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A couple of years ago I told one of my neighbors I'd always been curious about gay sex, and that I'd once almost allowed a guy to suck me off. He and his partner (Mick and Jason) have been together apparently since they were in their early thirties. Mick who is the top in their relationship, full of muscles and built like the proverbial barn door, is now 47, Jason is 42, slim and can be very effiminate.
When I told the guys about my gay sexual curiosity, I was round at their house with my wife. They were holding a party for Jasons 40th. I was a little drunk and was just shooting my mouth off really, trying to engraciate myself with them.
Three months ago I was out at the gym I attend when I bumped into Mick. He told me he and Jason had been split up for a short while and it had given him the oportunity to get back into some serious workouts. I watched as he curled some weights, then as he bench pressed. It was as he was bench pressing, I couldn't help but notice his cock hanging out the bottom of his shorts on his left leg. When he looked up and saw me looking at his cock, he smiled a very broad knowing smile. Sitting up he said "Still curious I see". I'd been caught out, but unlike any other time I didn't get deffensive, I actually felt my own cock rising and told Mick in a dumb sounding way "Yeah".
In a very matter of fact way Mick replied "Well if you fancy seeing what it's like to suck on one, follow me down to the changing rooms". Mick got up and walked away without looking back. Like a lost puppy I just followed.
He was stood inside his changing boothe when I got down the changing area. A towel was wrapped around his waist and he was holding the swing door open. I didn't bother to walk over to my own changing locker, instead I walked over to Micks and he let me slide by him and into his cubicle.
Putting his hands onto my shoulders, he pushed me down until I was sat on the small bench seat. Then in one quick movement he unwrapped the towel and let it fall to the floor. The size of his cock made me gasp, not only because it was so long and so thick, but also because I knew as a married straight guy, I was deffinately going to try and suck his cock into my mouth.
Like any new experience I suppose, you don't often get it right first time and it was no different for me. I couldn't get my mouth around the full girth of Micks cock, until he told me to relax and let his cock slide in naturally. Once I'd relaxed and put his cock head onto my tongue first, I soon began to envelop his meaty fat cock with my lips and mouth. It felt very weird at first. His cock was hard, yet felt silky soft in my mouth and I was beginning to take more and more in as my confidence grew.
The harder and more of his cock I sucked into my mouth, the louder and deeper his moans became until he was holding my head and litterally fucking my mouth. It was my first ever gay episode and it was totally awsome.
When Mick asked me to slide a finger into his ass, I stopped sucking on him, when he asked again but added "It makes me cum a whole lot harder". I let his cock slip from my mouth, then I licked my my middle finger on my right hand and took his swollen cock back into my mouth. At the same time I reached between his legs, slid my finger up his butt crack and felt him squirm a little as I placed my finger over his asshole. Letting his cock slide further over my tongue as I sucked harder, I pushed my finger inside his ass. Straight away I felt his cock harden even more in my mouth and I knew it had had the desired effect. Sucking on his dick for a fewm more wonderful minutes, as if I'd always been sucking mens cocks, I knew he was about to cum.
I was right, but I wasn't prepared for what happened next. Holding my head tightly, Mick forced his cock deeper into my mouth so I was nearly deep throating him, then with one big final thrust I felt his cock expload in my mouth and down my throat.
I gagged, but Mick held my head even firmer until his cum was fully drained from his dick. Letting my head go I didn't do what he probably thought I might and let his cock fall out. I held his super soft balls and milked them, still sucking as hard as I could. It was something my wife had done for me many times and I knew I loved the feeling. Releasing his cock I stood up so we were face to face, Mick put his hands behind my head and leaned in. We kissed like lovers in their first passionate embrace, Mick tasting himself on my tongue.
Stood in the gyms showers I was about to let Mick give me what I'd just given him, but some guys walked in and I was left feeling very sexually frustarted. I needn't have fretted. My wife was still at work and Mick reaching home first, was waiting for me inside his front door. In viting me in, I was naked and allowing a guy to blow me for the first time in less than two minutes.
Over a period of a three weeks I learned what it was, to enjoy gay sex and nearly everything that goes with being a submissive partner, but that's another confession for another time, possibly.
Mick and Jason are back together, but it doesn't stop Mick calling by some days to off load his fulll heavy balls, when Jasons away for a few days and my wifes at work.

