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Older The Better

Every late afternoon I would visit Max, make him his evening meal and generally tidy up his home.
He'd had an accident, and at sixty seven wasn't to comfortable getting about.
One afternoon I walked in as usual and discovered him masturbating. His cock was enormous and I couldn't help but stare and become turned on. Eventually he saw me watching him and said "Either help me out, or leave for today".
I didn't leave, and was soon sucking on what I later found out was a nine and a half inch cock.
Max blew his load in my mouth and I tried to swallow most of it. But by then I was horny as hell by then. Telling him I needed relief, the pensioner had me remove my knickers, lay on my back on his couch, as he got between my legs.
Nobody had ever spent that much time licking, tonguing and sucking on my pussy and clit.
I had multiple orgasms before I had him stop with my pussy in total rapture.
It was an amazing experience, and one we repeated the following day. Only I also rode his dick as he sat in his favourite arm chair.
We had sex every single afternoon I visited from then on. Not always fucking, as he loved his blow jobs. And I adored how he tongued my pussy and arsehole.
When Sam passed away, he'd left some money for me. Not much, but enough to buy myself a small second hand car.
And I used that car to visit other older men.
Some were set in their ways and also incapable. But others found their attractive slim assistant charming, especially when she gave them oral pleasure.
And others with the energy and drive to do so, have fucked me over the four years I've now been looking after them.
I now much prefer sex with older men, men not necessarily with huge cocks, but definitely with a thick penis. Either that or a mouth and tongue that enjoys giving my love holes pleasure.

The Man On The Bus

When i was 13 i went to mexico on my own. It was not the first time i had made the trip from southern california to tijuana. I would go spend my time off school with my family.

The trip would take 2 busses. I would get off at the boarder cross walking and get another bus to the small town that my family lived at.

I got the bus around 2p got to tijuana around 4p. I missed the earlier bus that i had to take so i waited for the 7p bus. It would take 2 or 3 hours to get to my aunts town.

Once the bus got there i got on first and i went all the way to the back, where they have 3 seats together and i would be able to lay down. I put my bags on the over head compartment along with a small blanket in case i got cold. Not alot of people got on, so people were pretty scattered.

We made the first stop and more people got on, a man maybe in his late 30s or early 40s got on, he walked all the way to back where i was and asked me if he could sit with me.
I said yes and took my feet off the seat. I was sitting by the window. The bus driver turned the lights off and kept on going. I dozed off and i woke up because the road got bumpy.

When i woke up, realized that i was resting my head on this man sitting next to me. I quickly sat up and said sorry. He said it was ok. I was cold, so i stood up to get my blanket from the over head. But i lost my balance and fell back on to his lap. I felt his hard dick but i quickly got up. I got the blanket and sat back in my seat.

I was thinking that he must of got hard when i was resting my head on him asleep. It turned me on. I was wondering if he knew that i felt his dick on my ass. I covered my self and just kept thinking about it. I got an idea. I would get up and go to the rest room next to us. Then when i go back to my seat i would fall in his lap again.

So i did just that. I was getting back to my seat i pretended to lose balance again and sat on his lap. But this time i lingered a bit longer then got up to get to my seat. He moved over to the seat between us and leaned over to me and asked if i liked sitting on his lap.? He then put his hand on my uper thigh and started to rub my thigh up and down.

I looked at him and smiled, he grabbed the blanket and covered us both with it. He grabbed my knee and pulled it over his leg. So my legs were spread apart. He then ran his hand between my legs and started to rub my pussy over my jeans.

He took my hand and put it on his dick. I felt so big and hard. He asked me to unbutton my pants, so i did. He slid his hand down my pants and played with my pussy. I tried really hard not moan, he pull the blanket over our heads and he pulled my shirt down to suck my tits.

He continued to touch me, as we talked. He asked where i was going. He was going to the same place, he told me that his house was near the bus stop. That he could take me to his house and i could just say that i got a later bus.
I was nervous becuase i never done anything like that. And i had sex only with a friend to know what it felt like .
But he was making me feel so good.

I agreed. Once we got to our stop. I got off and walked to his house. It was right next door, he did tell me that he lived with roommates, but that they might not be there. However when we went in, all 4 roommates were in the kitchen. He took my hand and led me to his room. His friends were looking at me and whistling at me as i walked by. Saying things like is she for all of us? Do you need help? We closed the door, and as soon as he closed it. He grabbed me and started to kiss me and pulling my clothes off. I started to undo his belt. And he took off his shirt.

