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Depressed and miserable

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Lifelong Slut

I am a lifelong slut. I am 55 and I still have sex with men on a routine and regular basis.

It started when I was 14. My brother and his friend thought it would be funny to peek on me in the shower and when I was getting dressed. They were dumb boys and got caught. I just invited them to watch. These two boys were my first ‘play’. There were many others in high school.

At 18, I was available to any boy who needed or wanted sex. This was the norm until my stepfather caught me getting fucked in the garage.

It was now my stepfather’s opportunity to fuck me. (He basically extorted me by not telling my mom in return for fucking him.) He fucked me on and off for 4 years. His friends all had me at various times too. I was still fucking and sucking many other guys.

As I joined the grown up world, I dated a lot. I fucked a lot of men. Every boss, coworkers, dating app matches. My brother started fucking me again in my late 20’s.

Here I am today. Still fucking men and enjoying every bit of it. Just last week I fucked a 70 year old guy and a 20 year old guy in the same 24 hour period. I would not change a thing!!!

I Just Let Things Happen To Me

I have zero fighting instincts. If anything bad happens I just freeze completely on the spot. It had been like this since I was a kid, no idea what started it. If other kids were arguing with me I'd just stand there completely silent and never said anything back. Fighting physically is not even an option for me.

As I got a little older, most people around me were aware of my passive nature and took advantage of me in many ways. Being a shy quite pretty girl, I started getting attention from guys in school. Especially the bad guys. I was an easy target for bullies. It started with nasty comments and escalated to stealing my stuff and my lunch money. Since I never fought back things got progressively worse. I was now getting physically attacked by the guys. They'd push me hard into my locker or against the wall, random slaps on my butt, and few times pulling my uniform skirt up and expose me. That last part mostly happened outside of the school. But still I never said anything. I somehow managed to survive school.

But even as a grown up I can't fight back even when something bad happens to me. I've been groped few times in crowded places and in public transport. Fortunately nothing bad has happened at any of my workplaces. But still I'm afraid something much worse is going to happen to me someday and I'll just let it happen without fighting back.

I Saw On YouTube Channel AskReddit...

A guy were he was 23 and said he went to jail when he was 21 because he was sexting without pictures with a 14 year old boy.
I felt weird because when i was 26 i was sexting with a 14 year old as well. That happened a few times and then we stopped. It happened once. I never sexting with another minor since then.
I mean if things were turned out differently i could be in jail too?

Untold Fantasy

My deepest sexual desire is to be dominated by an older man (50s-70s). I want him to seduce me, and undress me. I want my clit to be devoured, I want to suck old cock and ride cock like the dirty little slut I am.
I want him to dominate me.
I want him to tease me.
I want him to stretch me.
I want his tongue all over my body.
I want to feel him inside of me.
I want him to cum deep deep in my pussy.

Neighbor Down The Street

If you read my first confession you’d know I was inappropriately touched by a female cousin around the ages of 8-10. So by the time I was 11 or 12 I was a full on horn dog lol. Anywho, it was an older gentleman who lived down the street from my family and his nieces and nephews lived with him and they were around me and siblings ages so naturally we all played together. One day when my siblings and I went over to his house playing with his nieces and nephews but on this day i stayed inside and the rest of the kids were outside playing. I was watching tv on one couch and the older guy was on another. I don’t really remember how I ended up on the same couch as him but we were playing. Him tickling me and like a kid I’m bouncing around trying to get away and he’s holding me and then I ended up on his lap. Once I’m in his lap he says he’s tired and let’s watch tv for a bit. So were sitting and he kisses me on the neck and I kinda moaned and he liked it I felt his cock jump. So then he starts gently sucking on my neck and flicking my big hard nipples. I was loving it. Once he was rock he locked the front door. Yes locking the kids outs and took me to the back room and basically ripped my shirt off exposing my budding breast pulled my pants down and his. He sat on the bed and I stood in front of him and he started licking and sucking on my nipples. I was wet af and moaning and he was loving it as he jerk off after a while he told me to rub on my pussy so he could cum. At the time I didn’t really know what cum was but I rubbed my pussy as instructed as he sucked on my tiny tits with big nipples. As he got closer he told me to rub my pussy really fast and when I did i started moaning loudly and bucking my hips back and forth faster and before I knew it he shoot a huge load across the floor and quickly got me dressed and pretended like it never happened.

