. Last week I finally realized as I was in his van with him, just talking, I dont want to be with him anymore. I love his friendship and talking to him, but I no longer want to be with him in a sexual way. I have told him this and he wonders how I can throw away 5 years of fooling around. I told him that if he would have said this 3 years ago I would have stepped in front of a train to save him from anything. But Im still getting calls from him. Im not sure what to do. I have finally met a man that I can have that talks to me, and listens to what I say. But I still have that nagging feeling in the back of my head that tells me that If I just want to have sex I should return those calls. Im so confused I dont know what to do.