My Younger Self
My husband and children have no idea of my past self. My husband is pretty vanilla when it comes to sex. He enjoys it, he's pretty good at it, he gets me off but it's all pretty normal stuff. After my youth that is what I wanted and in fact needed. He has no idea of my past. My first sex was with another girl, we were both 12 and feeling very mature with breasts and hair on our privates. Her brother was my first hetero sex experience. I was 14 and he took my virginity, at least in the lower two holes. I'd sucked off 3 other guys before that.
I look back at my past and can finally see it in perspective. I was a slut, yes, maybe quite whorish and I basically did anything my current boyfriend wanted. By the time I was 17 I was gangbanged 8 times twice with 5 guys, and once with 8 and another with12. I'd let guys have sex if they took me out in their car for a ride. My first girlfriend wouldn't have sex with me anymore (though that was the most enjoyable for me having orgasms). She said I'd had too many partners and it wasn't safe. I'd done it naked on a nude beach with an older woman, and several times with men. I enjoyed the beaches, I loved seeing so many nude people, men, boys, women, girls all naked and pretending not to notice. I'd see girls sneaking with the suntan lotion and jacking off their partners (men and women). I didn't care, I liked doing it in public.
One time alone at the beach I was followed to my car by some guys, I wasn't paying attention and I got shoved into a van and fucked by 4 of them for over an hour. Then they took my swimsuit and left me to drive home naked. Luckily I had a towel in the trunk. It was then that I gave it all up. I straightened up my life, my studies, and got a boyfriend to whom I got married.
In a way I don't regret it at all, but I do look back at so many boys,men, women and girls, doing it in public, exhibiting myself, being a total slut and I can come when I'm getting my husband off.
