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I identify as straight. And in spite of this last week I still do, but with some doubts.
I did a conference for 4 days. I have read stories on this site for ages and always thought a lot of fiction is written and nothing like this ever happens to me or anyone I know.
The conference was in Florida. I had never been before and my boss got sick late so sent me in his place. He told me I would be rooming with a guy he had roomed with before and he was a good guy. My boss is 45 and has a wife and a couple of kids. Jack, my room mate is 35 and also married with a daughter and son. I am single but have had a reasonably steady relationship for the last 13 months.
I arrived early and settled into my room. Jack arrived late about midnight so I was already in bed when he came to the room. I had left the table lamp on for him
I usually sleep in the nude but I had been out and bought some pjs knowing I was sharing.
I sort of woke up but though I would pretend to be asleep as I was too tired for a whole lots of introductory chat.
He got sorted and started to undress. When he was nude he went to the bathroom and did his stuff and then came back into the room. He had an amazing body. Really toned and muscled. His cock was huge and hung in front of him like a porn star.
So, first alarm bell...seeing his body and especially his cock, I got an erection. Just no way I could stop it.
I watched him get into bed, nude and then get out again to turn the lamp off.
He got back into bed and turned over and went to sleep. I was really boned and so quietly masturbated and shot into my pjs. Holding my breath as I ejaculated. Then feel to sleep.
He was not in the bed when I woke.
He came in a few minutes later in his gym gear, all sweaty and pumped. Second alarm bell, I boned again.
He said hi and held out his hand to shake mine.
Said he was sorry he has been so late and hoped he hadn't woken me.
He peeled his lycra top off and stood in tight lycra shorts. I was busting to take a pee and more and thought how the hell do I do this? He was chatting and I was still hard. He then just said hey if you have a woody no worries I have seen plenty. We are sharing and will have to accommodate each other , right? If you had been awake you would have seen mine earlier, and laughed. Don't mind me. So I pulled back my covers and got out of bed. Boned as fuck. He gave a little wolf whistle as I went to the bathroom. I was so fucking embarrassed. He then,
jokingly, I thought, said if you need a hand give me a call.
Alarm bell 3, it crossed my mind that actually I would love a hand. I started to masturbate. Totally without thinking I gasped and must have let out a moan of some sort. The door opened and Jack was standing in his jock strap looking at me jacking my throbbing cock. The pouch of his jock was bulging hugely. He didn't say anything just walked up and knelt in front of me and took my cock down his throat. I ejaculated immediately his mouth took me down.
I haven't said much about me so far.
I am 26, very toned, naturally quite smooth, and have an 8 inch uncut cock. I also have a huge tan and a very defined speedo tan line. I guess I look ok in the nude with a full erection.
Frank pulled off me and walked back into the bedroom, gently closing the door.
I took a crap and had a pee and got myself a little together, still semi boned.
When I got back in the room Jack was nude on his bed, with his huge erect cock in his hand. He was smiling.
I started to say I wasn't gay and wasn't he married and what about my boss and a whole lot of shit. He said nothing. Just kept smiling as he masturbated. My cock started to harden again and I felt totally defenseless. I walked over and got into bed with him. He gently took my anal virginity and I felt for the first time the incredible pleasure of pushing my cock up into a very tight anus, and the sensuality of kissing a man.
We attended about half of the sessions. The rest of the time we spent in bed.
He went home to his wife and family.
I went home alone thinking what the fuck was that. I haven't called my girl friend yet.





One Night Thing

I was in a famous west coast city for a few weeks, away from my wife and kids. I have a very pretty wife, a little heavier than when we dated but i did get her pregnant 3 times. I met a guy in my first couple of days there, and we got along really well. I knew he was gay, but he didn't look or act like it really. He took me around to a lot of the local places to eat and drink, on weekends even toured me around quite a lot.

Two nights before I was due to leave, we were at his place, and I ended up getting my cock sucked, then naked in his bedroom I sucked him hard and he fucked me. I wasn't believe that it was happening to me, but It was, I was letting a man fuck me. My wife likes to stick fingers in my butt when she blows me, or something just to play with me, she moves them around a lot, so to be honest, it didn't hurt too much. The next day I was done working, so I spent the night and let him, actually asked him, to mount me 2 more times. I was feeling like a dream, a very good dream. The third time I used my hand on myself, came on my stomach and after he was done he licked it all off me. We went to sleep, and I woke up first, and instead of skulking out of there I went down on him. I knew he hadn't washed off since the last time he fucked me around 1am. I sucked his cock anyway, he came awake and calling me baby, asked me what I wanted. I crawled up on top of him, kissed him and sat on his erect cock. I was on top,, sitting full force on him with 7 inches all the way inside me, his trimmed pubes brushing up against my hairless ass cheeks.