Out with some friends recently I was given a bet by two of the guys. The bet was to lick and suck another mans cock and balls until he came. If I performed the task I'd win one of my friends pair of concert tickets (I really wanted to go). If not I'd pay him five times the cost of them. At first I backed off the bet, and only said yes later on when my friend with the tickets and I were the only ones left out drinking.

The older guy I was supposed to have blown had gone, so we headed off to a bar/club we knew was a gay venue. After only ten minutes my friend had another guy willing to have his cock sucked, so I headed off to a quiet area outside the bar with him and my friend. When he took his cock out I nearly cried off again, but half cut I sank to my knees and closed my eyes. The feeling of his flaccid cock sliding over my tongue was at first very strange, but also wierdly satisfying. In only a couple of minutes his dick was rock hard and I was in all truth enjoying what I was doing. So much so my friend was telling me he was getting a hard on watching us. I didn't have too long to wait, to feel the guy tense up and I knew when his cum filled my mouth, the tickets were mine. What I didn't expect was how much I'd gotten into sucking on this strangers cock.

Walking away from the bar down the side alley, my friend said to me I was always going to going to the concert as he'd bought one for me. When I asked why he'd made me suck some guys cock, he stopped walking turned and lowered his trousers. He wasn't wearing any underwear and his cock was far bigger than the guys I'd not long sucked. He said and I will never forget for as long as I live " Always wanted to have your lips around this". I had no idea he was gay or bisexual at least. He'd wanted to see if I'd suck another guys cock, so I wouldn't be offended or lose his friendship, if he asked me to suck his. And in that alley I did suck my friends thick uncircumsized cock, but I took my time and made sure as he was thrusting his hips and fucking my mouth, I had my cock out and was masturbating.

I came first all over the floor in front of me and between his his legs. When my friend unloaded his massive amount of cum in my mouth, he asked me to swallow it. I've been swallowing his seed ever since, and exploring other ways of extracting his wonderful semen from his large thick cock, using another more pleasurable hole he's taught me to love being thrust into.

Unfortunately for the time being our sexual relationship will remain between us, as there are complications. But soon we might be informing all about my/our new sexually expressed life.

Thanks Luke for showing me another side of myself and my sexuality x

My wife believed I was having an affair when some busy body at her workplace suggested I was sleeping with a younger woman (Long story). When the younger woman proved I wasn't, by explaining when I was supposed to have been fucking her, she was actually away on vacation, my wife became all sorrowful and even started to give me the kind of sex I'd been asking for. Which made me feel a little guilty.
The reason being, I wasn't the one doing the fucking, I was the one being fucked and by someone she knows very well, her older brother. Kristan her brother and I had been having sex months before I met her. We're both married because of social pressures and because of where we live. But as often as we can we get together, we do. And I have Tristans big fat cock deep inside my asshole as much as I can possibly handle.
Nosey people really should stick to their own lives.

Having always been curious, I asked a gay friend what did it feel like to be fucked up the ass, his reply made me stop in my tracks "Why don't you suck my cock for a while, then bend over and you'll find out". Shocked but not totally fased, I passed up on his proposal laughing. He wasn't.
For about a month all I thought about was his statement and I knew he meant it. Then three weeks ago when I was out with some friends I met him outside a bar. I'd had a few beers but wasn't drunk or anything, so when he asked me if I'd considered his request, I made the decision in a clear and lucid mind.
I knew where he lived, so I knew where he was walking us wasn't on the way to his apartment. My mind was spinning but weirdly my cock was telling me I was horny. Reaching the park with just a few lights flickering away, he told me he wanted to fuck me outdoors.
Staring at my friends cock, a friend I'd known since we were six, was surreal, but not as surreal as the first time his dick slid over my waiting tongue. It should have felt strange right, not a chance. It felt awsomely right and I let him begin to fuck my mouth.
It wasn't love making, so after a couple of minutes of sucking on his hard throbbing cock, he had me stand up, walk over to a park bench, drop my jeans and boxers and bend over the back of the bench. Standing behind me, spitting on his own cock and my bare ass, I heard rather than saw him rubber up. In a place where anyone could have walked past my gay childhood friend put his cock to my rear and pushed in one long slow thrust, entering my asshole.
The pain was like nothing I'd ever experienced, but neither after a couple of minutes getting used to his cock, was the sheer delightful pleasure. If I could describe the feeling, it would be like cumming, but deep up inside your asshole. Without realising it, my cock had become ragingly hard and also without feeling the build up, I came all over the bench in front of me. It was such an intense orgasm I screamed out loud and only then did I realise we had an audience, as an older guy walked over to where we were and revealed himself to be masturbating whilst watching us fuck.
I don't remember how long it took my new lover to fill the condom deep inside my bowels, as I was too busy enjoying every single thrust of his cock fucking me hard and fast. What I do know is, when he shoot his load inside me, all I wanted was another guy to fill the void. Pity for me the older guy had already blown his load all over the pathway.
Sat on the bench a couple of minutes later my old friend asked me "So do you think you'll be taking another fucking anytime soon".
As a suposed straight guy, I've taken my friends cock four more times since, everytime outdoors, as it seems to be a fetish of his and rapidly becoming one of mine.

