I Must Confess

I described myself as a bi-male, but am I?
I'm 61, I haven't been with a woman in many years although I find them beautiful and a work of art.
But I also find a thick veiny mushroom head cock a work of art too and I can't get them off my mind.
Maybe it's because I was taught it was wrong, I don't know but I would rather embarrass and humilate myself and strip down naked with my small non working cock and climb between a strange man's legs and devour his hard cock, lick his balls, lick his whatever if he pushes my head down lower until he's completely satisfied and I'm completely satisfied when my mouth is full of his cum.
But what's next? I fantasize about becoming another mans woman and allowing him to climb on my back and letting him turn my virgin ass into his pussy.