I got off him when he was about to cum, and sank my mouth all the way down on his cock, I deep throated his cock and took his full load in my mouth, swallowing it all proudly while looking up at him. We stayed together that day, and that night. Then he took me to the airport. My wife and kids picked me up I still had whatever remnant of his sperm inside me after being fucked 6 times that day and the night before.

It was a one time thing, but I really enjoyed it. My wife gave me a blowjob the night I got home, I ate her good tasting pussy, and fucked her, dumping a load of cum deep up her vag. She didn't say anything about my ass being looser than normal when she was fucking me with three of her fingers, she just thrust and sucked till I shot off. I fell asleep thinking of the night and day that I was a total bottom for another man. I really think if we'd started earlier, I might have not come back. I really loved getting fucked. I don't think I loved him, just getting fucked. It was a one time thing, I guess. When I go back in a couple of months I'm not sure if I should see him again. It might be best left alone.

She must have known there was a chance I'd enjoy being fucked, yet she still wanted me to go through with her sexual fantasy anyway. She told me, if I wanted to carry on enjoying her asshole, I'd have to give and allow Michael, a friend of hers to fuck my ass. I'd always known he liked me, and I also knew every now and then he indulged in gay sex. So when he just so happened to call by nearly three months ago now, I knew my wife had set something up.
It was my wife who got things going by sucking on my cock, which she knew would have me ready for anything. then she sucked on Michaels cock, just to show me it was ok to share sexually. Then it was our turn and I took to sucking cock, his beautiful cock, like duck to water. I was so good at it, he even made reference to my wife about how much better a cock sucker I was than her.
But it was my asshole she wanted to see destroyed by his length, so after he donned a condom and she'd lubed up my hole, I knelt there and waited.
The sensation was like being filled and hurt at the same time. The pain grew the more he slid his cock into me and then wham. Like a cork popping out of a bottle, his cock fully inserted up my ass and my asshole relaxed. From that point on, it was only pure ecstacy and I couldn't get enough of his cock pounding my hole.
I'd never felt so sexual in my entire life and Michael knew and sensed it. I'd begun to back onto his cock and he began to thrust much harder into me and before I knew it, we were fucking for real. My wife made a comment about me enjoying it too much, but by then I didn't give a shit what she thought.
Changing position so Michael was fucking me missionary, he changed his rhythm and style of fucking me. it was more sensual and he leaned over kissing me. My wife made another comment, but we ignored her and carried on having amazing sex. Just as she moaned again about us going too far, I had such a powerful orgasm and kissed Michael harder, my cum spreading out between us. He in turn thrust into me deeper and then arched back, cumming deep inside of me filling the condom and telling me I was a great fuck.
Over the following few days my wife hardly spoke to me. When she did it was to tell me her fantasy was fulfilled and I wasn't to indulge again. Oh fucking yeh! was the thought in my head. She'd wanted and planned it. And when she didn't like the fact I was enjoying way more than she was, she wanted it to end. Well, it hasn't ended and for the last three months we've begun to have a gay affair.
Michael often calls round when she's working her late shifts, or when she enjoys her girly nights out shopping and drinking. I make sure the house is spotless when he leaves, and always nowadays have him cum deep uop my ass without a condom. After all those rubbers can into all sorts of places.
My wife started all of this, and I'm so glad she did. I'm saying it right now, if it wasn't Michael fucking me, then I'd make sure it was another guy, someone else who enjoys screwing the ass off a willing cum slut like me.

