Hlcalvox16

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Gender: Gay Male
Age: 30
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Testicle Cancer

I’ve been through two treatments for testicular cancer. First one was when I was 18 as a senior in high school. I had to get my left testicle removed due to cancer. Pretty much everyone in my class knew that. Then just 4 months ago I got my other testicle removed for cancer too. Now I have no balls. I recently had the option to get implants down there to give me the feeling of having balls but instead I opted to have most of my testicle sack removed. Found a surgeon who could remove the excess saggy skin and make it look good. I actually love the look of it, just my penis is all I need. I dont want ball implants.

My briefs definitely fit much better without all the junk in them. Just my sex life has been a working process. I’ve switched to having sex with guys. Me bottoming for a guy is very pleasurable I’ve found. I have a regular I see very often.

Lost My Load Last Night

Getting old sucks. I gained 25 pounds in the last 5 years. I am on BP meds, reflux meds, and ED meds. My dick is less sensitive, but my nipples more sensitive. I have also developed an interest in other men.

Started with porn. Got more out of the guy's cock than the woman's snatch. Started watching gay porn and quickly got hooked on men my age, heavy, chest and back hair, cut large cock. Like I said, like me, I have a good sized cock.

Two years ago I was at a bar drowning my sorrows, a traveler struck up a conversation and I ended up in his hotel room with his cock in my mouth. It took a lot of work, but he did come and I tasted it. I left after the BJ.

I found a couple of places on the internet where I could chat with older gay men. Chats from folks everywhere but close by. One guy put me onto a site where you could sort by zip code. That's how I gave my second BJ. I also met a man who wanted to party. Older gay men parties. At one of these parties I submitted to getting my ass hammered. Big cock man. Lots of lube and it took time until I got the whole enchilada. I liked it. He has taken me on as a fuck buddy, he does the fucking.

This pandemic put the parties on hold. Last night I met a young man, maybe twenty or younger. I stood with only my undershirt on tweaking my nipples while he was on his knees working my cock. Big load.

I have to confess that I had taken a pill earlier in the afternoon because I planned to stream some big boy sex and masturbate, and the young man was an opportunity not to pass up.

Closet Sex

I've been back and forth on whether to even write this down.

Back in my youth I had to go off to a boarding school for a year while my parents got divorced. I shared a room with a boy who was two years older. I had to suck his cock. At first It was upsetting but I started to like it and I sucked him all the time. One Saturday afternoon the floor monitor walked in on us. He was expelled and I was put on probation, probably because the school new about my home situation.

I roomed alone after my roommate was expelled. One night the floor monitor came to my room and sat beside me on the bed. He put his hand under the covers and played with my cock. After he had me in an erection he pushed the covers away and sucked my cock. After several weeks I was sucking his cock, and he was getting on my back and fucking me. I never did not like it, I looked forward to him, I was quite able to absorb his full grown cock in my ass.

After I returned home to live with my father, my sister lived with my mother. After college I go married, which lasted 27 years, we just grew apart. Living single I reengaged with men. I truly enjoy oral sex, I enjoy being the passive partner to the right man. Anal sex is very important to me, I fall back to my boarding house days and relive that incredible feeling I experienced there.

I don't get attached, I have my family for that. Of course I keep my activities to myself.

