Not Like I Thought

I have a problem with wearing little girly panties because I am not sure? I’m sure that it’s a weird sexual thing but I don’t like it. It feels wrong. I’m sorry but also glad that I told someone close about it because it came up when she said she was cleaning and found some in my closet. I just wanted to tell her the truth but I think it was more because I kinda got off on it. She was super sweet and supportive and asked a lot of questions. Mostly about how she could help? She was “flattered” that I told her and she said she could give me a bunch of hers because she had tons. She said that the tags will be on some even. The truth is I preferred the ones that were hers. She asked me if I had any trouble with wearing a certain type or anything? She said “I don’t understand how you could fit in any of these”? I think she was disappointed when I told her I had such a little dick and that I was sorry for it. She laughed and said it was fine and asked “how little”? I thought it was best that I just pulled my pants down to my ankles and she immediately saw I had on her underwear. She said that she had never seen a smaller one and looked at rolling her eyes saying “oh you look so cute in those little panties tho” I thought it would make her feel better if I gave her some money for her having to see it. I gave her a hundred dollars for my little dick tax and another 50 for the panties she had on? She did not like that. She was very stern about it and she said not to be a little pervert! She said we were going to play dress up soon and she was in charge. I said I would go out of the room when she changed and she agreed. She only tried one thing and then said she picked me out some of her stuff and wanted to see it on me. She was so good at making me feel embarrassed and excited. She always made sure to look at me and laugh when I was pulling up the panties. She said that she would give me more in size small because “clearly you will fit in them”. So we would do this every now and then and she would have a list of things that I had to buy for having a “dick that fits in panties”. I think she was just trying to make me feel better and she ended up hating me. She said that I had a really small penis and that meant she deserved to have my money. She was very nice to me and I really was taking advantage of her and she really enjoyed the attention she got but she didn’t like making fun of my little dick anymore. She said that I was going to be buying her underwear from now on and I like that part but she was not wanting everything to be about me because I was being a little jerk and now she hates me.