Discovered I'm Mostly Gay, But There's A Problem Pt. 1

So I've always considered myself bisexual. However, I had never hooked up with a guy for most of my life. I had lots of girlfriends in highschool, fewer in college, and never had any problems getting it up, but it was always so hard to cum.

When I watch porn it's almost exclusively gay porn. There was just something about it that got me so turned on, but I still never tried it. I convinced myself the reason it was hard to cum was because I wanted to fuck girls in the ass and most wouldn't let me. I come from a religious background and coming out would mean being shunned from my family... But after being stuck in a sexless relationship I decided it was time to give it a go with a guy.

I downloaded Grindr and hooked up with a bottom. We met up for a while and it was definitely fun, more fun than most of the girls I had been with. Personality wifdtTVFse though we just weren't a match (he left glitter all over the inside of my car like he was the gay fairy of glitter) and we stopped hooking up... I was inexperienced with guys and the poppers thing really turned me off. The smell might as well have been a custom made boner killing fume device.

I tried out bottoming one time but it just was awkward because it was in the back of a car. After a lot of work getting it into me he basically gave a couple pumps and said he was done. I didn't hate it, but I wasn't in a rush to try it again. So for a while I just stopped actively trying to hookup.

One day I got a message from a guy wanting to top me. He was hot and young and tall. I'm tall myself, but he was even taller. I wasn't against trying it again and something about the way he approached me and the things he was saying convinced me to give it a try. When I went over he had the bedroom lit with mood lights and essential oil diffusers around the room as well as light music playing. Already this was a far cry from my first time bottoming. He slowly undressed me and gave me a whole body massage. I had never really been into foot stuff, but he rubbed my feet and sucked my toes which was a turn on in a way I didn't think it would turn me on.

After, he laid me on my stomach and made sure I had plenty of pillows and blankets. Then he ate my ass for what seemed like an hour, until eventually he was sliding fingers into me. I was over the moon with feelings I had never felt before. That's when he leaned over me whispered in my ear "are you ready for me to take care of you?" I gently moaned my approval. I heard him open a bottle of lube and he spread it on his dick and worked some into my ass. His dick was about average length, but thick. I laid there on my stomach my heart pounding. Then I felt the head of his dick approach my ass cheeks. As soon as I felt it approaching my back door I instantly got the hardest I've ever been in my life. He slid it in me and immediately I could tell something in me changed.

Suddenly, everything made sense. It suddenly made sense why I never really liked going down on girls. It suddenly made sense why I tricked myself into thinking I wanted was to have anal with girls. It made sense why a girl could suck me for hours and I would never reach orgasm. It also made more sense to me now why topping a guy didn't quite do it for me.

He didn't last long but I can remember while under him I was making noises that surprised even myself. I laid in the prone position while he pumped me into the bed. I reached back and grabbed at his legs and body, lost in the throws of pleasure he was sending through me. After he came we lay there together panting with me trying to process what had just happened.