MY BLACK FRIEND

For years now one of my best friends is a black man my age. He is married with kids has a great job and a very sexy wife. He and I drink beer and fish a lot enjoy cooking out and my wife likes their friendship also. About a year or so he and I were at my house one Saturday drinking beer and my wife was gone for the weekend to visit her parents.
He and I drank all day and it was after dark and we were just talking and some how got on the subject of sex. We shared experiences and got on the subject of our younger years and our first experiences. I told him if I tell you about this you have to keep it a secret He agreed so I began to tell him about my best friend and I and how we used to sneak around and have sex together. He asked a lot of questions and I could tell he was getting excited listening to my stories. I told him how we used to suck each other off before we were old enough to cum and later on when we could cum we both liked to swallow once we got used to it. Then I told him how we used to cut thru the woods on the way home from school and hide really good in the thick trees and he would fuck me in the ass and how I liked taking his cum in my ass.
I told him in detail how he used to stick his dick in me and hold my hips as he fucked my ass and how he enjoyed shooting his cum up my ass. I told him how we would suck and fuck most of the day on Saturdays as my parents were at work all day. After listening to me for over an hour he asked if I ever thought about doing that again. I thought a minute and said I would if it could be very private and discrete. I asked him why he asked that and he told me he had been very curious for a couple of years and just wondered what it would be like to suck a mans cock and to let a man suck me off. We talked about that awhile then he said he wanted to be honest and told me what he really wanted was to put his cock in a nice tight ass and fuck a man up the ass. I told him back in my younger day I liked taking a dick in my ass and did it with a lot of boys back then and several times with more than one at a time.
We drank a couple more beers and he asked if I would ever consider having sex with him. I had a good idea that he wanted to do something and I was curious myself so I told him why not no one will ever know if we do or if we don't. I said the wife is gone if you want to and have time we can at least get naked maybe jack off or try sucking each other. He said OK but do you think I could fuck you I really want to do that and it would be pretty hot to put my dick in a white ass.
We were in the house in a few minutes and I suggested we shower together first and once he was naked I was shocked to see how huge his dick was. I had to ask and he was stroking it and had a big smile on his face and told me its 12" and as you can see very thick. The head was huge and he was very black. He looked right at me stroking that monster and asked if I thought I could take it in the ass. I was unsure but told him I wanted to at least try. e got in the shower and our hands were all over each other and we sucked each other a little and he got behind me and his huge hard cock was in the crack of my ass as he humped on me moaning and telling me how bad he wanted to fuck me I came in the shower just getting humped and listening to him tell me how he wanted to fuck me.
We dried off and I got the Vaseline out and he followed me to the extra bedroom. It took some time and he put his dick in my asshole several times but pulled it out because it hurt me. Finally I was able to take him and let him leave it in my ass and he went slow giving me more and more until about half of it was up my ass and he told me I was tight and felt so good he was about to cum. I told him to go ahead and cum if you want to. He fucked me with half of his big dick then shot a huge load up my ass pushing deeper and deeper in to my ass as he emptied those big black nuts in my tight white ass.
He asked me if I could take a little more and he pushed deeper in to my cum filled ass and as I wiggled around underneath him and pulled at the sheets moaning out loud wanting to scream his dick went deeper and deeper until it felt like it was in my stomach. He laid on top of me for several minutes just lightly pushing his cock up my ass and the he began to fuck me with short easy strokes at first but before he finished he was fucking me with all he had and there was a lot of cum between my legs and it took him forever to cum the second time and when he did he made sure he was balls deep in my asshole and he filled me up and made me cum too.
I told him to leave it in my ass for awhile and we just talked with him balls deep in my ass and he humped me a little and eventually it slipped out of my ass and I could feel a huge amount of cum pour out of my wide open asshole. We got up and cleaned up and just looking at his long fat dick hanging between his legs excited me and I reached out to stroke it and he asked if I wanted some more. I said if you can get it up again I sure would like a little more. He fucked me again on my back with my legs up over his shoulders and h got even deeper and fucked me so hard I almost passed out a few times and I could look down between us and see his huge dick fuck in and out of my ass and I couldn't wait for him to get balls deep in my ass and fill me up with another big hot load. He had just came and was still in my ass when his wife called and they talked as I showered. After that we fucked a lot and often and that huge dick just felt better each time he used it on me.
He liked to suck me off and eat out my ass and swallow my cum before he fucked me and after awhile I could suck his dick and let him cum in my mouth. We talked about fantasies and acted out a lot of them and He and I both wanted my fantasy to come true and I really wanted to be gang fucked by him and a few of his black friends. It took quite awhile maybe a year to make it happen and it was him and 3 other big black men with huge dicks and a day and night at my cabin on my farm. 4 big black cocks using me for hours and hours and once I woke up face down on the bed tied spread eagle with all of them taking turns on my ass and there was a huge pool of cum between my legs and my nuts were sitting in it and they kept fucking me and drinking their beer. I just let myself go for once and let them use me and fuck me at both ends and take all the cum I could and it got wild and a little rough before it was over. They tried to DP me a few times but it hurt really bad then I got very drunk and tried it and they got two dicks up my ass at the same time and I had over 20" of big black dick up my ass at the same time.
We had a gang bang ..(continue confession)

A Voyage Of Discovery To New Experiences

I live in a large metropolitan area, if you want to remain anonymous you can. I lost my wife of forty years and moved into town, close to theatres and friends. I met through a friend a man who is retired from the police force and we started having lunch a couple of times a month. He is divorced, was married for twenty years and one of our topics of discussion was our married lives. It was in one of these discussions that he confessed that he had gotten divorced because he had messed around, with another cop, male, from his precinct.

