He Took Video

In a moment of weakness and being stoned, I gave in and let a man fuck me about 2 years ago. It was supposed to be only that one time and never again. Quite frankly, it hurt and I couldn't take the self shame after. He did it to me twice that night, and I did suck him in the morning before I left. I would do anything just to get out of there. He came by about 3 days later and I told him I really was straight and didn't want to have anymore sex with another guy. Then he sent me an email with the videos.

There I was sucking, and allowing a man to get on top of me (once on top of me while I was on my stomach, the second time missionary and he kept sucking on my nipples while he was fucking me). He even had the next morning on camera which clearly showed me sucking his big cock and he was asking if I swallowed, I showed him the cum then swallowed. He pinched my nipple and swatted my ass telling me "thanks baby". He said he would put it on the internet if I didn't have sex with him again. For the last 2 years, I date women, fuck women, and whenever he wants I have sex with the other guy. I get fucked and suck and he has hours of video. To prove a point he blocked out my face for about 4 minutes of him fucking me and cumming up my ass, asking if I liked it and I answered that I did. He asked me if I loved his big cock and I answered that I did. Then he posted it on the internet. I don't know how to deal