Whareyou505

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Gender: Straight Female
Age: 20
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About Whareyou505:

I’m using this forum as a diary. Yes, everything I’m posting is real and are my personal experiences and yes, i’ve just discovered this space so.. I’m sorry for the spam posting. If my confessions sound inconsistent then just know that’s because my brain is the size of a popcorn kernel… which automatically means my memory isn’t the absolute best. Really.. this was originally supposed to be a way to help with my sexual guilt but I think I’ve made it worse.?? (Sorry if my content is too vanilla for u.. this is all I’ve got lol.)

Confessions by Whareyou505:

My BF Didn’t Care That I Hadn’t Shaved

When I was 18 I had this one boyfriend for a few months. By this point of my senior year of highschool I had weirdly enough.. avoided losing my virginity. Though now that I think about it if I were to lose it to anyone back then, it would’ve been this boyfriend. I had just gotten out of a year long relationship and then immediately jumped into the next relationship with this guy. I did normal couple stuff with this man, we made out alot, I was always sitting on his lap, we cuddle humped.. you know the innocent acts. Eventually we jumped to him sucking my tits and always fondling them and at one point it got to me rubbing his cock through his pants. Mind you, this guy was a virgin as well, but had none of that apparent virginity fear like I did. We did those intimate things regardless of where we were, which is relevant in this next part. One night when him and I and our mutual male bestfriend got drunk, our male friend had gotten blackout compared to us, so we led him to the nearest couch which was next to us. It was that exact day that my bf wanted us to touch each other with our actual clothes off and I was shook when he said that. So we made out, touched each other and he had then very naturally and sexily flipped me over so my back was facing his chest and he had pushed open my legs and rested his bigger hand on my inner thigh. (this shit had not felt like a full on virgin was touching me LOL). Anyways we continued to kiss in that position while his free hand was on my waist, basically having me grind on his lap and his other hand near my inner thigh had started to rub my pussy through my underwear. We were very drunk and horny so I was initially agreeing to have sex or to just show him my bare pussy. But.. in a moment of fear and awkwardness (due to our friend sleeping right next to us or me being a chicken, idk), I had stopped his hand from taking my panties off and I lied and said “it’s embarrassing but I didn’t shave my pussy”. I’m not sure how it is for everyone else but my highschool was full of boys who found not shaving to be gross, so I fully expected him to back off. But no, he did in fact not back off and I remember he was all for it. He had said he didn’t care and that having pussy hair was sexy. I remember almost folding in that very moment haha. I don’t know who fell asleep first but that night we did not have sex. Like a week later was highschool graduation & due to him moving for college we broke up. So yeah, not only did I graduate highschool as a virgin but I don’t even know if he was just saying that stuff to get laid. Though, his words really did help me with my confidence over the years. Back then I didn’t even have a full bush, just some hair growing that I didn’t shave right away. Even at 20 years old, some of the men around my age still openly talk about how they hate pussy hair. Do men eventually stop caring with age or is it only a minority of men who don’t care if their women has pussy hair?


(Before anyone asks, in comparison to my childhood experiences, I have no clue why I was so slow on wanting to do sexual acts with actual lovers when I was finally the real age to do them. I literally don’t know)

I Used To Use My Grandpa’s Computer To Watch Porn

If anyone has read my other confessions then I just feel like I have to say that I’m just now realizing I’m most likely a porn addict and have been since I was a child. I guess confessing like this about every little thing is eye opening for me.

Anyways, when I was younger I would go to my grandparents’s house when my mother needed me to be watched by them. I would stay the night, even be there a week at a time and was dropped off at school by my grandma. Even as a child my grandparents were already getting older and weren’t up to date at all when it came to electronics and all that jazz and by then my grandpa was slowly becoming older and unaware about many things. So, when my grandma had helped her friend clean out her house due to the lady moving, my grandma had brought home a computer with a mouse and keyboard for free. I’m not sure who set it up but I was so excited to use it. When I was over there I would use it to play bowling games, racing games.. solitaire etc. But well.. I’m obviously not right in head because I had shamelessly used it for porn at all times of the day. There was a separate room for the computer so I was alone but still.. I would use it and at this age I think I barely had any concept of fully deleting stuff from the history. I never got caught in the moment but eventually we all left the computer to dust and then a few years later my grandma was talking about getting rid of it and g*fting it to someone else. I remember panicking and not truly knowing if my younger self had truly deleted any evidence of the porn I watched. Luckily the computer wouldn’t turn on at all and my grandma didn’t care enough to take it to get fixed. I personally saw it get thrown away lol

