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Obsessions
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Bi-Sexual Male / 43
Totally In The Closet But I Can't Seem To Stop And Go Back To My Wife
it was really hot that summer and the windows were all open. My friend Glen came over and we listened to music. I was on my back on the bed and he laid over me, cupping me with both hands and massaging me into an erection. Soon he was kissing and sucking my dick and I was zoning in and out to the music. After I had cum, Glen pulled himself up on top of me and kissed me while he ground his hard dick into me. A normal summer afternoon.
That summer I gave up my virginity to Glen and I sucked him to completion. That summer Glen and I made out whenever we were together. My parents both worked and we had the house to ourselves all day, and at times we ran downstairs naked to get a snack. It was a totally free summer, Glen and I spent the summer learning how to be queer.
We went into high school that fall, and we learned to drive in driver's ed. We had discovered that a cream my mother used made a good lubricant and we used it whenever we fucked. We used so much of the cream that it ran out and my mother quizzed me as to what I was using it for. I told her what Glen told me to tell her, I was jerking off. Well then OK and don't hurt yourself.
I had a lot of pressure to take Cheryl to prom when I was in the 11th grade. Cheryl had oved in next door the previous summer. She was a hot girl by any means but my mother liked her and thought she would be good for me. Cheryl went to prom intent on losing her virginity. My first naked girl, my first make out session with a girl, my first fuck with a girl. Cheryl was my girlfriend after that and my mother kept on my case about taking her to ball games and the movies. I was going to learn how to seriously date a girl even if I didn't want to. We had sex often, she liked being naked when she had sex and more than once we ended up standing naked in the kitchen getting something to drink. She was almost already a grown woman, and she had all the parts of a woman. I even went down on her.
My mother insisted that we get engaged right after graduation and she gave me her diamond ring to use as an engagement ring. I had waited too long to apply to college so that first year I went to the State College in town. Cheryl went to a real college and when we got together it was a fuck bunny session for hours. We got married at the end of her freshman year.
It was some twenty years later that I ran into Glen over the Holidays. He lived in California and was a flight attendant. He told me that a lot of the flight attendants were gay, so he had a good life living in California. We didn't talk about our summer activities before high school but at the end when he was saying good night he asked for a kiss. That kiss led to a night in bed with him. I had no way of explaining that to Cheryl the next morning. It fucked up my head and it drove Cheryl and me to split up after twenty years.
I intentionally did not agree to see Glen and I stayed celibate for five years, all through the pandemic. Until one afternoon I got into a conversation with a guy and one thing and then another and I ended up in bed with him. This wasn't a kid thing, two men in their early forties. It was hot, intense. Hard to forget it. I met up with him again, and then again. We became friends, with benefits. After the pandemic things were all wrong all over and Cheryl needed help so I went to her to help her. She wanted to have sex so we did. She asked me not to tell her who I was having sex with, she didn't want to know. Only that she needed sex and she wanted me to come over and give it to her.
I'm living a double life, I go see Cheryl a lot, most weekends. I broke off with the pandemic guy but I have stepped out with a guy here and there. Like Cheryl, I need the sex.
That summer I gave up my virginity to Glen and I sucked him to completion. That summer Glen and I made out whenever we were together. My parents both worked and we had the house to ourselves all day, and at times we ran downstairs naked to get a snack. It was a totally free summer, Glen and I spent the summer learning how to be queer.
We went into high school that fall, and we learned to drive in driver's ed. We had discovered that a cream my mother used made a good lubricant and we used it whenever we fucked. We used so much of the cream that it ran out and my mother quizzed me as to what I was using it for. I told her what Glen told me to tell her, I was jerking off. Well then OK and don't hurt yourself.
I had a lot of pressure to take Cheryl to prom when I was in the 11th grade. Cheryl had oved in next door the previous summer. She was a hot girl by any means but my mother liked her and thought she would be good for me. Cheryl went to prom intent on losing her virginity. My first naked girl, my first make out session with a girl, my first fuck with a girl. Cheryl was my girlfriend after that and my mother kept on my case about taking her to ball games and the movies. I was going to learn how to seriously date a girl even if I didn't want to. We had sex often, she liked being naked when she had sex and more than once we ended up standing naked in the kitchen getting something to drink. She was almost already a grown woman, and she had all the parts of a woman. I even went down on her.
My mother insisted that we get engaged right after graduation and she gave me her diamond ring to use as an engagement ring. I had waited too long to apply to college so that first year I went to the State College in town. Cheryl went to a real college and when we got together it was a fuck bunny session for hours. We got married at the end of her freshman year.
It was some twenty years later that I ran into Glen over the Holidays. He lived in California and was a flight attendant. He told me that a lot of the flight attendants were gay, so he had a good life living in California. We didn't talk about our summer activities before high school but at the end when he was saying good night he asked for a kiss. That kiss led to a night in bed with him. I had no way of explaining that to Cheryl the next morning. It fucked up my head and it drove Cheryl and me to split up after twenty years.
I intentionally did not agree to see Glen and I stayed celibate for five years, all through the pandemic. Until one afternoon I got into a conversation with a guy and one thing and then another and I ended up in bed with him. This wasn't a kid thing, two men in their early forties. It was hot, intense. Hard to forget it. I met up with him again, and then again. We became friends, with benefits. After the pandemic things were all wrong all over and Cheryl needed help so I went to her to help her. She wanted to have sex so we did. She asked me not to tell her who I was having sex with, she didn't want to know. Only that she needed sex and she wanted me to come over and give it to her.
I'm living a double life, I go see Cheryl a lot, most weekends. I broke off with the pandemic guy but I have stepped out with a guy here and there. Like Cheryl, I need the sex.