That is how the topic of male sex came up, two men in their sixties talking about male sex. Understanding, we are older and don't have hang ups. Not until your friend stands over you with his cock out and asks you to put it in your mouth and try something new. It was a very hard thing to do, but the actual feeling of his cock in my mouth was not unpleasant. The skin was very soft and my tongue going around the head of his cock sent shivers down my back. I as sucking on a man's cock.

He suggested we get naked. Take a shower together. Try it out. We are both big men, he took his time washing my cock, bending over from time to time to suck on me. Offered his cock for me to wash, and bend over and suck in the shower. He had me stand against the shower and he washed my behind, fingering me a little. He asked if I wanted a little bit of tongue. On the bed we did the sixty-nine, we jerked each other, and then he insisted we kiss. 240 pounds apiece, kissing like teenagers, jerking off our cocks, he kissed my nipples which were very sensitive, he asked if I was up to it, we could fuck, he had the lubes and condoms.

One afternoon and I was in a full gay sex act with another man, a cop who was well past any hang ups about gay sex, who wanted nothing more than to introduce me to the other side of getting older. Why chase an old woman when you can get so much more pleasure with an old man, and you don't have to listen to women problems. We did not have 'sex' that day, it was all oral and a lot of kissing. I liked kissing, surprisingly I liked being kissed. He told me that the top has to be the top and the bottom has to be the bottom and we had pretty much figured out who was who.

It took several get togethers over several weeks before I agreed to being the bottom, but I was ready. We tried with him on my back, which I liked a whole lot. We are just too big for missionary sex and frankly I like his weight on my back. I put a cushion under my hips and he gets on top and if I'm lucky while he is doing his thing, my cock rubs against the cushion and I ejaculate too. I never thought I would admit to liking having a man on my back, but I do. I like sucking on his cock a lot, and of course I like being kissed.

He is a cop, retired, but still a cop and he pretty much has the last word. I don't have a problem with that, as long as he kisses me and still enjoys giving me cock. I find it interesting really, thought wise, that at this age I am having this affair with this man. He has been having sex with men for many years, but for me it is new and the whole thing feels really good. A really nice feeling is me fixing dinner, I can cook fairly good and his long kisses while I do. It just makes the whole meal so much more satisfying, so much more than eating alone.

I am sort of coming out here, anonymously but trying to say what I feel.

Real Men Don't Bitch, Maybe They Do

Age, medications have taken their toll on me, particularly in the ED department. In a conversation with a same age friend he suggested I open my horizons and become the bitch, let an Alpha mount me. Ha!, me? No F way.

Well I found this man, a regular hard ass, horny as hell and he fucks man pussy. I got cornholed and loved it. Breaking it down, holding his hard cock sends shivers down my back, mouthing his cock brings me to precum, Bitching for him is fucking amazing. Deep massage, right where it feels good.

My same age friend is not part of the conversation, however I acknowledge his comments. I'd like to know who he is bitching for.

Anal Massage

This is a message for all straight men...
If you are gay or bi you will already know all about the bliss of anal massage and stimulation. Mostly through the penetration of a penis in your anus.
I am a married bi sexual male nearing 70. I have taken many penises into me.
Each night after my wife has gone to bed, I spend 30 minutes or so nude in our pool.
First I mix a pina colada, and then I undress and slip into the pool.
Once there, I rub my hands over my body...massaging my neck, pits, pecs, abs, thighs and of course my penis.
I enjoy my pina colada and relax...
I become erect with the anticipation or sexual bliss.
Then I start to work on my anus.
The first time I was penetrated, I was 28 then, the guy who made love to me told me to relax and push out like I was taking a shit...I did exactly that and he slid his well lubricated penis up inside me. I felt no pain at all...just sheer pleasure.
So in my pool at night, I start to work my anus, pushing out as my wet index finger slides up inside me. I gasp as my finger feels the inside walls of my anus...the soft ridges...the flesh of my sexual haven.
Then I touch my prostate.
A tingle surges through me.
I gently massage it. My index finger pushing softly against it.
Many gay and bi sexual men experience a softening of their penis as they are penetrated. The thrust of a penis into them takes command and they soften. For some they just get harder...
These days, at my age, I get soft.
My focus is my anus and my prostate.
My penis goes limp as I work the inside of my anus. My body tingles...my nipples become erect and swollen. I suck the index finger of my free hand, playing with my tongue and the inside of my soft wet cheeks.
I am alone and sexually intense.
As my anus opens I slide a second finger in. Both fingers work the inside walls of my anus and encircle my prostate.
I close my eyes and become totally at peace. My body in equilibrium.
My anus totally accommodating my fingers.
And yes...my penis is soft...I am nowhere near ejaculation.
I continue to work my anus...contracting my anal muscles, gripping and releasing my fingers as I would a penis buried deep inside me, pushing a lover towards ejaculation.
I finger fuck myself for , oh, I guess 15 or 20 minutes. Devine.
Then I gently pull out and suck my fingers...
A few deep breaths and then it is time to focus on my penis. I lift my body onto the edge of the pool. I spread my lets and gently rub my shaft, lubing it with gel. Closing my eyes, I usually recall a time when I did that at a gay resort in Bali...when a attractive guy swam across the pool and put his head between my legs and sucked my penis until I exploded down his throat...that is enough to get me very hard...I masturbate until I am about to ejaculate and then slide back into the pool just as my thick jizz spurts into the warm water.
So many straight men miss, I fear, the bliss of anal stimulation. It is not "gay" to get turned on by your most inner self being pleasured.
And hey, maybe push the boat out and take a hard thick penis into that inner place one day. Who knows? You might love it the way I do.

