AnonDL

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Gender: Bi-Sexual Male
Age: 39
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Confessions by AnonDL:

Discovered I'm Mostly Gay, But There's A Problem Pt. 3

I told him I was 29 years old when we talked on Grindr. I definitely look 29, maybe even younger. Usually I tell people 29 because if I told them my real age they wouldn't believe me. Anyway, I told him I'm really about 10 years older, married (to a woman), and have kids. He took it very well and didn't get upset with me. Like everyone he was shocked by my age, but also by everything else. Of course he had a million questions. How many kids do I have, how long have I been married... I told him the truth about everything.

I told him how I had been in a sexless marriage for over 10 years. We didn't even have sex on our wedding night, and not for lack of me trying. Long story short, she just really doesn't like sex that much. I can literally count on one hand the number of times we had sex over the last 5+ years. She doesn't know about my urges toward men and can't know. I thought I was just letting off some steam by getting something my wife can't or won't give me. I didn't realize how much I'd love it. I told him about how my marriage is super platonic.

I don't remember all I said, other than I was truthful... For the first time I told someone everything. Now he knew all my secrets. He asked a lot of questions and was concerned about every aspect of what I was going through and what it could mean going forward. I remember he stood up and asked me to stand up... When he said that I know I stammered a little bit because I wasn't sure what he was going to say or do... I managed to croak out "you're not going to hit me are you?" He laughed and told me to stand up again. When I did he gave me a big hug and told me he was going to have to think about whether he wanted to continue a relationship and that he was sorry I was so lonely and had no one to talk to. I stressed to him that the reason I told him is because I did really like him and if there was ever a chance at us really being friends with benefits I had to tell him. He said it might take a while to process and we said our goodbyes.

I spent the next few days verbally kicking myself... Thinking things like "obviously he's going to say no. I'm like 15 years older than him and married. He's hot and could probably get any number of guys. Why would he want to hook up with me?" So basically I spent the next few days convincing myself I would never hear from him again. I remember one night I finally put my phone down on the nightstand ready to let it go, ready to accept that I'll probably never have sex again... I had told him as much. I was tired to looking around, living a sexless life and wanted to find one guy to connect with, but if this wasn't it, I was going to give up.

The next morning I woke up to a text from him. It said "hey, sorry it took a few days to process, but I think I want to keep meeting."

It's been about a week since and we hook up whenever we can. He's training me to deepthroat him. Today we met in a parking lot and I sucked him off in his car. He's been sending me messages telling me how good I make him feel and I've been giving him similar compliments. Since I told him the truth it feels more like we're actually dating on the DL rather than just hooking up. I can't wait to see what else our relationship brings, but he made me realize I'm mostly gay, and mostly a bottom...

Discovered I'm Mostly Gay, But There's A Problem Pt. 2

We had agreed that we were both looking for something more regular and had made plans to hook up again, but do it bareback next time. I also wanted to try sucking him because I never had really done it before.

So we met up the next night and it was a repeat of the previous night. Except I sucked him and swallowed to start things off. I had gone from never sucking a guy really to deepthroating him until he completed down my throat. After that he gave me a massage. Finally it came time for him to top me bareback. He lasted a lot longer this second time.

I was kind of on my side laying on the bed but he stood beside it. In that position I could look back at his smiling face while he absolutely wrecked my ass. It made me feel like I never had before. I went from only having bottomed once and not having strong feelings either way to absolutely loving this guy pummeling my ass. I was making all kinds of noises and high pitched squeaks as he pounded away. I know at one point I got so lost in it I'm laying there moaning with my tongue hanging out looking back at him just absolutely dominating my rear. Finally he came in me. I had come so close to coming and I hadn't even touched my own dick. I remember loving the feeling of my stretched hole and the slick feeling between my ass cheeks popof his cum leaking out a little as I walked back to my car. I made sure to leave his seed in me that whole night.

We immediately messaged each other after I left and exchanged phone numbers. We had agreed to meet up the following morning because we had such a great time. For the third day in a row I sucked him and swallowed and then he dominated my ass...

This is where the problem comes in. He made me realize that what I really always wanted was to be a bottom. He was looking for a friends with benefits type situation. When we first started hooking up I let him know that I was DL. He was fine with me not being out, as I didn't need to be out to be friends with benefits. I knew if we were ever going to connect on the "friends" part I had to come clean.

I messaged him the next day and asked if he had a few minutes to talk. Immediately he got worried and I told him I just wanted to come over to work on the friends part of "friends with benefits." He agreed and I went over to his place.

When I got there he asked me what was up and I laid it all out on him...

Discovered I'm Mostly Gay, But There's A Problem Pt. 1

So I've always considered myself bisexual. However, I had never hooked up with a guy for most of my life. I had lots of girlfriends in highschool, fewer in college, and never had any problems getting it up, but it was always so hard to cum.

When I watch porn it's almost exclusively gay porn. There was just something about it that got me so turned on, but I still never tried it. I convinced myself the reason it was hard to cum was because I wanted to fuck girls in the ass and most wouldn't let me. I come from a religious background and coming out would mean being shunned from my family... But after being stuck in a sexless relationship I decided it was time to give it a go with a guy.

I downloaded Grindr and hooked up with a bottom. We met up for a while and it was definitely fun, more fun than most of the girls I had been with. Personality wifdtTVFse though we just weren't a match (he left glitter all over the inside of my car like he was the gay fairy of glitter) and we stopped hooking up... I was inexperienced with guys and the poppers thing really turned me off. The smell might as well have been a custom made boner killing fume device.

I tried out bottoming one time but it just was awkward because it was in the back of a car. After a lot of work getting it into me he basically gave a couple pumps and said he was done. I didn't hate it, but I wasn't in a rush to try it again. So for a while I just stopped actively trying to hookup.

One day I got a message from a guy wanting to top me. He was hot and young and tall. I'm tall myself, but he was even taller. I wasn't against trying it again and something about the way he approached me and the things he was saying convinced me to give it a try. When I went over he had the bedroom lit with mood lights and essential oil diffusers around the room as well as light music playing. Already this was a far cry from my first time bottoming. He slowly undressed me and gave me a whole body massage. I had never really been into foot stuff, but he rubbed my feet and sucked my toes which was a turn on in a way I didn't think it would turn me on.

After, he laid me on my stomach and made sure I had plenty of pillows and blankets. Then he ate my ass for what seemed like an hour, until eventually he was sliding fingers into me. I was over the moon with feelings I had never felt before. That's when he leaned over me whispered in my ear "are you ready for me to take care of you?" I gently moaned my approval. I heard him open a bottle of lube and he spread it on his dick and worked some into my ass. His dick was about average length, but thick. I laid there on my stomach my heart pounding. Then I felt the head of his dick approach my ass cheeks. As soon as I felt it approaching my back door I instantly got the hardest I've ever been in my life. He slid it in me and immediately I could tell something in me changed.

Suddenly, everything made sense. It suddenly made sense why I never really liked going down on girls. It suddenly made sense why I tricked myself into thinking I wanted was to have anal with girls. It made sense why a girl could suck me for hours and I would never reach orgasm. It also made more sense to me now why topping a guy didn't quite do it for me.

He didn't last long but I can remember while under him I was making noises that surprised even myself. I laid in the prone position while he pumped me into the bed. I reached back and grabbed at his legs and body, lost in the throws of pleasure he was sending through me. After he came we lay there together panting with me trying to process what had just happened.