In just over a year since I found out my wife had cheated on me, I've slept with 19 different people, all of them men. The first was a guy who I met off the internet after a drunken night of drinking rum and coke. We met at a local park and in a first for me I let a guy suck me off. He invited me back to his and half an hour later I was balls deep up his asshole. I awoke the following morning with an almighty hangover, but also with a morning glory. He took advantage of it by riding my cock until he ejaculated all over my stomach and chest. I filled his asshole with my cum and some piss, I think!
Two more guys followed in quick sucession from the same site, and I soon found how much more horny the sex was with them. I even let the third guy lick, tongue and finger my asshole as I had my first ever taste of another mans cock in the 69 position. I fucked both men just as I had the first and both wanted to see me again, but I didn't return for a second bite of the cherry, until I met a guy at the sports arena I work at. We hit it off and I was more than eager to share a full afternoon at his apartment, when he invited me over by asking me if I enjoyed cream all over my body.
Letting another man penetrate me, is one of the most erotic and sexual activities I've ever done in my life and one which changed everything for me. After that first time being anally fucked, I was a true convert and sought out more and more sexually needy gay, bisexual and increasingly married men. I always have returned however time after time to my older (He's 58) first time anal pleasuring gent.
My latest experience wasn't in, on or near a bed, as it took place at a nearby fishing lake. Cold, frustrated (fish and sexually), I was about to return home. I passed two guys who were obviously making out in a tent with the front flap wide open. They were both older than me by some years, but it did't stop them from wanting to spice things up with me included, once I let them know I was horny for sex too. Not catching any fish has ever been so much fun.
As I see our marriage now, my wife could fuck any number of men as I no longer give a shit. She's the one with all the money and if she wants to divorce it'll cost her a pretty penny. And then I can get to discover just how much I now prefer a mans cock deep inside me, than I do her cold, miserable boring whining self.

I am married and bisexual. My wife has no idea before we married I sucked lots of cocks or that I been fucked a lot. This was all before we married 10 years ago. I stopped once we got married till about a month ago.
I work nights and my wife and I only have sex on weekends because she works days. About 6 months ago I started going to the gym druing the day to lose weight. I was 340 lbs on a 5 ft 11 in frame, now down to 250 lbs. It's bad enough my dick is small only 4 1/2 ins hard. With the weight it looked even smaller. About 5 months ago I met mark a married guy in his 40's and he works nights to. We became work out buddies and worked out together. Of all places we met in the shower roon, a big room with 10 shoer heads and it's wide open so u see everything. Of course I checked him out every one dose even if the say they don't. He's hung big mushroom head long thick veiny cut cock with a big set of hangers. He got me thinking about cock again. I couldn't wait till I could sneak a peek at his tool. I would go home and masturbate thinking about his cock. About a month ago I was getting dressed sitting on the bench in front of my locker. He came over dressed in a towel only wraped around his waist. He put on foot on the bench talking to me I could see right up his towel and everything was there at eye level. I tried to act like nothing was going on. 2 days latter the same thing happen and now I was thinking he was doing it on purpose. A few days latter the same thing happen but this time I knew he was doing it to get my attention because his towel was pulled wide open. I was now staring at his cock and balls. When I looked up he was smiling almost laughing as he grabbed my hand pulling it to his cock. I started stroking him and he was starting to grow when we ha to stop because some one was coming. He sat down next to me whispered his wife was out of town for 2 weeks if I want to come over to his house and play. I said meet u in the parking lot he smiled. Once in his house as soon as the door was shut he surprised me by grabbing me to him and forcing his tongue in my willing mouth. Wekissed for a whie when he took my shirt off started sucking my man tits. He then gently pushed me to my knees. He took his shirt off as I took his shoes and socks off. My hand was shaking as i undid his pants pulling them to the floor. He stepped out of them as I pulled his boxers down and off. I grabbed his cock and liftted it up to my lips and took him in my mouth. He moaned loudly as I licked and sucked the head. He was hard as a rock grabbing my head making me gage as he started fucking my mouth. He said u like that???????????????? I moaned yes. He said I knew u was a cocksucker why didn't u act on it. I said I didn't think he wanted me to. Didn't take him long to started shooting in my mouth. He kept cumming and cumming and moan yea thats it of fuck yea suck it. I am now his cock sucking bitch. The last month I must have sucked him over 25 times.