We were both naked kissing and touching each other. He then told me that he was going to teach me how a man fks a little slut like me. He threw me on the bed, and got on top of me, sucked on my tits, then he slid down between my legs and started to eat me out. It felt so good. I started moaning and yelling out for him not to stop. He then got up and pulled me to the edge of the bed, held my legs apart and grabbed his big dick and pressed it in me. I moaned out more, i was being loud and he was going hard and you could hear the slapping noises. His friends were cheering on, yelling out saying take it, it tuned me on that they were listening. He was going balls deep fking me. He got up and pulled me off the bed, picked me up i wr**ed my legs around him and he fked me standing up with my legs around him. He sat Down and had me ride him. I bounced on his dick as i moaned and asked for more. I could still hear his friends and it turned me on more.

So i got off him, and opened the door and quickly got back on his dick. One of the guys opened the door the whole way. and saw me riding his dick. He cheered me on and started yelling out in Spanish to keep riding his dick that it was good for me. I whispered in his ear if he can call his friend over, he said you want to take more dicks? Quieres mas vergas? I said yes. He yelled out, and said come help me. Who else wants to help me? When i looked up 3 of the guys were walking in the room.

I was still riding him. When one of the guys got next to me and started touching me, and he kissed me. Pulled out his dick and had me suck on it. Then they had me get on all fours and fked me from the back. All 3 took turns fking me from the back.

I felt so good, i had hands all over my body. Then one of the guys asked me to ride him. I got on him and he pulled me towards him and kissed as he thrusted his dick in my pussy. Then i felt some one behind me. But he wouldnt let me go. He was holding on to me really tight. I felt a dick start going in my ass. I started screaming as it went in. I had 2 dicks in me. I felt so full .

The pain felt so good. 4 dicks taking turns on me. It was so good. They made me cum over and over again. Iasted for almost 2 hours. Once they all shot a load on me, i cleaned up. Made out with the man that took me to his house so more. And got dressed . I walked back to the bus station with my legs feeling like they were going to fall off.

My Time As An Underage "sugar Baby", And The Consequences...

I remember once having a van pull up too me on the side of a road when on my way home from highschool when I was still a youngster, around 14 and some months after enrolling. I had always been strapped for cash, since my parents were poor, and I wanted the then "in" console that I would not be able to have...

I was cutting through a shortcut on the way home by myself, through a shady neighborhood, while thinking of ways too make money... By sheer coincidence, some creep of an old man in a high-end car, smelling funny, which I look back and figure was either smoke or alcohol. Wanna know what this man offers me? Outright offers me money, 500$ or so if I get in, and let him take me too his home for some "fun".
Yeah, red alert, right there... however, I wasn't exactly known for wisdom...

I hopped right on in, as I saw an easy way to get the game console I desired...
Immediately, I feel odd about what I had just done, but I didn't think to hop out with the car in motion, for fear, and just kept my mouth shut... On the drive, we actually pull up too this upbeat area for the wealthy people.
He drops me off around back, and has me enter in through that way, out of sight of anybody, through the alley and into the back of his cool.

I didn't think too run, then, because I wanted to be a "cool kid" with a console, and met him inside.


What happens next is this guy actually poured me a drink of lemonade, noticing my shakiness, and invited me to sit away from him... He begins to ask me all kinds of odd little things, like how old I was, despite my young looks. He also asks me my size and measurements, what I like too do, etc... he also let me ask various things about himself, even openly showing his id and various things.

This seemed to go on for hours, until he asked me why I wanted the money, which I told him I wanted a gaming console for myself. The man regarded me with a thoughtful stare, before telling me he might be willing to grant me money, but he asked if I would actually be wanting to fuck just for a console...

He was kind enough to open the door, and offer me out, and giving me 100$ for entertaining his curiosities... then told me that he wouldn't force me too do anything...
However, I stayed, deciding that I had wanted the rest of the money more then anything, despite realizing this was a reckless idea.


He had smiled at my choice, and stripped naked before my eyes, and offered to show me a porn film, to "get me into it".

He showed a tape in his VCR, then we sat on his couch, and watched... I do not recall the film's name, but I remember learning from it, and that ran a long time. It was a film with a flimsy plot, and a lot of filth. Plenty of sexual things were detailed, and you saw those corny stereotypes everywhere.
By the time it ended, it was getting late, around sundown. I checked the clock, and saw it had been two hours or so...

