My Uncle Abused Me But I Liked It (and Still Do)

So when I was about 9 years old my single mom who worked as a nurse spent a lot of time at work. At this time I stayed at my uncles a lot. I liked him very much (since I never met my father) and I didn't mind staying at his home. He didn't have a wife either and the guestbedrom was like my second home. At one evening we were watching a movie and as usual I was cuddled up against his side. After a few hours his hand who rested on my thigh made his way to my little pecker. He was gently rubbing over my dick and balls I didn't say anything. A short time later he asked me if that felt good. I had no idea about sex or anything related to that so I replied that it indeed felt good. At some point he stuck his hand into my pjs and was massaging my dick for a while. I was confused when I got hard and he told me that my pecker was telling him that it felt good aswell. So this evening he spent all the time until I passed out fondeling my dick and balls. I woke up some time later being carried by him into his bedroom. I didn't mind to sleep with him in his bed since I did that a few times before when I was scared of monsters under the bed and stuff. It was a very hot summer night and he asked me if it was okay for him to take off my cloths to sleep. I was half asleep and half awake and of course I agreed with a "mhh". He took of my cloths and like the other nights with him he put his arm around me ans spooned me. But this night his hand was glued to my dick and I remember waking up a few times because of his fondeling. At the next day before mom picked me up he told me that he was my only uncle and therefor the only one who was allowed to make me feel good and that it needed to be our secret. Me not thinking anything bad and being oblivious to what was going on of course I pinky sweard to not tell anyone. For the next few weeks my unlce had his hands in my undies all the time when I was at his house and I liked it very much. Then at one evening he told me that he could make me feel even better. I told him that I wanted him to do that to me and a few minutes later he took my dick in his mouth for the first time. I liked it from the start and from then on his head was burried in my lap a lot of times. I remember one time where I was about 11 years old. My mom just dropped me off in the afternoon and moments after mom left the house he took off my pants and undies. He then picked me up facing him and lifted me into the air. He then told me to put my legs on his shoulders and hold on to his head which I did. He took my dick into his mouth and sucked it for what felt like forever. I enjoyed every moment and at some time I begun shaking. I didn't know what was happening and a short time later I think I had my first dry orgasm. At that year he eventually started to lick my buthole aswell. At first I was very ticklish when he did it but I liked it. Around the age of 12 he introduced me to his big hairy cock. At first he told me how I could make him feel good and I learned to jerk his dick. He always shot his load onto the floor for a few months. Eventually he told me that the stuff coming out of his pecker would be good for me. Over some time he slowly introduced me to his cum. He started with shooting some into his Hand and feeding it to me. I didn't really like the taste since it was salty but he told me that it means a lot to him if I lick that stuff. After a few months of tasting I didn't mind the taste anymore. At some point I started swallowing his loads. I would stick out my tongue and he jerked his cock until he shot his ropes onto my tongue and down my throat. I got used to it and sometimes if would ask him if he could give me the white stuff. I asked him for it because I knew it would make him happy and it became normal to me to swallow 2-4 loads every time I stayed at his house. Around that time he begun to stick his finger inside of me whenever he would lick my bum. A few weeks after my 13th birthday he would stick the tip of his dick inside of my bum for the first time. At first it hurt a bit but he was always really careful to not make it painful. That led up to him eventually sticking his tip inside of me and jerking his cock until he came. The hot nature of his goo in me surprised me but I licked the warm and damp feeling it gave me. In the following time he shot his cum up my bum on a regular basis. Sometimes he would stick his dick depper inside of me after he came and wasn't as hard anymore. After some time he would eventually stick the full lengh of his dick inside of me after cumming. I think it was around easter that year when for the first time he left his flacid dick inside of me until it slowly started getting hard again. He was always very careful and was making sure that it didn't hurt. Around halloween that year while he was sucking my dick I shot my first little load. While getting sucked I told him that my dick felt really warm and weird. He then sucked me deeper and with a bit more pressure which ended in me shooting that first twitching load. From then on he always sucked me until I couldn't cum anymore whenerver I stayed at his house. Before the end of that year he once again started to get hard after cumming with his tip inside of me and fucked me with slow careful movements until he came a second time. At my 14th birthday I spend the morning and afternoon at his house until my mom came to pick me up and pay macdonalds a birthday visit. At that exact time he but his dick inside of me without cumming and growing hard again. He sat on the sofa his dick was inside of me and he jerked my cock while fucking me. That day I came with him cumming inside of me a few seconds later. That kind of cumming while being fucked became the new normal for me and we did it ever since. Today I visited him after a long time again since he needed to temporarily move to another city for work for a few months. This was the first day for him being back at his home and of course I spent the whole day and night at his appartment getting fucked and sucked. Right now I'm writing this confession after him cumming up my ass for the last time before he fell asleep with his cum still insidide of me. Society says its wrong but I never felt forced to do anything I didn't want. I don't like guys to be honest but uncle sam is different. He can fuck me and use my cock whenerver he want's and I don't want that to change anytime soon.