I'm 29 years old, I'm married and totally confused about my sexuality.
Last month two of my friends stayed over when my wife told me she was visiting her mom. We drank lots of beer and later on during a weird half an hour, I was given a bet. The bet was that I couldn't take something up my ass, as my wife often complained about anal sex and I said she should always want to please me. I took the bet and used the handle of one of my screw drivers to prove my point. It felt strange, but it also felt good. Then without at first noticing one of my friends turned to me and said "if I could that", meaning the screw driver, then maybe I could take his fully erect cock, which he'd removed from his shorts. I spent the next twenty or so minutes taking both of my friends cocks deep inside my butt, and loved every fucking minute of it. I even came all ove the floor in front of me without touching my cock, as I was being fucked in the doggie position.
Nothing was said the morning after as we all had hangovers, and not long after we had gotten dressed both of my friends left. My wife phoned that afternoon and told me she was staying over another night, to help her mom decorate her new kitchen. I immediately phoned one of my friends who'd stayed the night before, I'll not name him, and who had the larger cock of the two, and asked him if he wanted to repeat the experience. In a full evening of sexual exploration, I discovered I wasn't the first guy he'd fucked (He's as good as married) and we had every form of sex two men can have. Oral, masturbation, anal tonging (rimming I now believe it's called) and finally I let him fuck me twice, both times having him cum all over my face and tongue.
He left after spending four hours with me, four hours in which I learned how much I enjoyed sex with another man.
Now my dilema and why I'm confused. When my wife got home we had such a fantastic time fucking and I felt so alive drilling her pussy and asshole. She told me the next morning how good our sex had been the night before, and in a first for us, she actually wanted me to fuck her outside on our back porch, which I did willingly.
I've repeated the wonderful sexual experience of being fucked again by my friend. And once again sex with my wife afterwards was amazing. She doesn't know about anything of my new sexual longings, but I'm very tempted to tell her and see where it leads.