I had been feeling the urge to get up and go, to avoid the wrath of my parents, but... I was actually a tad curious after seeing a part about masturbation which I had done in experimentation several awkward times during the earlier film, until I found myself in pleasure.

I just decided to cave-in, because I had decided that I wanted to experiment with the man, now.


He would take me by my hand, and lead me into his bedroom, then would request I get naked... I begun to slightly shake, anxious as ever, but it was eased when he decided to strip first, then smiled encouragingly in a way that seemed to make me feel... excited.

Once we were out of our clothes, he had me lay down upon his bed, and he'd slowly crawl ontop of me, and he slowly guided my legs apart, and begun touching me down there with his fingers for awhile, until I got wet enough with excitement, then he stuck his penis inside my vagina, and begun to gently thrust into me.

I had what I recall felt like several racing heartbeats, as I got taken for the first time, while he smiled down at me. Eventually, he put his lips upon my face, and smothered me in kisses, while groping my nipples.

I recall feeling my vagina aching after awhile, due to it being my first time, and remember a hot sticky feeling down there... When he was done, he guided me from the room, and I found it had been a half-hour.

I go to get dressed, and he hands me not 500$, but actually 1000$ dollars for "being a doll", then kissed me on the cheek, told me to come back, and all I did was shrug and walk off, feeling very funny after the whole affair.


I had immediately bought the console I wanted on the way back, along with plenty of games... my parents assumed it was a wealthy friend of mine, which I didn't have any of, that gave me the console as a g*ft. I just went along with that, and they were nonethewiser.


I figured that'd be the final time I would go too see him, but after a few weeks, I really had pondered on what he had done and showed me... I thought hard, and for some arcane reason, I decided to go back next weekend, in the middle of the day...

I returned to the address, and knocked on the door, and... well, I find an older woman answering, his wife, oddly hot and young, despite the man being older... which he had told me about, because she said "oh, you are that child, well come inside".

He was home, having finished selling someone some property, and greeted me with an oddly sweet smile... His wife then said something along the lines of "I thought you made her up in your mind".

They both offer me a seat on a chair, and give me a steak with some tea, which they had incidentally made up before I got there, then we begun to chat...
I talked about the first time he took me, and I thanked him for the money, but I told him of the urges and curiosity I had ever since that fateful night, and asking if I could do it again. He decided to up and offer for me to be his and his wife's "sugar daughter", which they explained to me as allowing them too fuck me when I came around.

I naturally accepted the offer, despite how I didn't need money for a console anymore...
This was a secret arrangement, every Saturday I was free, they would pay me money for doing chores nude, as well as entertaining them, asking me to enter through the back out of sight of the main street.


Before you ask yourself or scroll around, I accepted... From that point on, I came over, did the dirty things and the chores, and etc... It became a routine task, and managed to hide it from my parents. It was all tiresome at first, but I adapted, and actually enjoyed it.
I learned much from these two about sex, as well as about being a servant, etc.

I grew comfy, and even begun to affectionately call them my "other mommy and daddy", and they gave me more and more money, which I stashed away... made a small fortune by the end of the year,.

This would go on quite a long time, until one day they actually talked to me about working for more money and fun.
Well, they sort of went into detail, telling me about "bdsm" and such, explaining in detail all about it. I saw it in the films I watched while over there, but this was the first time they ever offered.

I went right ahead, and they like... hooked me up too this pillory like thing, saying that they'd lock me in, and I'd have too endure plenty of little things, but they told me to use the safe word if it was all too much.
It all started fairly small, slaps on the ass, penetration with various objects in my ..(continue confession)

Hunting Dog

When I was a kid my dad raised hunting dogs. Some were bird dogs and some were coon dogs.

We had all kind of kennels in a big barn and fenced off areas that they could run in.

One of my chores was to feed, water, and clean up the kennels.

When I was maybe 14 I read some erotica online about a woman being fucked by a dog.
I was constantly horny and was getting myself off with my hands all the time. I wanted more.

