I've settled into a pattern. whenever my husband and I get in a serious fight, I head out for a few hours. I go to a bar and have a few drinks. Sometimes I go home and sometimes I go to my sister's. A few months ago I was so pissed I went to a bar and sat in the corner drinking and stewing. Some biker looking guy came over and said something rather sexist and rude but for some reason it didn't bother me. I said something just as rude back at him.

Twenty minutes later I was sucking his cock in the parking lot. when he came in my mouth I swallowed his cum and thought yea fuck you to my husband.

It happened again recently. I ended up blowing four different guys out of anger. Two of them were friends at the bar together and the other two were just scuzzy bar dudes. I get so mad at my husband I want to get back at him somehow and this is what I find myself doing.