After reading in a few different places about guys who were able to suck their own cocks by putting their legs over their own heads, I gave it a try. Low and behold I was able to get about two inches in right away once it was fully erect, without much effort. After a few weeks I was able to get almost half my cock into my mouth and began to love giving myself a blow job. At first I spat out my cum, or came all over my face, but when my moaned at me about "Staining" on the bed sheets and pillows, I started to make sure I came in my mouth and swallowed it. I was soon enjoying, then adoring my cum taste and was sucking myself off at least twice a day.
Then on a very wet afternoon in late January this year, I knew my mom had gone out shopping and my dad was at work, so I got into my regular position and began to suck on my dick. I'd been sucking on my meat for about five minutes when my bedroom door opened. Stood there watching me, was one of my mates Lee, someone I'd grown up with. I was about to unfurl myself and begin to try and explain things, but Lee walked straight over, gripped my arse cheeks, pulled them apart and buried his face into my arsehole. It was so unexpected, I didn't begin sucking on my dick again for a while, not until he broke off and asked me if I'd ever been fucked. Telling lee I'd not even thought abour anal sex, he stuck his tongue right up my arsehole and then slid in a finger. At that point I began to suck on my own cock again as some pre cum had leaked out.
Without saying anything, Lee broke away again, totally striped off and offered me his cock to suck. In my head it had always been ok for me to suck my own dick, as I didn't think it was in any way gay, but to suck on his cock meant I was at least accepting gay sex, which pretty much meant given I'd already fucked a couple of girls, I was bisexual.
Moving around I took hold of his rock hard cock, opened my mouth and let Lee slide his entire length over my tongue.
Lee's cock isn't as long as mine, but it is much thicker, yet I was still able to suck in every inch right from the off. He moaned loudly, gripped my hair and began to force fuck my face. He kept on telling me he'd dream't of the day I'd suck him off, but also added he'd love to fuck me too.
That crappy afternoon though, I sucked and sucked on one of my best mates cock, until he thrust one last time arching his back and filling my mouth with his cum. There was no way I was going to waste any, as I had my own when I first started. So gulping down each wad of cum, I drained my friends balls and kept on sucking until he could take no more.
He lay back on my bed and I was going to ask him to suck my cock, but he'd closed his eyes. Instead I reverted back to being in my self suck position and began to blow myself. Closing my eyes I could hear Lee breathing hard still. Then just as my jucies were flowing again, he stuck his tongue right up my arsehole. It sent me over the edge and I came so hard I had cum leaking out of my mouth.
Swalowing as much as I could, I flipped myself over and saw Lee smiling down at me. Thanking me for such an amazing blow job, he leaned down took hold of my face and we kissed. He kissed me hard and also licked off the remaining cum from my face. Lying together we kissed and played with one anothers cocks for some time. He eventually became hard again and I just had to suck his dick one more time.
Over the following few weeks, he'd po round when I'd text him to say I had the house to myself. Each time we'd suck each other, and then as the weather picked up, In a small woodland area close to his home, I allowed my long term friend to slide his bare cock up my arsehole.
That's another confession for another time. Needless to say I'm now a fully paid up member of the take up the arse brigade. Lee and I are lovers and enjoy sex together as many times as our lives allow. We have indulged in a couple of threeways too, but again that's possible for another confession.
Everyone around us think we're just very close buddy's, and they'd be right. But we're also extremely good sexual partners, who get a lot out of our own little secret gay life.

All he said to me was "Nice butt kid". And I was somehow thinking of gay sex. I'd seen him eyeing me up as my mates played a pool ball game, yet I didn't think of him as gay. After all, he was with his wife.
She was as usual staying in the shade sat fifty yards away, with yet another drink getting herself drunk again. Her husband, the all muscle body builder type, who was definitely in his mid forties strangely appealed to me.
His next comment was straight to the point. "She'll be asleep in no time, I'd love to slide my dick between those buns, up for it?". It was a question, but said in such a way he left himself a way out, as he looked at his wife saying it.

I knew precisely what he meant and I signaled without answering him, to my mates I was going to the room for a kip. They all laughed, as I'd gotten drunk the night before and had slept, kind of, (Another less than complimentary confession) on a sun lounger down by the beach.
Within minutes I was in his room and staring at a muscle I knew I'd be sucking on. His cock was already hard. Not the longest cock I'd ever sucked on, but certainly with his amazing body, thick and meaty.
None of my mates suspect even now, that I'm bisexual, so I don't tell them and staring at his beautiful dick, I began to salivate expecting to taste his weapon.