The first dog I tried anything with was one of the best studs my dad had. He had fathered so many puppies. He had also tried jumping up on me in the past.
I waited until my parents were at work one day and went out there. I had been playing with myself and was all worked up.
He stuck his nose in my crotch the second I stepped in his pen.
I spread a blanket down and pulled my shorts and panties off.
He jumped around me wagging his tail as I got down on my hands and knees.
He knew what he was doing.
He licked me quick a few times and then hopped up on my back.
I remember shaking i was so excited.
Then I felt the tip of his dick poking around on my butt cheeks.
He was aiming too high so I reached back between my legs and pulled him down to my soaking wet pussy.
The SECOND his tip slid into me he rammed home.
I remember squealing and my whole body going stiff.
But he went straight into fucking me hard. His feet locked around my hips.
I was a mix of shock and pleasure.
It didn't hurt necessarily but it was also more uncomfortable than I was expecting.
Under 30 seconds though he was cumming inside me. His knot pushing hard just inside my pussy.
He then hopped off me and went to turn around like the dogs do but his cock pulled out of me. THAT hurt. I gasped.
He went and laid down to lick himself and I was left there on my knees, dog cum dripping down my thighs.
I expected him to last longer (like in the stories) and I expected his knot to actually get stuck in me.
But either way I was still super turned on by it and fingered my sloppy sore hole and got off there in the cage.

After that i would fuck him and other dogs as often as I safely could without getting caught. I learned to get myself super close with my fingers before letting the dog fuck me so that I would cum on their cock.

I got my first real boy friend at 17 and we started having sex which in my opinion was better because I could tell him what to do and what I liked but I still look back fondly at those days of being an adventurous exploring horny teen.

Back Then

I was and still am a slight built guy. Thin, with waist indented from my hips and chest, had long hair for many years, I was very short and only weighed about 135 at 15 years old. I was with some older boys for the afternoon, running around in a car. We ended up near some woods, and it was there that they laid me down and made me have sex. I had to suck each of them to hardness (1 came in my mouth the first time) then they all took turns fucking me. There were 5 of them and they took some pictures of me. I was forced to be their fuck dates whenever they picked me up. Sometimes it was individually, sometimes the whole group, sometimes one or two of them with other guys that weren't part of the original 5. That first time I got fucked 9 times, and three times got it in my mouth to swallow.

Eventually I told this 40 year old guy I did pool work for. He said he'd give me $20 if I sucked him off. So I did it. The next day he fucked me for $ 50. From him and some of his friends, I was soon making a couple hundred dollars a week, sometimes more. Then one married guy who's family was out of town had me over to his place. He laid out underwear, and a mini-skirt with white blouse, blue satin panties with matching bra and thigh high stockings. They belonged to his daughter, whom I knew from school. I used some lipstick and a little makeup and while he fucked me and I was sucking him he kept calling me by his daughters name. I didn't care, and I repeated this often for him, with my own girl clothes and undies many times. He paid a lot more. Then I would charge more for crossdressing and making up for men. Though I was still getting my ass pried open by the older guys at school, eventually most of them went to college and there was only 2 or 3 who didn't have wives or girlfriends and kept using me as their sexual outlet. So mostly, if was paying customers. In the three years I did it, I only had 4 guys who wanted me to fuck them. That was my first time having sex being the top. I did love it, but loved the money I got for being a gurly bottom.

In college, I met a great girl, 2 years older than me, and she and I started having sex. She's the only sex I've had since meeting her. We are married with 2 kids and she's as slim and pretty and firm as the day we met. She has no idea how a Jr. in college could have bought his own house. No one knows except my old customers. She has no idea that I was a crossdresser whore for horny boys and men.

From Virgin To Anybodies

I sucked my first guy at 15, he was married and in his 40s. Within 2 weeks he turned me out to some of his friends. I was on my back with 8 different guys coming in and fucking me in the bedroom while they were drinking. Within 2 months I had 23 different guys cocks in my mouth and ass, and one other only in my mouth.

I stopped caring and became an "anybodies" anyone who wanted to drink, get me stoned, play with me, kiss me - got to fuck me or get a BJ. Only 6 months after being a virgin I'd been fucked by over 50 men or boys. I still am a gangbang cockwhore.

Still A Sweet Memory

We lived in a small town with one movie theatre. Part of our summer activities were Wednesday matinees for a dollar. As middle schoolers we sat in the balcony seating with the other kids from school. The bathrooms were in the basement and it wasn't uncommon for the owner to be there. We lined up at the urinals, or took our turn in the stall. If we took too long the old man would tap our shoulder, or slap his open hand on the stall. His words still ring in my head "no jacking off".

