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Walking Buddy 2

Since my older lover and I have started having sex ,Al and I have had mutual oral but he has primarily been the bottom in intercourse .He knows I have been curious about trying to receive anal and he gave me lots of tips to ready my asshole for some loving. I purchased a dildo a couple months ago and have been using that on myself to practice .It is of average size like my lover's 6 inch cut cock .I find the dildo now slides in easily with lube and feels great.

Last night I was incredibly horny and ready to be fucked for the first time .At 44 I had only had gay sex with him and now ready to go all the way with it. My 64 yr old slim lover lubed me up well and after a couple of glasses of wine, he got behind me in the bed and mounted me nice and slow .His cock felt amazing and slid in easily. By my lover's moans I knew it felt as god for him as it did for me .Soon my moans matched his as he fucked me steadily doggy style. Finally his body shook and he deposited a big load of his cream in my ass emptying himself fully into me. I felt some sexy contractions and had my first anal type orgasm .It was deep and intense and nothing like when my cock shoots in his mouth or ass .I was still feeling deep internal pleasure 10 minutes later. God I loved it. We shared a cigarette and agreed that from now on when I need a good fuck he will oblige and help me feel like he does when I fuck him .I think I will still mostly be the top but look forward to explore this side of my sexuality too.

My Boss

I ended up taking my boss’s dick last night at the job site. We were changing back into our street clothes. So I was standing in a shirt and gray FTL briefs, he was in a shirt and white Hanes briefs.

One comment lead to another, I was on my knees with sucking his big uncut married dick with his tighty whities under his balls. My boss is 50 years old but in excellent shape.

Few minutes later I stood ups, pulled my briefs off then opened the back door on the company truck. I leaned over so that my ass was pointing out. My boss still with his tighty whities under his balls opened up the passenger front door, grabbed his hand lotion out of his bag and put a good amount on my butthole.

He slide his dick in. Quite thick for my tight hole but I took it. He fucked me for about 5 minutes before cumming in me. I turned around and came all over the ground after he pulled out of me.

As I was cumming he put his dick back in his tighty whities and was putting his jeans on. I grabbed my briefs off the back of the truck put them on, then put my jeans on. I got in the driver seat of the truck and we headed out.

I dropped him off at his house and he said what we just did stays between us. I said no need to say that. He told me he liked it and he wasn’t getting any at home anymore and he hadn’t fucked a guy since he was 20.

Since then we’ve had sex two other times. Both times in my apartment so that he can wash his dick off after sex. He says the anal stink is noticeable when he pulls his foreskin back if he doesn’t wash off.

Walking Buddy 3

As I become more and more receptive to the joys of gay sex with my older partner I notice an increase in my attractions towards men and the male body .I have confided in my lover about this and reassure him I do not want to cheat on him just that I find men more and more attractive especially older men. He thinks it is just a natural letting go of intrinsic repressed desires that I probably have had for many years and just to let go and enjoy it.

We often watch gay porn together as part of our foreplay and this makes my cock even harder .We also wear matching black cock rings and walk nude around his apartment enjoying the feeling and look of our hard cocks sticking out .I realize that for years I glanced at men's bulges sometimes and wondered what a cock felt like in a mouth or ass. I felt a pull towards older men no matter their looks .I guess I repressed it until my lover awakened me that morning almost a year ago now and sucked my cock to orgasm. Since then I picture him and his cock a lot and get horny easily .I also check other men out and wonder what their cocks would feel like in my mouth.

After Al fucked me nice last night for the first time I feel a new receptivity and desire to be also on the receiving end .I suspect I am versatile both a top and bottom with a man. Open to the different pleasures attached to this.

When I was 20 and living on the west coast I stumbled on an ocean beach that had various naked men walking around and engaging in gay sex .It excited me but I was afraid to act on the desires when various men propostioned me.I recall taking off my bathing suit and letting my rock hard cock swing in the wind as I observed men on their knees sucking cocks and getting fucked hard on the sand .I was so horny I had to jerk off one right there and after spraying a huge load over the sand I quickly put my swimsuit back on and hastily departed .For years I masturbated thinking of that experience and what would have happened if I let go and indulged in gay sex .I suspect I never would have gotten married and turned to men from then on if I had given in to the desires .Because now sexually all I think about is men and sex with my lover .Perhaps it was better to be a late bloomer I don't know.

