this is so awkward, but here goes... i can't get the thought out of my head about what it would feel like to have a penis. i watched this stupid movie about 3 weeks ago and in the start of it, there was this guy and girl going at it--just tv movie sex type of thing, but as it turns out they exchanged consciousness with each other to have sex. so the he is really the her, and the she is really the him. Once they were done they switched back. i think about this all the time now, but instead of me being a guy, it's me with a cock.

i wake-up almost every night orgasming from the dream. it's me with one of my friends, not always the same one and sometimes it's a stranger, we're out walking on the beach and i start feeling strangely uncomfortable down in my privates. when i rub the area i notice there is something there that shouldn't be and i take a look. when i get my jeans and panty off, i'm freaked out that i have a cock. this really freaks out my friend or the person i'm with and she just start going off at me about tricking everyone into thinking i'm a female. the cock gets hard as she's yelling at me, that feels so incredible as it's growing, and then i rape her. i push her down and literally rip her clothes off. this excites me even more as she struggles and screams trying to get away. when i get in position to have sex with her, the cock touches her and i wake up in a fantastic orgasm.

i am so not like that in real life or my normal thoughts, i'm not lesbian or bi either. this is really getting scary to me. i don't see and chance of this happening, but i feel like i'm turning into some kind of sick minded sexual predator inside.