A Warrior's Woman, I Cheated On Him, And Committed A Sin Of The Flesh

I come from a close family, cousins, uncles, grandparents. We were all raised pretty near each other and as one of the girls I was raised to be respectful and look up to our warrior brothers and cousins. Being female we were encouraged early to embrace what made us female and never forget that the world is old and it isn't for us to question why nature made us women, and men men. In other words suck his dick and raise the children.

In my late teens I was a tomboy, I did sports and drove early. I wanted to join the Marines after high school. I wanted to kick ass and go places. It wasn't in my nature to stay put, and inbreed with my cousin. My cousin was a Marine, a Captain. He had been in Iraq and Afghanistan. He had only one intent for me. To inbreed me. I knew that as early as fourteen, I was 'reserve' property for him.

I kicked and fought but he put me down and I got up pregnant. I was walked down the isle at nineteen seven months pregnant. My cousin was the venerable warrior model. After he was discharged he became the manager for the family trucking business. Nothing pleased him more that watching me grow bellies and put his little urchins out to run around the shop squealing Daddy, Daddy.

My dreams and my reality were quite different. Especially when I sinned with this girl who worked at the bank. I was assigned duty in the back office of the trucking business and that's how I met her. It's embarrassing now, but right then when I met her I got hot for her, hot like you can't imagine. Sure she kicked and fought, but in my mind right then I was a Marine and she needed to be brought to heel. It was mutual, it is just two sides of a coin. If I am honest, that's how I responded when I got pregnant.

But it was a sin of the flesh not to mention cheating on my cousin. The affair lasted a few months but I broke down and confessed, with my head held low, on my knees and kissed my cousin's Marine Corp ring. At that time my fear was his wrath with me, worse still was that he would kick me out, and take my children. I stammered out that I didn't know what I was thinking. I wasn't thinking. My cousin was stoic about it, he gave me a warning. Once. If it happens again you're alone in the desert.

I was raised to honor and respect our warrior brothers and cousins. To embrace what made us female and not question nature. To grow a belly and care for his children. No one told me about getting these feelings or how to handle them. And what to do when they exploded. To have this desire, for someone that is a sin of the flesh and to cheat on my cousin. If my cousin could face enemy fire, I can man up and face this test, beside him.