Some time back I posted a story about my hot Fiji Indian pool boy...and the first time we fucked. Since then we have been very regular fuck buddies and all was just fine until the inevitable happened..we were caught in bed nude and asleep in each others arms by my neighbours son who had come over to get me for a run. My bedroom opens directly to the pool and we had fucked with the doors wide open. I completely freaked...felt sick in the stomach and started to jabber on about shit...he stood there in his little running shorts and T looking at us as I grabbed a sarong and pulled the bedclothes over my beautiful nude lover who was as startled as I was. Then he just held up his hand and stopped me jabbering. Without saying a word he pulled his T over his head and slid his little shorts off, just standing there in a jock strap, socks and runners. He is only 22 and has a great tanned body...my cock immediately hardened and I dropped the sarong to the floor. I slid the doors closed and led him to the bed. We both pulled back the covers to reveal my hot lover...his smooth black body arched as he got into the middle of the bed. His huge erection was soon in our new friends mouth...I got in behind him and spread his legs so I could enjoy his beautiful tanned ass in his jock and went down on his smooth hole, licking and probing it with my tongue. We moved about the bed, kissing sucking and licking...rithing together in intense passion, now all nude. Then with my lover on his back I entered him, exposing my hot ass to our new fuck buddy... He slide his beautiful young bare cock into me. We fucked and kissed, then I pulled out and guided him into my lover...watching two beautiful young bodies totally emerged in hot deep bare sex was too much for me. I exploded over them before I could get into his waiting ass...exhausted and dripping in sweat we took a nude swim...I had no idea our neighbours son was gay..we had been going for runs for weeks and he didn't ever hint at it...now we run along the beach with new vigour...to a great little spot at the river mouth were we fuck and sunbathe. My Indian lover joins us in my bed twice a week when my wife is away after he has done the pool in his thong while we watch nude from the day bed. He can't be seen running with us....

Army Daze

Back in my Army days in Germany, my roommate and I became good friends. We would go out drinking whenever we had the next day off and I always drank in excess. I was 19 and Tim was a couple years older than me. I was barely out of high school and he took me under his wing and showed me the ropes.

After a night of drinking, Tim would always insist on mixing me a glass of Alka-Seltzer. He claimed it prevented hangovers. I never thought it worked much because I always woke up with a hangover but he always insisted, saying the hangovers would be worse if I didn’t take it. I thought it couldn’t hurt so I drank it down. This became a routine until one morning I awoke and realized I was naked. I always slept in my briefs, with nothing else. Somehow my briefs had gotten stuffed between the mattress and wall. I didn’t think much of it at first, I just assumed I had taken them off while dreaming or something.

The next time we returned from a night of drinking I noticed he had pulled something from his locker before he mixed the Alka-Seltzer. That’s when I had the crazy idea he might be adding something to the drink. I realized I was probably being paranoid and drank it down. The next morning I woke up as usual but noticed my anus was a little sore. I probably wouldn’t have noticed but remembering the night before, my suspicions were peaked again. Could my good friend be doing something to me while I’m drunk and asleep? Surely, if he was, he must be giving me something, otherwise I would wake up. We never locked our lockers when we were in the room so the next time he took a shower I decided to do a little inspection. Sure enough, I found a bottle of Benadryl on the top shelf. It was for allergies but I knew it was also used to help people sleep.

I decided that the next time we go out I wasn’t going to drink much. We always went with a bunch of guys so I didn’t think he would notice if I wasn’t drinking as much. It was easy, I would have a couple of sips of my beer and then take it with me to the jukebox or to mingle with the other guys and set down the bottle while it was still almost full. I hated wasting the beer but I needed to be sober if I were going to find out what Tim was up to.

When we got back to the barracks I was barely feeling a buzz but pretended to be drunk. I watched Tim like a hawk when he got the Alka-Seltzer and a bottle of water. I noticed that he went to his locker and he appeared to pull something from the top shelf. Then he mixed the hangover prevention and for the first time I noticed that he seemed to stir it a lot longer than necessary. He handed me the glass and I took a small sip and then waited for him to turn away so I could pour it into a large tumbler on the dresser.

By this time I felt wide awake and sober but kept up the act of being drunk. I stripped down to my briefs and crawled under the covers. Tim did the same after turning out the lights. I laid there for about 45 minutes to an hour waiting for Tim to make a move. I was on my side facing Tim’s bunk so I could see what he was doing. I heard him get out of his bed so I partially opened my eyes. The only light was coming from under the door and the lights from our alarm clocks so he wouldn’t be able to tell my eyes were open.