None of it. I was thrown onto the sofa, had my shorts ripped off and then felt the cold substance being slapped over my arsehole. I was about say something to protest, but he gave me no time to as his cock was thrust up my arse. This was no getting to know you fuck. He was taking me whether I wanted him to or not.
When his cock bottomed out, he grunted something unintelligible so I managed through gritted teeth to say "What was that", putting his mouth to my ear, he repeated "I'm going to fuck the arse off of you". And that's precisely what he did. As I've said his cock wasn' the longest, seven inches maybe, but it was very thick and it stretched my hole.
Right from the word go, he pounded into me and it took a few minutes for me to get into it. I'd been fucked many times before, mainly by my uncle (Another confession somewhere along the line, maybe) but his cock and the whole scenario was so horny to me. My dick responded and it became ultra hard the more he fucked me.

I was like a rag doll with him, a human fuckhole and he was taking full advantage of the situation. Telling me to lay on my back, he then lifted my legs to his huge chest and slammed his cock back into me. It was then my cock exploded without warning. It was and still is the only time I'd cum without prior feeling or any sense or orgasm.
His grin told me I wasn't his first to cum like that and he thrust into me harder and harder. Sweating a lot, he wiped his shaven head, told me I was going to be his fuck tool for his remaining time there, and promptly came deep inside my bowels.

The feeling of his sperm filling me up gave me a little orgasm, a semi dry one, but one which made up for not being ready for the first. Then when he'd fully cum, he slid his cock out and shoved it in my face. I knew what he wanted as I'd done it lots of times before. Taking hold of his slippery cock shaft, I opened my mouth, then licked and sucked his cock clean of his cum and my anal cream.
Only fifteen minutes after leaving the poolside, he was walking back to it and his sleeping wife. And I was in our room about to take a shower. It was one of many showers I took after he'd fucked me during our holiday to that Spanish island, and since our return in early May his cock has become a regular piece of man meat to enter my arsehole.

They live only twenty minutes drive away from my home, and we often meet up at a well known place. It's a beautiful spot overlooking a Derbyshire hills, and close to a reservoir. Occasionally we fuck at his place, but mostly it's outdoors and each time he never fails to drive me wild with his lustful animal ways of fucking me.
One day I might come out to everyone, but right now I'm having too much fun fucking my girlfriend, and taking a body builders cock deep up my fuck hole.

I have a hard time controlling my cock sucking urges. I have no idea what that means. I consider myself straight but can't stop thinking about sucking cock. So I don't know what I am. I'm in a relationship with a woman but have this other side to me that only wants sexual experiences from a man not a emotional relationship.

There is this older Dad type that I have had some fun with over the years but it isn't consistent. I sucked his cock 3 times before this last time and swallowed his cum 1 time.

Months went by since I sucked him and I was getting so horny thinking about it. I lost contact with him and had no way of getting a hold of him. One day I was so horny thinking about sucking him that I went by his house unannounced. I knocked on his door not knowing if he was still there. The whole time I felt like such a cocksucking slut going to that extent hoping he was still living there. My plan was to make something up if it wasn't him.

To my excitement he did answer and he knew who I was. I told him I had no idea if he still lived there and wanted to check since we lost touch. He invited me in and of course I went in.

We talked for a bit discussing that we lost touch and could not get a hold of each other. In the back of my mind all I could think about was sucking his dad cock again.

After catching up he asked "well do you have time?" With a distinct look on his face shocked that I was there and excited for the possibility of a blow job.

I was hoping he would ask and told him "yes, but need to make it quick."

He took me to his back room and told me to pull down my pants and get to my knees. I did and at this point was raging hard myself. He pulled down his pants and exposed his cock while laying back on his bed. I was so excited to see his dad cock in front of my face again.

He told me to suck on his balls. I slowy took his smooth balls into my mouth and licked all over them. His cock was growing at the same time. He told me that was enough and to suck on his cock. I did not hesitate and took his hard Dad cock into my mouth. The feeling of his warm smooth hard head and cock sliding into my mouth made me dripping hard.

His laid back on his bed and stared at the ceiling letting out a loud moan. I was so excited to hear that as my mouth, toungue , and lips were pleasing his cock. All I kept hearing was "awwww, mmmmmm, yes."

He stood up and started thrusting his cock in my mouth. I could fee his cock head bouncing off my throat as he moaned. He pulled his cock out of my mouth and I asked what he wants.

He said he just wants to cum and pressed his cock head back on my closed lips as he thrusted his cock back inside my mouth.


