I'm At The Point Where I Might As Well Get Pregnant

I get drawn into the conversation of how bad we had it growing up. Single mother, two kids, shitty job. My brother is worthless and can't keep a job. I worked from the time I was 13, earlier really, babysitting, odd jobs, I cleaned houses, worked as a file clerk, hostess stand, waitress, anything to make money. I never considered myself pretty. I attracted older men, always older men, never anyone my age. My first sexual experience was with an older man. I was 15 and he was a creep and when he stuck his dick in my mouth I vomited. I had sexual experiences with other women, I could lay back and take it but sticking my tongue in another woman's pussy I didn't like. I turned 18 having had sex with a couple of older men and several older than me women, girls really, not older like the men.

As a fully mature 22 years old I decided to get over my hang up with eating pussy and I came onto a girl at work (I was working reception and she worked in accounts payable). I was forward with her and told her I wanted to kiss with her, I was hot for her and I wanted to touch her titties. To eat her we took a shower together and I let her wash me completely and I washed her completely and then we shaved until we were totally shaved. Her pussy was really clean from the shower and her shaved pussy turned me on and I ate her with pleasure, I got very hot doing so and when she triggered and climaxed it felt really good. I told her I loved her and we stayed together.

An older man at my work wanted a piece of my ass. He didn't leave me alone and asked me for my panties and asked whether I kept a shaved pussy. He told me that he liked kissing a girl's behind, her hole, and he wanted to do that to me. He did it one afternoon after work in his office, I laid over his desk and he ate my butthole. It felt really good and when he stuck his dick in me I let him, I just grabbed the front of the desk and let him pound away until he finished. That was the first time I liked having a man fuck me.

I have my girlfriend, we live together. She is from a hispanic background and lesbians aren't liked very much and she is not married and not pregnant so she gets lots of shit from her family. When I'm with her, and her family, I'm so blonde and tall and blue eyed and don't speak Spanish. Some of the old men look at me like they want to fuck me. I don't feel accepted so we don't go there very often (she isn't accepted either because she is a lesbian).

My brother told me a while ago that he had a vasectomy when he was 18. That puts all the pressure on me to have a grandbaby for my mother. My girlfriend and me went to a lecture on conception and pregnancy (for women who want to get pregnant). We are good candidates, we're just the wrong kind of couple. Some old man will do it, I just won't tell him why I'm letting him. My girlfriend isn't sure she could go through it (the sex part, not the pregnancy).