First he called out my name softly. I didn’t answer so he put his hand on my shoulder and shook me, calling my name again. I lay quietly pretending to be passed out. Then he pulled the covers off of me and started to pull down my briefs. I wanted to see how far he would go so I continued to lay there motionless. He completely removed my briefs and then grabbed my cock and started stroking it. I have to admit the warmth of his hand felt good and I started getting hard. After a few minutes, he took me into his mouth and started giving me the best blowjob I had ever had. I thought about jumping up and stopping him but it felt so good. I decided let him finish.

He was truly talented with his mouth and within minutes I was emptying my cum into his mouth. Before I knew what was happening, Tim rolled me onto my stomach and was mounting me from behind. In one quick move he was between my legs and pushing his cock inside me. I was surprised at how easily it went in but then, he had probably fucked me ten times before.

As I contemplated how I was going to confront him his pumping got faster and he was cumming inside me. Then he gently put my briefs back on. I decided I would just wait until the next day to say something, although I had no idea how I was going to do it.

The next morning we woke up and Tim acted as if nothing had happened, just like every other morning. I know I should have said something to him and, hell, even report him but decided not to. If it got out that I had been fucked, even without consent, I would have been labeled a queer. Besides, Tim had been a good friend and the fact was, it felt really good being fucked. It may be hard to believe but I let this go on for almost 9 months until he was transferred out.

Busted

In my freshman year of college I would visit a neighborhood park where men would cruise for sex. I came upon an older man sitting on a picnic table. The tables were placed along walking trails and were secluded from each other. He was a handsome man, about 40, wearing a business suit. We exchanged hellos and he took off his jacket and started rubbing his crotch. I just stared as I saw his dick grow under the fabric of his pants.

I was wearing thin nylon running shorts with no underwear and a t-shirt. I slowly walked towards him as I pulled my shorts down exposing my own engorged manhood. He was sitting on the end of the table with his legs hanging over the edge and laid back with his hands behind his head. I knelt down between his legs. The table was at a perfect height for me to give him a blowjob. I unbuckled and unzipped his pants and pulled out his long uncircumcised member and began to lick and suck him as I stroked myself.

I heard something move behind me and felt the presence of someone. It startled me at first but the person didn't say anything. I assumed it was just another cruiser who wanted to watch, which was not unusual. The man who was on the receiving end of my hot mouth didn't seem to notice as he was moaning and getting close to climax. A few minutes later he was shooting a hot load of cum down my throat.

As I was cleaning up the remnants of his sperm with my tongue, I heard movement behind me again. I had all but forgotten about the voyeur behind me.

Suddenly, I heard, "police, don't move." The man I had just blown was up on his feet and running in an instant. I tried to stand up but was grabbed from behind before I could get my shorts up.

The cop had his left arm around my neck as he flashed a badge in front of my face. At least I think it was a badge, I couldn’t be sure. He shoved me towards the table and pushed me down so I was leaning over it. He handcuffed my hands behind my back, telling me I was under arrest. This was back before homosexuality was widely accepted and it definitely wasn’t in the small conservative college town.

I was terrified of being arrested. I would probably be kicked out of school, not to mention the possibility of jail. I begged the cop to let me go and lied saying the other guy had forced me. He didn’t say a word as he started to frisk me, starting at my head and moving down my chest to my stomach and groin. My shorts were still around my knees so there was nothing to search. He grabbed my balls and then my still semi-hard dick.

Then he leaned over and whispered in my ear, “Don’t lie to me queer, I’ve been following you from the parking lot. Nobody forced you to do anything.”

I tried to hold back the tears as I thought my life was over. He let go of me briefly and I heard what sounded like his zipper. I then heard him spit and felt his wet fingers rubbing the crack of my ass. It hurt as he forced a finger inside my virgin hole. He moved it in and out for a few seconds before pushing another finger inside. He removed his fingers and I could feel something thicker and hotter pushing against my ass. He was holding me down with one hand as he guided his dick with the other. It felt massive as it pushed at the forbidden opening. I thought it would never fit inside me.

He moaned as he pushed the head in and then slowly pumped until he was in up to the hilt. The pain was awful at first but subsided as he pumped slowly in and out. It seemed to go on forever and became ever more pleasurable with each passing minute. Soon he was thrusting faster and grunting until he shot his load into my bowels.

As he pulled out of me he said, “stay out of this park or next time you’ll get fucked AND go to jail.” He took off the handcuffs and I just stayed their frozen for a minute or two. When I stood up he was gone.