I started sucking his cock no hands like he liked bobbing my head back and forth. He kept on moaning. After about a minute of straight sucking him I heard him starting to breathe harder. I sucked him faster and he started moaning louder and louder. I felt his warm sweet cum pump into my mouth as he moaned with pleasure. I swallowed every bit of cum from him as I continued to suck him. After he gets as done I pulled his cock out of my mouth as it was softening and slapped it a few times accross my face and lips.

I stood up with a hard on and he walked to the bathroom to clean up. I felt like such a cock sucking slut and loved it knowing my mouth was just used. He was so satisfied and left trading contacts.

I ended up coming back to his place a month later and he had me stand at his kitchen sink and not say anything when I walked in. The windows were open and curtains too. I could see other houses and they could probably see us.

He walked over to me and got behind me. Started rubbing my ass and pulled my pants down. He pulled his pants down and I can I could feel his cock rubbing on my ass cheeks.

He lubed up his cock and started sliding his cock in the top part of my ass cheeks. His cock would slip down and I could feel the pressure of his hard cock near my ass hole. He put his cock back to the top of my ass cheeks and continued to hump me. He grabbed my hips and I heard a moan as I felt his warm cum drip down my ass crack. He wiped me up with a towel and I left. I could feel his cum on my boxers and ass stil. It was smooth rubbing all over me.

I don't know what it is about him but I can't stop wanting to suck his cock, swallow , and possibly have him stick his cock in my ass.

Im such a cocksucking slut with him.

Ted is a fifty two year old farmer who's wife no longer allows or gives him sex. She's older than him, yet doesn't think about his needs at all, even though he's got a very active libido. I know this because I caught him wanking in one of his sheds when I was delivering some farm items he'd ordered.
His cock looked huge and he was clearly enjoying himself. The weird thing was, I got turned on watching him and began to move closer. He eventually saw me ans tried to cover up, but by then I wanted to experience something new. I so wanted to see what it would be like to suck on a guys cock. Telling him I'd finish him masturbation off with my mouth, Ted signaled for me to enter the large shed and I got onto my knees. I'm not sure if I was his first ever gay experience, but he fed me his cock as if he'd done it lots of times before. To me though it was my first time and I took my time to get used to having his cock in my mouth. It felt totally alien to me at first, yet he kept on telling me I was sucking his cock perfectly. Gripping my long shaggy hair, Ted began to fuck me mouth and I soon realized I was able to deep throat him. Which was agood job really as he didn't stop shoving his cock down there.
I felt him building up to his orgasm and had a choice to make. Or I thought I was going to have one. In a split second he bucked harder and his cum exploded into my mouth. Swallowing more to breath than any desire to taste his sperm, I found I enjoyed the taste and knew from then on, if he wanted me to in future, I'd suck him off and swallow his cum.
Ted sat on a pile of old tyres and flopped his cock about. I hadn't cum, or even took my cock out. So with it aching in my shorts, I removed my dick, stroked it a few times and noticed Ted watching me. Walking over he took hold of my dick, tossed me off vigorously and kept on milking my cock until I came in one long torrent of cum.
He thanked me for easing his tensions as he put it. Then he asked me as he was talking about the weather, if I took it up the arse. Not thinking of my position on the matter, I told Ted if he'd like to enjoy fucking me, I'd be willing to try.
It wasn't then we first fucked. His wife home and he said he didn't ant to ruch anything. Down by his lower barn, the furthest posible place from his farm house, we stripped naked a week later and I knelt down over a bail. Using lube I'd brought with me, he coated my arsehole, put his recently sucked on erect cock to my hole and pushed in. The feeling straight away was awesome (To coin an American phrase). It did a little uncomfortable, but it was so so amazing to have his big thick cock up my arsehole. Every nerve ending up my bum was alive and flickering with each thrust of his cock. And with each thrust his cock got deeper and deeper inside of my body. I was totally his to do as he wished and he knew it. Getting me to turn over after around five to ten minutes of doggy style fucking, I put my feet onto his shoulders and he slid his cock back into my arse.
Facing Ted was for me, the best way to be fucked. And I told him to fuck me as hard as he wanted to. Unfortunately that first time, he was too worked up sexually and came only a couple of minutes later. His cum felt hot as he ejaculated up my arsehole and I so wanted more. Ted removed his dick, lowered his head and then did something I'd not asked him to do, or mentioned before. He licked my arsehole itself and began to tongue my hole. When his cum leaked out, he sucked it up and filled his mouth. Moving up to me, he put his lips to mine, pressed his tongue in and passed me his cum. I kissed him back, let his cum flow over my tongue, then swallowed the lot.
I've become a very frequent visitor at his farm. His wife I think knows we're having sex, but says nothing. Three days ago with the sun baking the fields, Ted fucked me beside his tractor. It was long slow fuck and one which had me climaxing well before he came up my arsehole. Only seconds after he'd cum and we'd begun to get our clothing sorted, his phone beeped. It was his wife texting him to tell him lunch was ready. Her other comment was this "And when you're through enjoying ****. Make sure you both wash up".

