I've abused my kitty. I've hurt her when I've been stressed, and even made her lick my pussy. I was depressed and confused and in a drug induced craze. I feel awful. I won't do it again. I want to forgive myself but it hurts to admit what I did. I don't know why. I wanted control, I wanted power, I wanted to feel better. I had to tell someone, idk who to talk to about it in case someone will take her away. It make me want to hurt myself because I'm so ashamed in the way I've acted. I'm gross. I'm disgusting. I should be put down.