SilasKaporvski

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Gender: Straight Male
Age: 21
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Confessions by SilasKaporvski:

My Darkest Secrets Were There.

You know, I heard thi saying in a videogame a while ago and it kinda resembles me at some parts. "You can fight nature. You can't fight change. You can't fight gravity".

This is really hard for me.

I used to have a Twitter account where I was free. There, I was able to be what I really am and say the thing that I really like. But that profile was making me realise that I'm not a good man. There's like two sides of me. The social one and the real one. I was the real one there.

I got banned for a reason and I saw that as a chance of changing myself, but I know it's not easy to fight against... yourself. I don't want to make another account, because I fell like if I do that... it'll just create another monster. A stronger one. One that could destroy my good parts and erase what I was before. Even with all these odds, I still fight. Even knowing that it's useless in the end.

My First Time And Biggest Trauma.

Last time I said about my experience with a dildo and I commented about my first time. It was a funny moment, like, I remember it very clearly because it was the motivation for me to buy a dild. So I am here to talk about it with a lot of details, even more than it should have.

I was 16 and was dating a girl who was 14 at the time. we've met in a party when I was 15 and she was 13, and then we started to talk and we got interested in each other. time has passed and when I realised, we were already dating. We had a lot of fun back at those days. we went to a lot of places, did a lot of things, kissed at every single place we were, I was totally in love with her. And then, six months later, it happened. We used to talk about sexual things like sex or masturbation, I've confessed to her I used to masturbate and she confessed me back. So I confessed another. I always had a fetish for legs and thighs. I told her I always dreamed about lick and kiss some thighs and legs, and I thought she would be surprised. But she didn't. She... she said I could lick her's if I wanted. It took me some time to understand what she said. When I got back at my senses, I was literally licking her thighs.

My god, they were so smooth, so good to touch, I wanted to keep doing that forever. I was so hard while licking her legs and then I noticed. She was moaning really loud and she was putting her hand in front of her pussy (she was using shorts), like she was about to start masturbate. We kept doing that for some very amazing and delicious minutes, I was really hard and she was really horny. It wasn't our intention to do that till the end, but when I stopped, she said she wasn't satisfied. I didn't believe what I heard. She was calling me to make her feel good! I really wanted to keep going and that's what I did.

Then, we were on bed. I was kissing her mouth so passionately and was feeling so good that I could keep doing that for hours, but minutes later, I went down to her shirt, which was a button shirt. I opened her buttons and her breasts were exposed for me. They were so beautiful, just like my type. That girl was so perfect, and then I started to rub them gently and then roughfly as time passed by. I started to suck her nipples, kiss them and I made her moan a lot that night. After that, I went to her lower parts and took her shorts off. She was using black underwear that night. I took her panties off and when I saw that pussy, it was like... I've never seen something like that before. It was beautiful. She was already wet, but I wanted to lick every part of her cute body, then I did that and started to lick her pussy. She was literally having orgasms everytime I passed my tongue there and I was about to cum, but before that happende, I heard her telling me to stop. She wanted to make a blowjob on me and of course I accepted.

I laid down on bed and she came right at my dick. Even though we were both virgins, she knew what she was doing. She started licking the tip and the rest of the dick, up and down hith her tongue and finally, she put my dick on her mouth. She kept doing the same movements, licking my dick while inside her mouth, I was having a lot of pleasure. I couldn't hold much longer and wasn't even tell her I was about to cum, so when it came out, it fullfilled her mouth with my semen and she just kept sucking. After that, she took her mouth off my dick and tried to swallow my cum but wasn't able, so she spilled that on the ground. I didn't wanted it to end like that, I wasn't satified yet. And finally, after almost an hour with oral only, it began. I kissed her again and laid her down on the bed, getting my dick ready with a condom. I approached her and finally put my dick inside her. And the feeling... the feeling was... I don't know how to explain. I've never felt so good in my entire life until that moment, it was incredible even without moving, but when I started, i became even better! She was moaning so hard, I was moaning too, i put my hands on her waist and kept putting inside her with everything I got. First I was slow, but then I started to fasten up and it was getting even better. I wanted to keep fucking her the whole night, but we wouldn't be alone all night long, but I didn't care. I was filled with pleasure, kept doing it, and then, I couldn't stop. I was fucking her so hard that I wasn't able to stop when my cum came out. I came inside the condom while fucking her and when I stopped, I was really tired. I looked at her face, she was so cute I couldn't handle it. I laid down upon her and kissed her with all my love and she did the same. It was the best feeling ever. After that night, we did a lot of sex during our relationship and I was completely in love with her, so much that I wanted to live my life with her...... but that... didn't happened...

She was with her parents and little sister on the road and a truck crashed on them, destroying the car... and my life. Her parents survived, the little sister survived for a few days, but my girlfriend died at the same time the truck crashed on them. My life turned upside down since then, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't even cry. I just wanted to sit somewhere and... let it go. Three years have passed since then. I'm not able to date anyone because of my trauma, and tbh... I don't give a fuck about it. I've never met someone so cool, smart, funny and wonderful as her and... I'll only find on the other side. At least that's what I thought.

Well, that was my confession. Hope you like it. Could you tell me your first time too? I'd like to read it. Anyway, thank you for reading.