I guess he liked me because he slapped my behind when I went to the bathroom, made fun of my dick asking when I was going to grow up. His attention didn't go unnoticed and my school friends made fun of me. On the fateful occasion I was the only one in the bathroom when he stood next to me and showed me his dick, "this is a dick", he said, "maybe one day you're going to grow a dick too". With that he grabbed my dick in his hand and worked it with his fingers, looking in my eyes "like that, don't you?", "I knew it". And bent down and sucked it.

That I liked it was true, but right then I was embarrassed. He patted my rear end and told me to keep this to myself. When he saw me he winked, patted my rear, if it was possible he would grab my dick in my pants. He invited me to see the projection room, hugged me and kissed me, taking my dick out of my pants he sucked me again. This time he had me hold his dick in my hand and kiss it. The visit to the projection room lasted at most five minutes.

For the rest of the summer I visited the projection room. When little league started my coach, who was a fireman, told me I shouldn't be going to the projection room. Summer ended and school started and the Wednesday dollar movies were over till the next year. But my memories have never been erased, that summer I found out that girlfriends were overrated, my interest were elsewhere.

I Was In Mexico

Last year, I was 15 and my parents wanted to vacay in Mexico. They rented a private beach house in a secluded area. I was really excited to go so I went bikini shopping and bought 2 swim suits. One was normal and the other one I didnt tell my parents about. The top is like a tiny piece of cloth that barely covers my nipples and the bottom is like a string with a small piece of cloth that cover the slit of pushy but like thats all. I didnt know if I would be able to wear but I got it anyway. Anywho we went to the beach house and I spent every day there on the beach. The first three days I noticed this chubby older guy staring at me and I pretended not to notice. My parents were with me anyway so I didn't really mind. One day my parents went to check out the small town and spend a night out so I decided to stay on the beach by the house because I dont like crowds or people lol. I knew this was my chance to wear my skimpy swim suit so I changed as soon as they left and went out to the sand. Its a private beach so not a lot of people were there, but that same guy was in his regular spot. For the record, I have d size tits and a big ass, but I weigh 117 pounds and 5 foot 3 inches, so I'm pretty thin. (I'm a lighter skinned hispanic girl in case you were wondering.) Well anyway I walked out to the beach alone and that guy immediately walked over to me and straight up told me he liked my body and would give me 500 dollars if I'd let him fuck me. I'd never had sex and so idk what to say. Then he said 600 if he could fuck my ass too. I told im I'd think about it and that I just wanted to tan. He stared at me the whole time I was out there in my tiny bikini. I kind started getting turned on and saw my nipples getting hard under the tiny pieces of cloth. I decided to tease him a bit and move my top around so my nipples were exposed. I could feel the other people on the beach staring at me as they walked by. It made me so wet. I opened my legs to some passing dads and families, and exposed my teen pussy (it wasn't very hard, the bottoms only covered the front part of my pussy slit) . I turned over on all fours with my ass towards the old guyand spread my legs so he could get a good look. I felt the stares and i just started feeling so horny. I think I like exposing myself to randos lol. I kept doing it as the day went on and I loved the feeling of dads and husband's staring at my body. I walked up and down the beach letting people get a good look at me wearing almost nothing. If I saw a guy I liked, I would squat down to "pick up a shell" lol and maybe bend over enough so they could see the string lining up with my pussy lips. On the back to the house I decided I'd let the old man fuck my and take my v. I found him where he always sat and said I'd do it. We went back to his beach house and got to business. He wanted to feel my soft tits and sucked on my nipple through the bikini top and had me pose for him while he took pictures of me with my legs open and stuff. After that he laid me on a bed where he started kissing the inside of my legs and running his fingers up and down my pussy. I was nervous but so weeett. He didn't even take my bikini off, he just played with my body for a while. He asked me to call him daddy so I did and eventually he worked a finger into my hole. He said I was warm and tight so he took out his cock and put it at my hole and pushed. It didnt fit at first so the rubbed around until he forced it in. I could feel myself wrapped around him as he pushed in and out slowly, stretching and pulling me with him. He was moani g so loud lol. It hurt really bad and he was sucking my nipples and he kept pushing. Eventually I pushed in all the way and it burned so bad. He kept pumping and I kept calling him daddy. Every time I thought he was going to finish, he would stop and breath. He eventually pulled out of me, he cock was covered in blood which super weird to me. I got on all fours and he asked if I'd let him put it in my butt. I said sure and he spread my ass open and wet it to try and push it in. It hurt like hell. I kept trying to relax but couldntnt. After forever he got the tip in and just pushed. In like 5 minutes he finished. He came in my asshole and pulled out and let it drip from my stretched asshole. He asked me to clean up and tossed me a towel. I did and he paid me 700 instead of the 600. I didnt question it. I just took the money and went back to the house we were staying in and waited for my parents to get home. I fell asleep and the next morning when I went out to the beach, I saw him and he just nodded and I went about like nothing happened. Lol. Befire I left he slipped me his address and asked me to mail him my used panties. I do and he regularly venmos me 100 bucks for each pair I send.

