Once You Try It With A Man You Don't Stop

When I was 17 and a senior in high school I went on an out of town choir trip for State finals. We stayed at this Holiday Inn, two to a room. My roommate was Matt and he was an Alto, if you know what that means is that he had a high voice like a girl. He got a lot of shit about it and he was pretty much considered a girl by the other members of the choir, including the girls.

We got ready for bed and he walked in on me in the bathroom and looked at my naked cock and said he thought it was nice, and if I wanted he would suck it for me. Back on the bed he got on my cock and sucked my cock for long while. He asked me if I wanted to cum and he took his hand to work my cock and sucked it at the same time and it a few minutes I was cumming and he was doing his best to lap it up. He told me he wanted to sleep with me and feel my cock against him and to hold him really tight. At night I got my arm around him and he helped me grab his cock and jerk him off.

I didn't consider myself gay, and that night passed into memories, Matt went on to live in San Francisco and be as gay as he could be. When we saw each other back home we were always friends and he reminded me that if I need a good cock sucking he was always available, he considered me his one true love.

Move forward 25 years and I'm at this fishing camp with some other business people and we are paired up two to a room. The man with me who I didn't know got his pants and boxers off and stood in his Tshirt with the point of his cock sticking out. He saw that I kept paying attention to it and he told me that I could go ahead and suck it if I wanted. He lay back on the bed, his cock laying on his stomach, his balls hanging there, his hairy ass crack visible beneath his balls. I went over and took his cock in my hand and put his cock in my mouth and I gave him my first ever blowjob. His cock grew and was thick and big and when he came he shot hard and I got his cum on my face, and cum on the sheets of the bed and on his stomach and leg. I licked it all up.

I told him about Matt way back then and he told me that once a cock sucker always a cock sucker which was fine with him. He had me sleep with him and he got hard and his cock against my back felt good and I let him find my hole and with the help of some hand lotion I got my first ever butt fuck. The rest of the fishing trip went OK and I serviced his cock each night and he serviced me later after he recovered from my blowjobs. I wasn't gay, I told myself it's just sex. But once you suck cock you can't really stop and once you have a man get on your back and fill your ass with his cock you can't stop that either. It's not a need, it's not a desire, it's a compulsion or an obsession.

I have a wife and family and I really don't believe I'm gay, I am attracted to sex with men, but that's where it ends.