My Son Is Turning 20. He Was Turning 2 When I Came Out To His Father
So I'm coming out completely. I am a lesbian. OK. I was in high school when my golf coach 'licked my clit'. It was unwelcome and unplanned. She told me she knew I was going to like it and she got me neutralized and licked my clit and ate me out. The thing I remember most was how much I gushed, she commented on it and her face was wet from her chin to her forehead. After eating me she said I had the best pussy ever and not to let an asshole fuck me.
I was left with this unfilled feeling. I pressed my fingers down on my clit and rubbed and rubbed. I stuck my fingers in my vagina. I tried and tried to get off, but I wasn't doing it right. As soon as I got to that moment I quit, I didn't follow through. I have a cousin who is a year older than me, and he was my 'best friend' at the time. I told him about what my coach had done and I couldn't settle down. He put his whole hand in my pussy and pressed me as hard as he could. He told me that I had to be fucked. Sorry, but that is what I had coming for messing around with my coach. He fucked me. Like fucked me. No pretreatment, no foreplay, nothing. Just stuck his dick in me and fucked me until he came in me. He fucked me twice. Once with my clothes on and the second time he stripped me naked. Both time he came in me. That's how immature we were, and inexperienced.
I have always been very impulsive. I was walking around like the cat that ate the canary and my mother asked me what I had done. I broke down and told her my cousin had fucked me. I didn't tell her about my coach that afternoon. My mother went into medical mode, where, how long, did he cum in you. I told her I didn't know, he fucked me twice, but I didn't know. She asked me if he had shot out his semen on me, on my stomach, did he? No. She was upset. She knew right then that I had been fucked and I has semen in me. And I was very vulnerable to being pregnant. Mother's know when your cycle is, she knew. And she knew that young men are very potent at that age, volumes of cum and very active swimmers, swimming right up to you ovaries. She didn't say it in a mean way 'your going to be pregnant'.
I kept my mouth shut about my coach that started it all up. I spent the pregnancy at home, with a visiting teacher. I had a normal delivery and a boy at that. I called him Arthur, but I didn't like Art. My mom made sure I kept my vagina to myself and away from my cousin. She also knew that my cousin was going to fuck me again, men always do. As soon as possible after giving birth I had an IUD implanted. That did not mean I could fuck. But just in case.
My cousin had been kept off of me for the entire pregnancy and now that I was back to normal he wanted me again. He has wolf eyes, that's what my mother said. And you my dear are the sheep. It was in the afternoon, my mother was at work and I was tending to the baby. He came over to see his son. But pussy was on his mind. He made me suck his dick but that wasn't enough, lay back and take it was more like it. The man has come for his woman, the wolf for his lamb. He fucked me. Only this time it was a real fuck, grabbing tits and ass, and kissing and fingering me first to get me wet enough. This time I was hot, and he fucked me, he was hot too. This time my brain got twisted around.
My mother decided we should get married, before another 'accident' happened. My mother wasn't so sure about it, but better married than getting pregnant again being single. Plus, who would know 20 years later that I married him after having his son. It was a small ceremony, close family and friends. No one was fooled, I held my son in my arms when we got married. I had never experienced love for a man, but now I was supposed to feel it down to my bones. I went full on wife and talked about it with my mother and my older relatives (women). I didn't need to talk about how he made love. It was already obvious that he made love with me.
I went to nursing school. It was an LVN program in our county. I met a girl there and she was a 'clit licker'. As long as I didn't tell, no one would be the wiser. Every time I had a clit licking contest with her I went home and forced my husband to fuck me, and make it count. He could tell that something was bugging me, and after one such fuck, I confessed to licking clit with my college friend. I remember praying when I was a child. That night I fell to my knees beside the bed and prayed again, but instead of looking up to heaven I looked up to my husband for forgiveness. I wasn't ashamed. I was a lesbian coming out to my husband.