My wife walked into our home a fortnight ago just after lunchtime. She hardly ever comes home early, so myself and Eric, our neighbor, were lucky. I say lucky because he'd just cum up my asshole for a second time, after fucking me most of the morning.
The lucky part is we were in the basement gym, rather than in the bedroom where he normally fucks me.
It gave us time to make out we'd been working out down there. And my wife even shouted down to offer us a drink. By the time we went up into the kitchen to get the drinks, Eric's cum was slowly leaking out of my ass.
Eric is a sixty four year old widower and someone who's always horny. His libido pretty much matches my own, so when he told me about eighteen months ago he was struggling with not getting his rocks off, I at first offered him my mouth.
You might think that's a little presumptuous of me, but then I'd actually seen him when his wife was alive, having a younger guy suck him off in their outdoor plunge pool.
Eric took me up on my offer, having me blow him in his garden, and the rest as they say is history.
He first fucked me when we'd both had a drink, a few weeks after I originally sucked his large cock. My wife was staying over at her sisters (Health issues) so Eric and I took the opportunity to have a drink and have some fun in our home.
I'd sucked him off once already swallowing his delicious cum, and had sucked him hard again a little later. He suggested I try and take his cock anally, and boy did it hurt. Yet I stuck at it and was rewarded by THE most amazing sexual feeling ever. From then on Eric has fucked me at every opportunity. Some weeks it's only once or twice, but most weeks we get to have sex in one form or another, at least four times.
I'm not sure my wife would approve of me taking his cock down my throat or up my ass, but then what she doesn't know, won't hurt her.
Typing this has made me horny again. Wonder if Eric is up for fucking me again today. After all he did empty his balls up my ass soon after the paper boy cycled by. We'll see...

the first guy that fucked me was a guy who used to play cards with my friends every now and again. everyone seemed to think he was ok until one lost out to him on a bad beat and called out 'fuckin faggot' to nobody in particular.
he replied to the effect that he preferred 'gay man' but fair enough, faggot would do and this completely changed the atmosphere. to my surprise and embarrassment most of my friends seemed to change their attitude toward him. they were obviously uncomfortable and made some comments that were really stupid. i didn't know where to look. after he left it got talked about and i said i couldn't believe how rude and backward they had been acting. not surprisingly he didn't come again.
a couple of years later he came over to me in a bar. before i could apologise about it he started to thank me for sticking up for him (the guy who had originally introduced him had told him what happened after he left). he told me he'd heard it all so many times that he didn't give a shit and it just saved him time on working out who all the pricks are.
i saw him again at a gig a few months later and we went for some drinks afterwards. at some point he came straight out and said he wanted to take me home and fuck me. i must have looked truly shocked because he immediately apologised and told me to forget he'd said it. we still ended up going back to his flat though and after not very long he leaned in and started to kiss me, giving me an instant hard on. he started to suck me off and in no time i was sucking his dick in return, immediately loving it and turning out to be a bit of a natural.
as i came up for air i said 'i wonder what the card school would say if they could see this'. he replied playfully 'i don't think we have to wonder do we you little fuckin faggot.' i was caught by surprise but it really turned me on and i just went full deep throat on his thick cock, hoping he'd see i had liked it.

