My Obsession With Aunt

I feel disgusted by myself because of things I have done. I have 50 year old aunt, she's is blond big boobs ass. She was my obsession and for few years I used to beati my meat to her regularly. I had pictures of her that I tool whenever I saw her, I had everything her ass boobs face feet, also pictures of her dirty panties. I've seen her naked when she showered it was amazing sight, I saw it few times. When she sit somewhere for some time I sniffed that chair after she leaves. I used to print picture of her and cum on them. Made erotic stories just for myself of me fucking her in every positon and making her my fucktoy. That's not even the wildest shit I've done, I also flashed to her few times and she cought me jerking off, of course it wasnt an accident I planed everything. She never said anything I feel like she was embarrassed. She didn't know I want to fuck her until I told her. I told her I wanted her and she didn't want to do it and I kept begging her and begging her but she didn't want to. Thankfully she didn't tell that to anyone but it made my addiction to her even worse, after that I didn't care since she knew what I wanted, I used to grab her ass sometimes or her tits, but again she didn't do anything. I felt bad doing that but I couldn't stop. After that it kept getting worse I started cumming in her panties, her bra, stockings. She confronted me about it but I told her that I can't stop and I'm addicted to her. To my suprise again she didn't say anything. Since she didn't do anything and wasn't mad that much I started jerking in front of her one day when she came to my house that was the lowest point of my addiction. When I was doing that she wasn't moving so when I was close to finishing I came on her. She got up and started shouting at me, she was waiting for my mom to get home so we were alone. After few minutes of shouting at me she took her shirt off and told me if I fuck with you will you stop this shit. I was excited to finally fuck my aunt and it didn't take me long to get hard. I fucked her good at least she enjoyed it but after sex she told me to stop doing this or she will report me to police. I was happy to fuck her but didn't understand why she let me so I asked her and she told me she got horny and she always wanted to fuck me but since she is my aunt she can't. This was a year ago and now I see how sick I was and thanks to her I relised that fucking her wasn't that special, yeah we enjoyed it and all but all those things just to fuck her was to much I felt bad and apologized to her. She even gave me head and told me that I should look for other girls, younger girls but if I'm single sometime we can fuck but I can't do all these crazy things. We agreed on that and after that I don't jerk off to my aunt or do perv things. Maybe we ll fuck again someday but for now I am trying to cure my addiction and it's looking good so far.