Nearly thirteen years ago my friend and I were caught by an older man, sucking on one another cocks in my parental home. Within minutes of being caught, my friend was scurrying off home and I was left sat naked pleading with him not tell my parents. Half an hour later I was no longer an anal virgin, my asshole was stinging like crazy but I'd just experienced the wonderful feeling of a mans cum shooting deep inside my ass.

The following day, he called by again, knowing I was alone, as he and I both knew my parents would be opening up their cafe. There was no need for coercion or pretense when he flopped his large uncut cock out of his shorts. I instantly got on my knees and sucked in his gorgeous cock, making him buck forwards as he fucked my mouth.
Expecting him to cum in my mouth, he pulled out, told me to kneel up on the sofa and I felt his hot breath on my asshole. Over the next quarter of an hour he licked tongued and probed my rear hole until I was good and ready to receive what I knew was going to be thrust up my ass. Sure enough using lube he'd brought with him, I felt his hard press against my hole and 'Pop' in slid his man meat right up to the hilt.

I was his and he knew it. Fucking me like a rag doll, I soon began to push back onto his cock feeling my orgasm rising. Then wham, my cock let go and I was cumming all over the leather sofa. Not once did he slow down or relent in how he was fucking me and I knelt there and took every thrust.

It was a long long fuck, one that I still sometimes refer back to when were having sex. Eventually he cried out, gripped my hips and slammed his dick deep into my asshole. His hot cum burst inside of me and I wondered if he'd ever stop ejaculating.

Every day we could from then until just this morning, we've had gay sex. He's taught me everything and we've done just about everything over the years. This morning he shared me with a fuck buddy of ours, someone a similar age to him, but with a bigger cock. It took place in my apartment, an apartment he bought for me so we could fuck whenever we wanted to. And an apartment which has witnessed many many gay and bisexual parties and sex sessions.
He'll be back later to deliver my birthday present. It's a car and I'm extremely grateful for his gift and kindness. But I'll be more interested in him fucking me a week after my birthday. A week in which my grandpa has fucked my hole every single day.

When I was 11 years old my parents got divorced. We had had a nice, big, comfortable house in a swank neighborhood. I went to a private all girls school. I had nice clothes, summer camp, piano and ballet lessons. I had too many other luxuries for a spoiled little princess to list.

The divorce ended all that. The bitch formerly known as Mommy screwed my dad out of everything including the kitchen sink. She got the house, the beamer, the boat, the beach cottage, the retirement fund and I don't know what else. My dad got a run down trailer in a run down trailer park, an 11 inch black and white television, and me. The last words my mother ever spoke to me was "I never wanted kids, especially not a worthless little brat like you, I only pretended to love you and frankly I am relieved that I don't have to worry about taking care of you any more you nasty little belly stretching nipple destroying bundle of misery." She said a few more things after that but I couldn't hear the words through my own crying.

The relationship I had with my dad changed after that. I became a suragate housewife learning to take care of all those domestic chores that a housewife would take care of along with my homework. I coped by emerging myself in my studies. previously I had been a B-C student but the whole affair changed me and unlike how so many kids who react to such trauma by letting their grades slip, I buried my misery in books. I went from fancy upscale private all girl's school to public school. I had never been to a public school so I didn't know they didn't wear uniforms. I wore mine the first day because my dad didn't have the means to buy me a new wardrobe. I had to make do with what I had which looked pretty snotty to my fellow classmates who ridiculed me mercilessly. So I wore my uniform every day in shame and just spent all my time studying.

My teachers loved me and took pity on me and offered me refuge in empty classrooms instead of playgrounds and lunchrooms and I thrived academically.