If I didn't confess now, I never would, as what I've been doing started only a fortnight ago.
I'm married and have been since I was 28. I love my wife and almost everything about our relationship. The one thing that ocassionally annoys me is her reluctance to give me blow jobs. She used to before we got married and was a very horny dirty girl. Now to why I'm here.
I'd planned to play golf with a friend two weeks back, but he passed after feeling ill. I'd paid for the round so headed off to the course. Around half way through the round I needed to pee and spotted the half way refreshment/toilet block. Putting my clubs outside I nipped in and stood relieving myself. Only seconds after I'd started peeing, a guy who was a little older than me, walked in and stood right next to me, taking his cock out. He didn't start to pee, in fact I noticed all he was doing was stroking his cock. Looking left I saw his cock and saw how big it was. Looking at me he said "Do you like it".
Every nerve in my body screamed to get away, but I didn't move as he added "If you like, I could give you one hell of blow job, then you can finish your round totally relaxed". It was weird that I didn't even think about it, but I didn't. I replied by saying "where ??".
Stood in the cubicle with my trousers and boxers around my ankles, the stranger I'd just met was sat on the toilet seat still with his cock out. He was masturbating himself as he took all seven inches on my cock over his tongue and into his warm wet mouth. The feeling after so long was amazing, no mattwer that it was a guy. And if anything the strangness of what I was doing actually made it being a man sucking me off, all the more intense.
Expertly he continued to suck in my hard and in long quick strokes, right down to my pubic area. I felt totally in his power as he made my cock throb with his attentions. He'd been sucking me for only around five minutes when I told him I was nearly there. Rather than pull away, he mumbled for me to thrust in harder. Holding his head in both hands, I did as he asked and began to fuck his mouth. When my cock exploaded it was by far the most awsome overpowering feeling I can remember having from anyone who'd blown my dick. Shot after shot of my cum erupted into his mouth and my older cock sucking friend took every single drop, straight down his very eager throat.
With my balls emptied I was about to decline his inference to suck his cock as all my sexual tension had been released, but fortunately before I could tell him, someone walked in. When we walked out a few minutes later we both went our seperate ways. He did however ask me if I'd be playing again that week. I wasn't going to but two days later I played after finishing work early. Just as two days previously my friend was there waiting outside. I'd played really well upto that point and wasn't going to stop. I'm glad I did as I took in my first ever cock into my mouth. This time it was turn to start, knowing I would be getting one hell of an awsome blow job. I genuinely enjoyed sucking off a man for the first time in my life, one who was at least a couple of inches bigger and way thicker than my seven inches.
It was similar pattern the following week only we were disturbed half way through my cock being swallowed.
I'm now converted to having my sucked by a guy and don't see the harm, if I don't let it go any further than mutual cock sucking. I'm certainly looking to find other ways of meeting men, to enjoy as many cocks as I can from now on.

In the period between Christmas and New Year I attended a series of meetings between my company and a prospective lucrative customer. I'd taken the place of a colleague as his wife had gone into labour and subsequently their child was born. The last meeting took place at a hotel set in a country estate. Nearing the end of the meeting our customer who I'll call Bill, asked my boss if I could leave them alone for a while. I did and took a stroll outside in the cold air. Walking back in a few minutes later only my boss was still sat there. He asked me to sit down and then said, and I remember what he said as if it was five minutes ago "Bill has gone to his room, he'd like you to follow. If you do and do as he asks and wants, you'll be ensuring many jobs will be still be there after the New Year, and as for yourself, you'll be getting promoted". As I was about to ask what Bill would want, my boss added "Bill enjoys younger men if you know what I mean". My boss walked out and left me to think about what he'd just said. I knew jobs were on the line if we didn't get the contract, I also knew I'd find it hard to have sex with another man. Thinking of my father as he walked into our home as I was about six, I remembered how dejected he was after losing his job. I also remembered the half uttered words of "I might aswell be dead".
The slow rise of the lift upto the floor Bill was staying on was toture, as was waiting outside his room for the door to open. Walking in I asked for him wait a minute and text my boss "Do not fucking tell a living soul, EVER".
I told Bill I wouldn't suck his cock, but his smile told me he wanted me to. All the same I did get undressed as Bill took off his bathrobe to reveal an already erect cock. Asking me to lay on the bed face down, I felt him get in between them and then felt the warmth of his breath of my arse cheeks. Moments later Bill was tonging my arsehole and I if I'm totally honest, began to enjoy the feelings his tongue was giving me. I tried as hard as I could not to get an erection but it didn't work and as Bill put a finger inside my arsehole I almost came. Not one word had been spoken since he asked me to lay down, so when he said "I'm going to fuck you now" I nearly jumped up and told him to fuckoff. The sound of him putting on a concom will live with me forever, as will the feeling of his cock pushing past my sphincter muscles. It hurt like holy hell and as I was about to cry out for him to stop, Bill said "The jobs are safe". That's what did it for me and I lay there excepting my anal fucking fate.
Bill wasn't gentle with me, because he knew what was at stake, so my first ever anal fucking was painful all the way through to him filling the condom inside me. The second time and there was a second time was an hour afterwards in the shower. He'd asked me to suck him to hardness as he'd sucked my dick until I'd filled his mouth with my seed on the bed. The feeling of his fat cock on my tongue almost made me puke, but I carried on until his dick was fully erect. Rolling over I thought he wanted me on the bed. Moving us both over to the shower room I leant against the wall as the water flowed over us both. Then in one long easy movement Bill entered my arsehole for the second time. It was far less painful and my arsehole seemed to accept his cock with a willingness that surprised me. As Bill began to fuck me, holding me by my shoulders, I began to enjoy the feeling his dick was giving me. hearing me moan with pleasure was the cue Bill was waiting for and on hearing me he started to hammer into my rear hole. I took his thrusts with a new sense of longing and also a growing need for him to be deeper inside me. By the time Bill was fucking as he had on the bed earlier, I was practically begging him to thrust hsi cock into me harder and faster.
There was no condom this time, and I felt every spurt of his cum shooting up inside of me as he banged away at my arsehole. Spent Bill leant against me abd asked in a shuddering voice if I'd stay over with him.
Before I finally fell asleep I text my boss to let him know we'd gotten the contract and I'd make my own way back home. Bill fucked me twice more that night and I empted my load up a mans arse for the first time. The contract secured I congratulated myself for ensuring people kept their jobs and I also thanked myself for learning how to enjoy the full company of another man.
I've taken my promotion and our lucrative contract has gotten even more lucrative, safe guarding many jobs. It has also meant I've met Bill outside of work and have begun to realise I now enjoy a hard cock fucking me just as much as I enjoy fucking my girlfriend.