I continued going to the park at least once a week until I graduated, hoping to be stopped by the anonymous lawman. I began to wonder if he really was a police officer or an imposter. Since that day I’ve fantasized about being taken in a similar fashion by cops. I have hooked up with a few. They never mind using their handcuffs on me but it’s not the same knowing it was just pretend.

Last Customer

A few years ago I left a crummy paying job in a retail book store that went out of business. I had worked mainly in retail and the only other job I could find at the time was another low paid position at an adult video store located in this strip plaza along a highway.

I worked evenings until midnight, changed the rotation of the porn movies in the video booths, worked the cash register as we rented and sold porn dvds and toys etc .I also did some clean up duties and locked up .There were fewer and fewer customers coming in as it is a bit of a dying business as you can stream porn in your home easily. Of course some guys came in for the purpose of blowing each other or having sex in the booths so for sure the store attracted that crowd .I was bi curious I suppose and watching so much porn on the screens overhead had the effect of making me horny as hell some shifts .I would sometimes beat my meat in the washroom a couple times a shift to relieve the sexual tension.

One older middle aged guy of average build with vaseline slicked thinning hair and glasses showed up 3-4 times a week just before we closed and always took a booth closest to me at the cash .I could see him look relaxed when he emerged so I knew he had likely masturbated one off watching porn in the booth. A few months later I worked a day shift because a guy was sick and I discovered this customer was the owner of the strip plaza as I saw him directing a couple contractors who were doing renovations in one of the stores. I recall him saying he owned the fucking place to the men and expected better work. He then went upstairs to his office above one of the stores.

One night he came in at his usual time. He approached me and said he was sad that the store was going to close soon due to lack of business and being behind in the rent. My boss had mentioned nothing to me about it. He then smiled and said he had a proposal for me. He said he was thinking of moving the video booth he frequented to his office once the store was sold and recapturing that experience in his office late at night by using the booth and watching porn. He asked me if I would be interested in helping him get off in that booth regularly and he would offer me other duties as a paid position helping him out with the plaza. I was dumbfounded and did not know how to respond to his offer or just walk away. He then said hey join me in the booth now and see if it is your thing. He then entered the booth and waited for me. I thought well I need a job and I am bi curious and I do not want to be unemployed. So I went into the dark booth to join him in there. He already had his pants down, a porn playing and his cock out which was hard. He reached out for me and guided me close. He put my hand on his cock and I began feeling it. It felt kind of sexy and I noticed it got stiffer. It was circumcised and of average size. I milked it a bit and could feel the precum oozing from the head. He gently pushed me onto my knees and aimed his cock at my mouth. I looked at it then opened my mouth taking it between my lips. I sucked on the head and realized I quite liked sucking him. He groaned and I took more of his hard cock in my mouth. He grabbed my head and fucked my mouth. He exploded real fast and his cum spurted into my mouth. I swallowed it not knowing what else to do and felt slutty doing that .He said that was real good boy you got the job. We left the booth and I had to go to the washroom to masturbate off my load I was so horny from sucking him. He left the store and I locked up. Sure enough a couple months later the video store was sold and closed for good .And as he promised I began sucking his cock and servicing him in that booth now located in his office. I also worked for him and did all sorts of jobs around the plaza.

It has been 5 years ago and I am real used to draining that horny cock of his and taking his loads. Sometimes he jerks me off in the booth but I am mainly his cocksucker. I am kind of addicted to pleasing him now one would say.

Pandemic Buddies

Late in 2019 I took this job in a large distribution facility .One of my older co workers took a shine to me and we were soon fast friends hanging out together. Then the pandemic hit and we were both worried about visiting people and getting the virus that sort of thing.

Ed who was 55 at the time suggested I move into his 2 bedroom apartment and hang out together and limit our social contacts .We were both divorced and single and had lots in common so I thought it was a good idea so I moved in with him and took the other bedroom. Not only did I save money we got along great .I was 41 then and got used to going to work with Ed then hanging with him at the apartment .He is shorter than me around 5ft 8 but quite stocky and muscular with short greying brown hair and a moustache .I am around 6ft 1 205 and cleanshaven with a full head of brown hair .We shared chores and became real comfy with one another.

