Obsessed For 17 Years

This isn't a secret along the people that know me in person.
Many people made fun of me a lot about this obsession i have when i was a teenager. I used to it so If anyone believes my obsession it's ridiculous i don't care anymore.

My obsession it's obvious and it's that cute, adorable octopus i have on my profile picture.

I started watching SpongeBob when i was 11. I wish i started earlier. Obviously my favourite character was and still is Squidward. I could relate to him and understand his personality.

I felt kinda alone back then so Squidward was someone i believe he could understand me, even he is just a cartoon character.

He was and still is in my mind 24 hours everyday. My computer, my Facebook account, my Instagram account and my phone are full of pictures of him and i looking at him in those pictures everyday.
He was near me in my saddest and happiest moments. He was the reason my teenagerhood wasn't completely sucked.

Someone could say it's like i am in love with him. In fact as a teenager not only i was obsessive in love with him but also had sexual urges for him.
When i was watching him in episodes i felt exactly what a person who's is in love feels. Also i had the need to kiss him and had sex with him.

Whenever i was watching him on television i was coming closer and kissing the glass of the television where Squidward was. I was doing it secretly from my parents.
Every night on bed i was hugging my pillow and rubbing my vagina on it thinking it was him and we're having sex. I loved it.

I had posters of him with me whenever i went. Sometimes i even had a poster inside my shirt, under my bra, on my breasts in school.

I was naive enough to expressed it openly the fact that i love Squidward so much and many kids were making fun of me calling me sarcastically Squidward.

My parents noticed back then my obsession and became really worried about me. They didn't want to watch spongebob and my mother throwed away my collections.

This obsession didn't hurt me and never went away. I am not fall in love with him anymore but i love him and i know I will continue to love him until i die.

As for my sexual desire for him, sometimes is there. Since i was 11-12 i fantasize him in threesome with SpongeBob and Patrick.
Actually there are pictures like this on internet and when i found them i was so happy and turned on too.

But my love for Squidward is something more than that.
I never felt anything even close to what i feel for Squidward for anyone i know, including my family members.

And i believe i just can't stop loving him and never going to stop.