I had gone from popular snooty spoiled rich princess to bookish outcast.

Ok so much for back story.

I know, some of you reading this are thinking at some point I started having sex with my Dad. I'll get to that later.

So I was walking home from school, my face buried in a book, ignoring the incessant ridicule of my cruel classmates until the sound faded away in the distance. I felt that daily relief of distance, about a third of the way home, I was engrossed in Louis and Clark and imagining myself as their guide when suddenly I was grabbed. A big strong smelly hand grabbed me around and another from the other side, a hand on my mouth to prevent screams, I was dragged away, something put over my eyes and before I could grasp what was going on I was inside a structure, dark and tied down.

I was so not paying attention to where I was going that I had no idea exacly where it was on my daily route home. If I every escaped, I could never tell the police where I was grabbed. I didn't recognize the voice. I had no idea who it was. All I could tell was it was a male, big, gruff, smelly, that was it.

He was quiet for a while. I thought for sure he was going to kill me. After all wasn't that what monsters do?? then the thought of ransom entered my mind and I was contemplaiting explaining to him that my dad wasn't rich any more so kidnapping me was useless. It just never occurred to me that anyone would want me for a rape toy.

I thik it might have been 20 minutes or so of him shuffling around, beathing heavy, making noises and such before he got close to me and started talking again.

"my but you're a pretty one little missy."

"I bet all the boys want to do you and do you really good"

I had no idea what the crazy old man was jabbering on about. I was too scared to interrupt him and secretly praying to whoever might be listening to arrange my release to expend any energy on trying to understand what he was going on about. but I was getty creeped out pretty badly.

"In case you haven't figured it out missy, I've kidnapped you!"

"Duh!" I was a little kid, not brain dead. I kept that thought to myself.

"Your probably wondering what I'm gonna do with you aren't you??"

Well I had been wondering so I just said a very soft "yes"

"Of course you are missy. Well let me tell you, I haven't had one of you in a very long time, damned near twenty years, too many if you ask me. Now I got you all to myself and I been watching you a long time Missy, you don't have any friends at all so nobody gonna miss you are they??"

He had a point but I didn't want to give him such valuable information by confirming his statement.

"Well now I guess I'll tell you why you are here. I'm going to fucking rape the living shit out of you pretty little whore!"

He was using a lot of words I would not have understood just a year ago but having read a lot in recent months I knew what the words "fucking" "rape" "shit" and "whore" meant and I put together that he was going to insert his penis in my vagina without my permission for the purpose of mating with me and gratifying himself and that he considered me a sexually promiscuous girl who charged money for such services.

I needed just a little more life's experience to fully grasp his true intent.

I was about to get it.

I felt cold steel against my flesh and instinctively pulled away until I realized it was a large pair of scissors and he was cutting my clothes off. Ok, well given a choice, I would always choose being naked in front of a monster over being stabed. I was actually releaved to learn that was all he was going to do with that large sharp tool. Once naked I felt a slight chill but since it was kind of warm inside what I presumed was his house I actually didn't mind. Had this been our trailer at this temperature I would have been stripped down to my undies anywhere. Naked was going too far but still beats being stabbed.

"So little missy, you got two choices, get raped now or join me in the shower"

Well that I was not expecting. I had resigned myself to being raped. I had a pretty good idea at this point what that might entail as far as mechanics are concerned but not in any particular detail. I was also pretty sure that while the physical sensations of being raped was going to be unpleasant, the proximity of his filthy stench would be far worse. I readily agreed to the joint shower. Yes it would stink in the shower too but that stench would wash away quickly. Who knows how long he would be on me smelly like a rotten septic tank.

He untied me leaving the blind fold on. He led me to the bathroom and from the sounds he was making I gathered he was getting naked. He drew a bath. I thought he was going to have a shower with me but I wasn't going to question him about it. He said "get in" so I felt around and climbed into the tub. I wasn't sure what to expect. He just said, "sit there and don't move a muscle missy."

So I sat there in the warm water actually feeling a little bit calm induced by the water.

I heard him in the shower, he spent about 20 minutes in there. He must have had a really nice hot water heater to get all that hot water without running out. We had about 10 minutes worth of hot water in our trailer and then we had to wait about 3 hours for more.

He finished his shower, made some noises then came over.

"That's better missy, I bet you can stand my smell a bit better now that I've washed up. I got to apologize for the ..(continue confession)