One Sunday afternoon I was a little hung over and took a shower to wake up .I put on a bathrobe after the shower and saw a pack of Ed's cigarettes on the coffee table in the living room. I took a cigarette as I craved a smoke and lit it up lounging on a leather chair .I had that slightly dazed horny feeling I get after drinking the night before. My cock was stiff and poking from beneath the robe as I had nothing on underneath .At that moment Ed came out of his bedroom in a bathrobe and I realized that on his way to shower he may see my hard cock .Sure enough he smiled at me looking down and instead of going to the shower he slowly got on his knees and guided my erect cock into his wet mouth .It felt so good in his mouth that when he started sucking my cock I gently guided his head with my one hand as I smoked with the other .God he was good at this I thought and he soon had me moaning loud as I blew my load of semen between his eager lips .He made sure I was fully drained before standing up. His own cut cock stood stiff and erect from his body .Ed reached for my hand and said join me in the shower I need you to jerk me off quick .I went with him and we stood naked in the shower under the hot water .He surprised me with a passionate kiss as he looked up at me and wrapped his arms around me. He was so horny and passionate I kissed him back hard enjoying the mounting lust .I grabbed his stiff boner and began masturbating him hard. Ed was soon shaking as I milked his load all over the shower floor .We soaped and cleaned each other then retired to his bedroom for more necking .I realized we were becoming more than just buddies and wanted sex with each other too. That night we talked for hours in bed admitting we wanted the other sexually and to explore further .Before I went to sleep Ed blew me again and this time I lasted a bit longer before I filled his mouth with my cum .In the almost a year since Ed and I are now regular lovers and take turns sucking and fucking the other .I find now I am horny for him and him for me almost constantly and we now share the same bed every night .I am now just as used to his meaty thicker cock in my mouth and ass as he is used to my slimmer cut cock in his.

Cocksucking Delight

I moved to a smaller city in 2019 and took a job at a local hardware store. Then I was in my late 20's,a tall lean single guy trying to forget his past and start a new life .Women had caused me some issues so I was taking a break from the dating scene.

The job was relaxing and no pressure and I liked my coworkers and boss. There were 2 apartments above the store the landlord who owned the building rented out and I occupied a big apartment on the 3rd floor with a big window in the front. The other apartment at the back was rented out by a middle aged guy who worked for a renovations contractor. When I first moved in I did not have much contact with him .However when the pandemic hit we did curbside delivery and I was home a lot more and so was he. John and I began chatting and getting to know one another better.

John is in his late 50's balding with a thick white moustache and a stocky build .At first he seemed a bit gruff but warmed up to me as time went on .On weekends I began going over to his place for beers and chats and we watched a lot of action movies together .He liked porn as well and we started watching straight porn flicks on DVD he had with lots of fucking and cocksucking action .Being a horny young guy I started getting boners in my pants watching those movies. He glanced over a lot scanning my bulge and I could see he often had erections as well .Over time we began checking each other out more and more .One Saturday night he commented how one gal really enjoyed blowing this guy and he would love a blowjob like that. He joked that he wouldn't mind if I was on my knees polishing his knob. His comment made me horny as hell and when I looked at him I could not stop staring at his erection and wondered if I would enjoy sucking it. He caught me staring at his cock and asked if I would want to try it now. My gut filled with lust and I decided to take him up on his offer .I bent down in front of him as he sat on the couch as he pulled his track pants and underwear down. He unleashed his fat cut cock which was average length but had a decent width to it. It looked sexy to me and I slowly engulfed the head of it with my wet mouth .It felt right in my mouth and I began to suck on it .My cock hardened and I felt sexy blowing him so I took more of his cock in my mouth .I sucked him urgently as he groaned .After several minutes of sucking him his body began to quiver and his cock started spurting his creamy cum into my mouth .I was not sure what to do so I swallowed it and felt kind of slutty doing that .He emptied his cock in my mouth and I took it all swallowing every drop. He sat back and thanked me saying he loved the blowjob. He patted the spot beside him and I sat down there on that spot as he pulled down my pants and underwear. He took out my stiff cock and milked it rapidly until I shot my load into his other hand. I lay back emptied of my juice and speechless .Later we talked about what happened and both admitted we enjoyed it a lot .John asked me if I would like this to be a regular thing between us and I agreed .So since then it has been about a year I have been sucking his cock regularly 2-3x a week and loving it.He masturbates me after I have blown him and sometimes I sleep over in his bed .I have become his cocksucker now and prefer this role sexually to any sex I ever had previously .I think about his sexy fat cock all the time and how to please him with my willing mouth.