'that's it you little cocksucker. gag on it like a fucking bitch'. he held my head in place and started to fuck my face, not aggressively but hard enough that i was gasping for air and struggling to swallow the incredibly thick saliva it was generating. the more he talked the hornier it felt; 'suck my dick. go on suck my fucking dick. yes, what a fucking slut' he pulled his cock out of my mouth and i was gasping for air, sticky saliva stringing from my mouth and eyes streaming but straining to go down on it again as he pulled it away 'mmm. cockhungry little queer aren't you?' i didn't answer. i was loving it but i felt too embarrassed to say 'yes i am'.
he wasn't having that though. 'where do you want this dick? tell me.' 'in my mouth' 'what do you want in there?' 'dick' he was holding my head and slapping me in the face now with his hard cock but stopping me from getting my mouth on it. 'say it all and ask nicely' my frustration was massive now. all the years of thinking i would probably like this and the lovely hard, bobbing cock just out of reach. i hit some sort of tipping point. any remnant of pride or embarrassment had gone and i found myself on my knees in front of this man, pleading 'please let me suck your cock'
he actually started to laugh. not in a cruel way. i just think he was surprised at how totally submissive i'd become so quickly from being mr. straight in the bars.
he seemed a bit embarrassed for me and he just stood me up and started to kiss me in a much more relaxed way. after a while we got all steamed up again. he sort of turned me to face away from him while hugging me round the waist. he started to grind his cock against my buttocks as he kissed my neck and breathed hot into my ear, 'do you want to be a proper queer tonight then?' 'yes i do' 'tell me what you want me to do' 'i want you to fuck me really hard' still whispering in my ear 'like a bitch?' 'yes' 'say it' 'i want you to fuck me and make me your bitch'
he just giggled at me. i don't think he got just how much this did for me.
he led me into his bedroom and we carried on kissing and sucking each other. he opened his bedside drawer and pulled out what i've since grown to see as the essentials; condoms, lubricant, fresh bottle of poppers.
he introduced me to the pleasure of having an experienced man tongue my hole, got a couple of fingers in there and lubed me up to make me ready.
now all the words i've quoted in this relating of the tale are pretty approximate, but one thing i am sure of because it was at this point that i was definitely regretting adding 'really hard' to my request for a fucking.
i needn't have worried though. he was pretty considerate in getting his fairly thick cock into me. i'd tried poppers in dance clubs and didn't rate it but he held the bottle out to me and told me to take a deep pull. as the vapour took it's warming effect things just got incredibly intense and intimate. for a first time it was incredible.
i was lying on my front, legs slightly open. he was fucking me, slowly but deep, and i was overcome with sexual pleasure, pushing my hips up to meet each thrust. i'd expected it to be good and dirty but not to be actually beautiful. for a few minutes i felt i actually loved him and would do just about anything to please him.

we did it again later that night and it was then that things did get good and dirty. he was going hard at it, me on my back, legs splayed, his face above mine dripping sweat onto me. it was then as he was thrusting hard that the name calling started again. 'you gonna tell your friends you are a faggot now then?' 'no' 'gonna be a little closet queer then?' no answer 'gonna have to be. know why?' no answer 'cos you fucking love dick in your ass like a fucking bitch that's why don't you?' 'yes' 'it's not even your ass any more. you get fucked in the c**t. where am i fucking you?' 'c**t'
'tell me you're a fucking pussy boy' 'i'm a fucking pussy boy'. this went on until he came, this time pulling out of me, removing the condom and (considering this was the second time) dropping an impressive amount of cum onto my face; me getting and loving my first taste of his cum

so there it was. my fate was sealed. submissive, passive, bitch, pussy boy, call me what you will. i love to please men by taking their cock and it still turns me on to get a full verbal assault from the sort of man who can pull it off. why does it get me going so much? i suppose it must be because i know that everything they are saying is true.

Last night i drove to a man's house so that he could fuck me.

He had a very thick cock and it was made even more ferocious by having a very pronounced mushroom head.

I thought this would be much too big for my tight hole and was very shy of letting him screw me. he was up for it though and quite aggressively used fingers and a dildo to open me up. this hurt a lot and not in a way that i enjoyed.

Then he lubed me up and started to push it in. Again there wasn't much finesse and i thought i was going to pass out when he got it past the opening. He didn't wait for me to relax afterwards like the other men have and he just went for it from the off. After a while though it started to ease up and i was loving it. i felt very gay as he fucked me really hard and i strained to push back against his thick cock.

Tonight my hole is starting to feel very bruised and sore. I think he could have taken more care getting it in and i wouldn't have been in as much pain now. Still, i think that in four or five days it will start to feel a little better.
I am already planning for who I can hook up with then. I suspect it might even feel really hot to get fucked while it's a bit tender and sore. I think I may even know a few men who will get turned on to be confronted with the kind of slut who's hole is still bruised from a previous lover