I Liked It

Well when I was 8 or 9 maybe 10 I was touched inappropriately by a female cousin. She was probably 14 or 15. The details are kinda fuzzy for me but I do remember her making me lick her pussy ALOT! Every time we were alone or could get alone my face was in her pussy. She would always lick mines first and her thing was “tell me when to stop” and me being a kid and not really understanding what’s going on I would only let her lick for a few seconds but when it was her turn I would lick her for what seemed like hours as a kid. She would cum so HARD on my little face every chance she could get. As a kid I hated being her oral slave but as an adult O M G i would love to eat my cousins pussy for as long as she wanted. Once I got in my early teens and she was in her early 20’s and a lesbian so I knew she still liked getting her pussy licked I wanted to try her so bad to see if she would let me lick her but I’m shy lol so I didn’t try but whenever we were together when I was older I always WISHED she’d ask but she never did *sad face*

Young Boy Experimenting Pt.2

Yes this is a continuance of a true part of my life... I previously posted this story but not to full extent, not as in depth and I had gotten my age wrong. I was actually a year younger then I had thought I was because I was only in 4th grade.
After a few times of using golf balls as my way of experimenting and exploring my curiosity of putting things in my butt, I found something new. One day around the beginning or maybe middle of 4th grade, I was being snoopy and was searching through my parents room, for what reason I dont know. I searched through there closet and dresser and found nothing of interest and was about to leave there room when I had the thought to check under there bed. When I looked under, right there was a huge double sided dildo. It was purple and translucent. I was about 4'5" maybe 4'6" and was slightly tall for my age. This dildo was so long when I held it, it went from the ground to the middle of my thigh at most, so I'm guessing about 20 or 22 inches long. It was huge! It seemed way thicker than the golf balls were but not as thick as a soda can. If I had to guess about 2 inches in diameter or very close to that. The heads on it were flared and were bigger than the rest of the shaft by about a quarter of an inch.. Instantly I wanted to see if I could fit it in my young little butthole. I went to the kitchen and grabbed some olive oil and went back to my parents room. I started jacking off my little cock to prepare myself. My parents room had a sliding doors closet and it was just two giant mirrors. I lubed up one side of the dildo to about half way down the shaft, got on my knees and hands and started to push it against my hole. It was super hard to make it even start to go in because it was such a big tip. When I finally was starting to get barely a third of the head in and was still struggling to get a hard enough push I decided to lay my face and chest on the ground while still on my knees and use both hands to be able to get a better grip on this monster dildo and be able to push harder. The first push made the head slide in to about half way, then i let up and tried again. This time I pushed even harder. The whole head went in me and it was painful when the last part of the head popped in me fully. I remember the big pop feeling it made. After that I had to take a minute to catch my breath amd stop my self from almost tearing up. Once I recovered from that pain it felt nice still sitting in my ass. I started to jerk off my harder than ever pecker then layed back on my face and chest and slowly started to push more in. I would push in about an inch and slide it back to where just the head was in me again which the flare of the head made it stay in my ass, do that a few times, then I would push it in another inch or so and repeat the process until I couldn't fit anymore in. If I had to guess I probably fit about 5 maybe 5.25 inches into my 9 year old hole. Once I couldn't fit more in I slid it in and out, first slowly then faster for about twenty minutes, taking breaks in between with it fully inside me to jack off. It felt kinda painful but in a good way. I felt like I had accomplished a challenge I was questioning if I was going to be able to beat. After I was finished I had to pull the dildo out. All was fine until the flared head which like I said would stop and not slide out. It was bigger than my little ring amd since it was the back of the head it was the most flared part with no taper really. I slowly pulled on it and had to use more strength than I had to sliding out the shaft. Finally the flared back of the head popped out and the rest of the head slid out fast due to being shaped like a real penis. When it finally popped out it hurt just as much as when I put it in and along with how fast it slid out the rest of the head it kind of made it hurt even more. This thing took the breath out of me once again and I felt like it might have damaged me coming out so fast... once it was out and I recovered, I washed it off in the bathroom and put it back under my parents bed. I checked my butthole which was stretched out and there was some blood. Luckily it was not a lot of blood, left only a few decent sized drops on the tp i wiped with and with a few wipes it had stopped. It took me a while to build up the courage to use it again, but I used it quite a few more times. Every time was just as painful as the first time and just as pleasurable. My little asshole would always shrink back to where just one of my fingers would fit snuggly and back to its regular tight self. I wish I could find a dildo now that would give me that feeling of that monster in my little body then. I cant find a dildo that has as big of a flared head. i have a 7" usable length by 1.8" diameter dildo now, the length is fine but isn't thick enough + the head isn't flared as much . Thinking of finding one around 2" to 2.1" diameter and maybe that will be enough to get that feeling again.