Disgusted With Myself, Because I Liked It

Two things happened over the last nine months. One I moved to a small suburban city to work, away from crowded Pittsburg. Two I sucked a man's cock. He invited me to suck him, invited me over for a drink, we talked, about the loneliness of being shut in, two beers, then three beers. It was then that he unzipped, took his cock in his hand, started to jerkoff and he got a rock hard erection. It was then that he invited me to suck his cock. And I did.

He didn't cum, he had taken a couple of V which he blamed telling me I sucked real good so it wasn't my fault.

This is my 2020 confession, I sucked cock.

Eating My Own Cum

Since I was a kid I always wanted to know what my cum tasted like. But every time I would psyche myself up to eat my cum I would lose the urge once I finally came. Look I'm not gay. I just always wanted to taste it. I don't want to suck dick or get fucked. I just want to see what the big deal is. Almost every girl I dated loves cum like candy. They can't get enough. I want to know what that's all about. I tried everything. Flipping my legs over my head but my gut always gets in the way. I used a giant straw. I put it over my hole and sucked when I came. But that didn't work. By the time it got through the straw it was cold and gross. I even just shot into my hand but when I would go to eat it I had no urge and just washed my hand off. One morning I was off from work. My wife was at work and the kids at school. I got up ate some breakfast and decided to smoke some weed. I got a nice warm buzz going. I got naked and laid in bed watching porn on my phone. I was stroking, feeling good. I looked over and saw my wife's vibrator in her half open draw in her side table. I reached over and took it out. I turned it on super high and put it on my balls, taint and asshole. The sensation was incredible. I continued to watch lesbian porn with the vibrator massaging down under. I then started to jerk. With my prostate being vibrated as well it didn't take long. I erupted all over my hand. I wanted to taste it! I put my hand to my mouth and licked up and savored every drop! The vibrator was still massaging me and I think that's what kept the urge. So I tried it again about 30 minutes later. Same outcome. Now when ever I wank, I put the vibrator on my balls, taint and asshole. No weed needed. It never fails now!!! I still don't want to get fucked or suck cock but I'm sure enjoying my cum.

Discovered My Feminine Side

After I went through prostate surgery I lost the ability to generate an erection. It was psychological devastating, I was 55 and my life was over. I went to group therapy at the suggestion of my psychologist. I met a man there, a bit older, who put it to me as the opportunity to feed my feminine side.

With his help I met men who liked men, I sucked my first cock at a get together of older gay men, enjoyed being the pleaser and was rewarded with a mouthful of manhood. It took a bit longer to give it up, allow myself the pleasure of being the one on the bottom, and recognizing these men enjoyed little intimacies, kissing, hugging, spooning. The truth is I found great pleasure in being feminine, being the passive receiving partner, the thrill of a hard cock in my mouth, of having Brutus load my ass up with his cum.

I miss my cock, I have found sensitivity of sorts, but now I rely on my mouth and the sensitivity of my anus for pleasure. It's also psychological, having Brutus on my back pumping his cock in my ass just feels good. Feeling him cum, feeling him withdraw, feeling his cum leak out down my thighs, seeing his satisfied eyes makes me feel good.