I Need Him To Be Muy Macho With Me

I am a closeted gay man who lives in a straight world. My gay sexual affairs are all out of the world in which I live. I live in a huge city, with a large variety of neighborhoods. I was born and raised in the upper income part of town and married an very upper income girl. She was in every sense a little princess and I was an up and coming attorney. It was a society page marriage. She is in the dark about my true orientation.

I have a lover. A man that I spend quality time with. He comes from the other end of the world, an immigrant, who works as a waiter. He is originally from a Hispanic country. He is forty five. We met by accident at a restaurant one afternoon and he served me. Why I was nice to him I don't know, but I was and I left a nice tip. He noticed, and when I was leaving he got into my personal space to thank me. I thought he was going to kiss me. I wanted to kiss him at that moment.

I went back to that restaurant and we had a server relationship, I tipped well and he took care of me. He touched my shoulder a lot, and I let our hands touch. And as it was bound to happen we found ourselves alone in the bathroom. Peeing side by side. And I asked him to let me look, and I grabbed his penis and said ''mucho gusto". I showed him my penis and asked him to hold it. I said now that we knew each other we needed to get together.

We met, he was dressed in street clothes, and was freshly bathed. It was awkward really, we talked, I told him I liked him. He was subservient the entire time. I had to break the ice so I kissed him, and told him I wanted to kiss his penis. I grabbed his crotch, I was forward, but right then I wanted to be a lot more forward. We went to a motel and we had sex, once he got started he was quite active. When it came to the conclusion, which one of us would bottom? I wanted to, I wanted to intently. I asked him to show me the man he was, and I presented myself to him. Now we had established the right order.

Pablo is the top. And I'm the bottom. In every other way I would be the top, money, position. I want to be the bottom. I want him to be "muy macho", In Spanish, "el que manda". The boss. I suck his penis and show him I'm there to serve him.