Foster Care

There are so many horror stories from people who were in foster homes. I was in foster care since I was 10, and even though there was plenty of inappropriate things going on, I don't look at my time in foster homes as a negative experience.
My parents passed away when I was 9, and soon after I was being moved from home to home until I turned 12 and was placed in with the family I would spend the rest of my teen years with.
Our ma and pop are great people! They looked out for us and let us make our own way. They guided and molded us to be good people too. And though they never did anything sexual with any of us, doesn't mean we weren't doing things on our own.
I was 13 the first time I let a girl go down on me, and I remember being nervous about it, but I returned the favor. We were in my room, and had just taken a bath together. She was the same age as me, and we were talking about masterbating. I told her that I did it a lot, and she admitted that she did too. I told her that I aways wanted to know what it would feel like to have someone else do it for me, and she immediately gets close to me and starts kissing me while running her fingertips between my pussy lips. I started playing with hers too, and next thing we knew, she was licking and fingering me in my bed. That was the first time I had an orgasm from someone else.
I learned really quickly that I liked boys and girls, and it wasn't long after that I was having one of the boys sneak into my room. He was handsome and very muscular. He was about a year older than me, and I was really curious about him.
One day we were having a movie night, and he slid under the blanket with me. I cuddled up to him and laid my head on his chest. Little by little I touched his abs, and slowly inched my hand down. By the time my hand got close to the waist band of his shorts, I could see the blanket start to bulge. I reached out and grabbed it. I rubbed it through his shorts for a while and then I pulled it out and stroked it for him. All of the other kids were right there in the room with us, and none of them knew anything.
After a minute of touching it, he stopped me and told me that I was going to make a mess if I didn't stop, so I grabbed it again and put my head down under the blanket. I didn't suck it, I just put his head in my mouth while I tugged on it and it didn't take but a few seconds before he shot his load in my mouth.
Later that night, I asked him to return the favor, and he did but didn't get me off with his mouth, so I had our "sister" come finish me.
A few days later, I told him I had a surprise for him, and I let him put it in me. I grinded on him for a while, and made him pull out before he came and let him shoot it on my titties.
He ended up telling another one of the boys and they asked me if I would be willing to suck both of them, and I really wanted to. I ended up going out to the shed with them and they were really nervous. I told them to pull down their shorts and I started sucking and stroking them both and they both came in my mouth. The next day I did it again, but I told them that I wanted to see them suck each other, and I watched them suck each other's dicks while I let them finger me.
It wasn't long before I let them both fuck me, but I didn't try letting them fuck my butt until later. Eventually they did, and I loved it! I would ride one while the other fucked my ass. I knew that I could get pregnant if they came in my pussy, so I made a rule that they could cum in my mouth or my ass. Eventually they started fucking each other and I would watch while masterbating. I even let them both in my butt at the same time, and that hurt, but they loved feeling their dicks rub against one another's.
We had a lot of fun, and I don't remember ever feeling like what we were doing was wrong. I don't look back on it like some victim, I remember it very fondly as good experiences.
I still think about it some times, and I wonder what my husband would think if he knew how I came to enjoy all of the freaky stuff that he's into. Maybe one day I'll tell him, but not yet.

