That Loving Feeling.

I was married once and dated lots of attractive women after my divorce. However my deeper gay desires never left me. As relationships with women did not work out I returned to my gay nature. There was anonymous gay sex and affairs with men. Too many gay encounters to count.

Mainly I was a cocksucker giving men pleasure and swallowing their special seed. Love sucking cocks more than anything else though I have enjoyed giving or receiving intercourse with a man on occasion. Kissing and mutual mastubation was also enjoyed. But what made me horniest was a cock in my mouth.

Over the years a loving feeling emerged in conjunction with the gay desires. As I surrender to the urges and seek men out for sex I notice that I feel a deeper and deeper tranquility combined with a love of the man I am with sexually. No matter who he is or where it is..... a adult video booth,a bed a car seat,a park and no matter what he looks like or how old he is.... I feel that at the time I am sucking his cock,kissing with him or fondling him I am actually in love with him in those special moments. I want him to feel special,to be cherished and worshipped. I want him to be completely satisfied. As I have gotten older this loving feeling has intensified. It no longer scares me like it once did. I feel like a loving slut but that is part of the deeper satisfaction I get from loving men. The fact I can joyfully please any willing man not judging him just loving what he is and what he offers me. He basically gives me a purpose. I am there to pleasure him without reservation. If I see him again I will do the same thing. If I don't then I will have the memory of pleasing him in my brain. I wonder if there are other gay men like me who are loving cocksuckers and need to fulfill the purpose of giving a man pleasure. Ones who cruise around looking for men to love in this way. At age 50 I came to this realization and truth. I am here to lovingly suck men's cocks