Repressed Homosexual

I was newly divorced at 33 after a 10 yr marriage to a woman I loved but had no real sexual attraction to. Throughout my teens and 20's I had gay fantasies that I tried to suppress and thought marriage would cure me of them .When in bed with my ex wife during the marriage I would think of older men in order to orgasm and felt terribly guilty about it.

At first when I was newly single in the late 80's I went to singles bars thinking maybe I would meet a hot woman who would take my mind off these desires .Instead I would be checking out the men in the bars especially guys over 40 and masturbate at home after wards thinking about having sex with them .One night in a bar I met this divorced guy around my age who told me if he did not score with a woman he would go this hotel bar that was known to be frequented by men looking for sex with men and let some guy blow him in that guy's hotel room .There were lots of traveling business types married and single there who looked for gay liaisons when travelling for business .His admission turned me on and I could not stop thinking about what happened at this hotel bar .I went home and masturbated hard that night imagining I went to the bar for sex.

I thought about this for a couple months and finally got the nerve to go to the hotel bar .I got dressed up nice and splashed on some cologne .I looked in the mirror seeing a tall straight looking lean guy with wavy thick hair who had no issue attracting women .Now I felt a surge of excitement and desire knowing I was going to a place to attract male attention .I was attracted to older masculine guys so hope for their attention.

I got to the bar which was a nice place with some guy singing at a piano and a long bar. I nervously made my way to the bar and had a drink .I lit up a cigarette and waited. At first there was only several men there but later the bar filled up with men .An older tall distinguished gent with short grey hair ,moustache and glasses around 60 sat beside me and introduced himself .He said his name was Art and he was a married sales rep who visited my city about once a month for business and stayed 3-4 nights .He was very friendly and I noticed he was looking me up and down with interest. This excited me and for the first time in my life I felt flirty and seductive with a man .I took deep wet drags on my cigarette and glanced at him with interest .I felt horny as hell. It was inevitable he asked me up to his room after a few drinks .I went eagerly and when we got to his room he kissed my mouth standing up as soon as the door was closed. The kiss awakened me and I kissed his mouth back passionately .We necked lustily for awhile then he had us get on the bed while he took his clothes off and mine. His cock was sticking out hard and was around 6 inches long and circumsized .My slightly bigger cut cock was hard as well matching his. He appeared experienced and was soon sucking on my cock in the bed as I moaned .Being 33 I was soon having an orgasm and he swallowed all of my cum in his mouth greedily .I lay back and lit a cigarette satisfied and he took a few drags .He was horny so he began masturbating his cock and blew his load into a kleenex he had grabbed .He told me he was gay even though married and his wife knew he had these adventures but accepted it .I admitted to him I was likely gay as well and recently had come out of a marriage .This intrigued him and he asked me if I was open to a regular affair with him when he came to town monthly .I nodded yes and found my cock was stiffening again as I thought about sex with him .I sensed the mutual attraction and felt happy about it .Art blew me again and we fell asleep in each other's arms. In the morning I left him as he prepared for a business meeting .I had given him my phone number.

A month later Art was in town again and called me .This time I went to meet him right in his hotel room and we necked passionately before going to bed .I was excited to suck him for the first time and he lay on the bed as I gave him a slow lingering blowjob .I loved how his cock felt in my mouth and the act of sucking him made me hard as a rock .I was surprised I could get all of his cock in my mouth easily as it felt like I was a natural at cock sucking .I took his load eagerly and he returned the favor a few minutes later .I slept with him again and visited him the next 2 nights for sex as well .Each time I saw him the next few times I felt myself letting go more and more .By the 4th month of seeing him Art was fucking me with his cock and I loved that as well .With lube and the dildo I bought myself I found I could take all of his cock easily without any pain after a couple of fucking sessions. Art usually mounted me from behind in the bed though sometimes I rode him as well on top. Now the oral sex was mixed in with intercourse and I felt our relationship was getting increasingly loving and passionate. After a year of this Art told me he was in love with me and was thinking of leaving his wife and moving here to be with me .I was having similar loving feelings about him but this scared me .I was not yet ready top settle down with a man and wanted to have other lovers first. This hurt Art and he told me he could not see me anymore .I was sad but accepted this .After this I stopped going to the hotel bar and instead began going to gay bars and getting picked up by older men I met there. This led to one night stands and some gay affairs .I am currently single and have dated mainly men my own age or a bit older the past few years. I was with one man for 10 years and lived with him but his drinking was too much .I have been definitely out of the closet for over 30 years now but that is how it all started.