First Time Giving And Receiving A Blowjob

When I was in 3rd and 4th grade I had a friend. We were both very close. I would spend the night at his house everyweekend until he moved away at the end of fourth grade. He had the newest console out which was the Xbox and we would play the just released halo until it was bed time then, we would sneak out of his room a couple hours after we were supposed to go to bed go to the kitchen for snacks. After a few times of spending the night at his place and doing this, we had decided to do it again. This time when we snuck out of his room down the hall from his parents room we heard noises coming from his parents room. We got curious and listened to what was happening through there door. There was moaning and heavy breathing going on, then we heard his dad who said something among the lines of oh yeah suck my dick it feels so good. After that we went and got snacks then snuck back into my friends room. Us being two boys were curious as to what he meant. Neither of us having any idea or ever even knowing it felt good to masturbate etc. So we were talking and both wanted to know what he meant. Both of us had the idea to go ahead and try. We agreed that he would try sucking me first. So I slid off my pj's and laid on his bed, he sat beside me on his knees amd proceeded to put my flaccid little pens in his mouth. Not too long after he started sucking on my soft little dick it started to grow. It felt damn good. He bobbed up and down with the suction of a vacuum for a short amount of time until I couldn't stand it, one of my legs locked straight and the other was twitching furiously. He stopped and it was his turn. His pens was soft at first too until shortly after I began bobbing and sucking. He did not twitch like I did but after a while he couldn't handle the great feeling anymore either and told me to stop. After that I had the idea of how about we both do it to each other at the same time, so we laid on our sides opposite of each other and both went to work, this was amazing. We both sucked each other off multiple times that night taking breaks in between to gather back our ability to handle the feeling. After that night, every time I spent the night it became ritual to do this to each other. It was heaven. He was the best head ive had till this day. His penis was a bit shorter and skinnier than mine but I loved it and I like the fact that I could stick his whole unit into my mouth and what his penis felt like, the texture and the softness of his skin was amazing. I also loved that he would fit my penis in his mouth all the way down to the bottom as well. I still have not had anyone compare to his suction or milking abilities. Every time it was an amazing experience we even got risky with it a few times and started our game a bit early and almost got caught by his pops a couple times who would sometimes come and check if we were actually sleeping when we were supposed too (lights out then bed after 30 minutes of allowed chit chatting) but luckily never did. Our little game continued until he moved away the summer after 4th grade. Sometimes I still reminisce those golden days and think about him. I've even tried to find him on social media just to say hello and see where he's at in life and how he's doing even though i wouldn't bring any of that up because after all this time isk how he would feel about it all, but I can't find him anywhere sadly. This is actually something that really happened in my life and is 100% true, if anyone was wondering. I do tell fantasy stories on here as well so I'll try to remember to mention whether they are true or not and if it is up to you to decide because they may or may not be but are to risky to say

Young Boy Experimenting Pt.1

After me and my friend had found out about the pleasures of giving head to each other I started to masturbate a lot. After a while of masturbating and still getting and giving head to my friend i got a little curious. When I would be in my room at night masturbating I got curious about my butt. So I started to stick my finger in my butt to feel around. It was an interesting feeling, somewhat uncomfortable but somewhat nice at fhe same time. I noticed that if I was jacking off and stuck a finger up my ass, that my dick would become slightly bigger and a lot harder. This moved on to when I would be taking a bath I'd stick different things up my butt a little, like the handle of my tooth brush which i never had a kids tooth brush it was just a regular full sized tooth brushor the top of a shampoo bottle. I even kept a old shampoo bottle that was empty and I washed out in the bath. It had a lid where you pushed one side down and would lift the other side up which had the slot for shampoo to come out of. I would fill this bottle with my warm bath water open the lid and pop it in my butt (the lid was flat topped, only about an inch long and pretty skinny) which went in somewhat easily being only a bit thicker than my finger, then I would squeeze the bottle and all the warm water would go inside me. I'd stop squeezing and let the bottle suck back up all the water that was inside me and do this over and over again. The warm water felt nice... we lived near a golf course and ever since I could ride a bike I was aloud to go wherever I wanted as long as I was home by the time the street lights went on. I would go to the golf course and collect golf balls and I'd wash them and clean them because sometimes the golfers would buy them from me. At home I had a collection of golf balls. Once again my curiosity got the best of me one night as I was jacking off. I had the wild thought of trying to put a golf ball up my little asshole, so I grabbed 6 of them from my collection. As I laid on my bed cock in one hand I grabbed a ball and put a whole bunch of spit all over it. It was difficult to get one to get passed my ring and I had to try repeatedly. Then finally one started going in. Once it was sliding in it hurt when it got close to the halfway point, then I got it to the halfway point and with a little light push, POP, it went all the way in. It felt huge for my tight little boy butt (thinking about it a golf ball is like 1.68" diameter and that is the size of a adults cock) The feeling of it popping in was slightly breath taking and painful but also felt good. Once one was in I decided to insert the remaining 5 balls one by one. Each one did the same thing and popped in with a little push once they were half way in. It felt really good when they were all in me, made my belly feel full and I was somewhat proud and amazed I was able to fit them all in. I sat up in my bed and felt them all move around in me, which felt great so I moved around and stood up, sat down, laid back down a few times. When I was done jacking off I had to get the balls out of me. On my bed I stood up then squatted down and pushed, it was hard to push them out. I pushed real hard and finally the first one popped out, it came out a lot faster than when I pushed them in and again hurt but felt amazing. My cock instantly grew again. I had 5 more to go and while jerking off I got them one by one to shoot out of me with some force. That was one of the best feelings I've experienced to this day for stuff up my bum. I only did this a handful of times and found something better. I'll yell you in my next story.... yes this is a true story