Writer

I want to become a writer. I like to write fairytales so i can express my childish side

I also like to write pornography. Not normal pornograpghy but something more abnormal.

For example i started (and i hope to finish) a book story about a 27 year old woman who falls in love with a little boy. It's her boyfriend's son.

The woman's character is introvert and kind and social awkward. Had failed relationships before and she seems weird by her best friend who tries to help her being more social.

By the time she starts having desire for the little boy and wants to be near him as much as possible. That desire was very new to her and she couldn't explain it. And she is friendly with the boy, being like a mother to him who wants to take care of him in so many ways. I won't mention the boy's age in the book but in my mind he is 8-9 year old.

She admires his innocence and cuteness. From the outside she seems very good mother to him but in reality she wants to touch him and pleasure him. She found out the best moment of the day to touch him is when he is asleep.

When she has sex with her boyfriend she fantasize that it's his son.

And finally her boyfriend see naked pictures of his son on his girlfriend's phone and kick her out of his house.

The woman has so much guilt inside her and wants to go to therapy. Found out she was also abused as a little girl by an adult man and she remembered she was enjoying it and she wanted to share this pleasure with the boy.

Her ex boyfriend along with her best friend go to the police to denounce her.

The trial done and she doesn't go to jail eventually (because her therapist said she is sick) but she must not see that boy again.

The woman end up alone with feelings of shame, guilt and thoughts of the boy and trying to continue the therapy.

In this story the boy didn't hurt or had psychological trauma. He was too innocent to understand and he wasn't aware in his sleep that the woman was touching him.