It is usually fairly difficult to find guys online. The endless e-mail, drop offs, and no-shows can get a bit old. Every once in a while you actually connect. I am a divorced bi-male, I have been enjoying safe sex with men and women since my separation. Sometimes it's easier to hook up with a guy than a nice available woman. I'm not looking to fall in love with a guy, but I do harbor a fetish which can make connecting even tougher. I like to wear women's lingerie and makeup when I have gay sex. I prefer my partner dressed as well, but I have been with straight guys.

The other day I hooked up with a guy who said he liked wearing stockings and makeup. He actually showed up, in fact he was a little early. I had planned to meet him across from my apartment. Once I determined he appeared safe I climbed into his truck and directed him to a space behind my place.

We got to my place and I immediately stripped down to my bra, panties, and hose. I stepped in to a pair of heels. He began to dress and I went into the bathroom to do my makeup. When I came out he had on heels,a lace garter, black seamed stockings, sexy lace panties but no bra, I found a black lace bra the complimented his outfit and he gladly put it on.

He really liked how my make-up looked and asked if I would do his. I'm smart enough not to share make-up, but he had his own. He said he was terrible at applying it. After I finished he looked quite feminine, though no one would ever mistake us for women. We were two masculine guys wearing women's underwear.

He was sporting a nice hard-on and I went right to my knees and started sucking, after just a few minutes he had me stop so he wouldn't cum so fast. He led me to my bed and laying back he began to suck my dick. He was a fucking cock sucking expert. It took about ten minutes before I blasted a hot load directly down his throat without warning. He gagged and pulled off, my last ropes of cum lashed across his face and chin.

Neither of us had a condom so no anal, he had a bag of tricks though and produced two identical dildo's. I cleaned them both thoroughly with hot water, soap, and alcohol, and I handed them back to him. He applied lube to both and handing me one, he turned to expose his ass and I worked the dildo in. I was sucking his cock simultaneously as I pumped his ass with the big dildo. He exploded in my mouth this time and I swallowed every drop.

I asked him to fuck my ass too, so I went to all fours and he positioned himself behind me. I was expecting him to insert the dildo. Instead I felt him nudge his bare cock around my anus. He was a married guy and very clean. I begged him to fuck me bareback and cum in my ass. He slowly inserted his big dick into me and though uncomfortable at first, combined with lots of lube and patience on his part he managed to bury his cock in my ass. He held himself deep in me for a few minutes and then he abruptly pulled it almost out of my ass and then buried it deep, holding it there. After a couple more similar penetrations he began to fuck me in earnest and moaned loudly as he buried a load of semen deep inside me. A first for me!

He got up after that and said he had to go. I sat in a comfortable chair, smoking a joint with cum in my ass, down my throat, and all over my face. I watched him undress and carefully put his girlie things into his overnight bag. He mumbled thanks and something about doing it again and hurried out the door. I just smiled and sat there with an oncoming buzz the amazement at what had just happened. I had just had sex as a woman and I felt warm all over.

We haven't spoken since, but I'm sure we will hook up again.