My “cousin” And I Touched Each Other

When I was young I was introduced to porn and sex through a childhood neighbor friend who had an unrestricted kindle fire tablet. She and I would watch it together secretly after school.. while my mother worked and her father was outside with a beer can and his grill going. Eventually my cousin who is two years older than me also started watching it with us, as during this time.. she was getting dropped off at my house more and more. Now, my cousin and I thought we were blood cousins.. thought we were related through my mother and her father. My uncle had passed away a few years before that so he wasn’t in the picture. Fast forward a little bit and we found out we weren’t blood related because she actually had a different dad. (Crazy). Anyways, at some point, my cousin stayed with my mother and I for a whole summer while her mother was in another state visiting her own mother. At this point, my cousin and I, and our friend with the unrestricted tablet were obviously getting bored.. so we watched porn. My cousin and I were attached at the hip at this point, never separating and never hanging out with our neighbor without one another there. Neither of us experienced anything with our neighbor friend, and neither did she know about what we were doing. I don’t remember how it started but my cousin and I eventually started to touch each other. Suck each other’s boobs and licking each other’s pussy’s in secret. Touching each other or humping each other as we playfully cuddled. It happened frequently. I remember being able to give her a look and she immediately understood what I wanted. Eventually we stopped and she ended up living with her mother again.. and well we have NEVER brought it up again. I don’t know how she feels about it, but despite knowing how odd that is now, I don’t feel as if it caused any damage. We never forced each other and from my point of view, we were simply very curious. (We are still very close “cousins”.)

I Think I Want To Lose My Virginity To A Fellow Woman

I am a virgin. I masturbate and watch porn and stuff so I’m not unaware, but I previously chickened out of sleeping with men that had obviously been wanting to go down that route. I’m still working on why that is lol. But the thing is.. I’m like 98% sure I’m straight. I like how cocks look and I like men and have always only liked men. Though when my girl friends and I sit on each others laps or full on body cuddle, I get a tingly feeling down there. I do know that I feel sexually attracted to women’s bodies.. but I have never emotionally liked women even close to how I’ve emotionally liked men. At this point I don’t think it’s right to call myself a bisexual if it’s solely physical attraction. I grew up freely changing in women’s locker rooms, in front of friends etc.. so I’m inherently more comfortable around women. It’s normal for the women around me to slap each other’s asses or playfully grope one another, it was done to me and I had done it back to those same friends. Rubbing pusses and giving each head sounds less scary for my “first” time. If I want to follow through with that idea… should I download a dating app and specifically say I’m straight and just want my first sex experience to be with a woman? I would ask my friends but they are all straight and have boyfriends. Or should I just not? I really don’t want to intrude in the lesbian spaces but I really think It’d ease me into being more intimate with other people instead of just my toys.

When I Was A Preteen I Saw My Neighbors Cock

I lived in a neighborhood that was relatively close knit. One of my newer neighbors had actually been friends with my grandma years before she’d moved in near my mother and I. She was an older lady & she had custody of her 17(?) yr old grandson. They had moved in when I was young but her grandson was around 6 years older than me. When my grandmother would come visit us & by extension would visit her friend.. she would take me with her. Nick (teen boy’s alias) was obsessed with F1 racing and all that stuff and he was the only “kid” or teenager in our neighborhood that had a console at that time.. I think it was an Xbox? Idk but anyways.. because of his very obvious loner status.. he was always home. So when I’d go over there with my grandma he’d allow me to play his Xbox and it’s games. I remember us getting close in a normal way until one day our grandma’s went to bingo night together and my grandma had just told me to walk over to my house when I was done “playing”. My house was literally two houses down so I agreed. So.. I was 11 hanging out with 17 yr old Nick, but then I had accidentally fell asleep on his bed while playing his Xbox. Not sure how long I had slept but when I was waking up.. I had briefly opened my eyes to see Nick full on changing right in front of the bed where I was laying. He was bare naked.. with his hand on his cock. From my previous porn watching.. I had known what a cock was & what it looked like. Though, that was my first time seeing one up close and right in front of me. I vividly remember him being about medium sized. Anyways.. my 11 year old self panicked and I couldn’t fake sleep so he knew I was up. He apologized for being naked.. & then proceeded to take longer than necessary to finish getting dressed. We acted like nothing happened and moved on. Though I do wonder what was going through his mind when he was changing in front of my sleeping form. I’ll never know if he was just too lazy to change in another room or if that was on purpose. The thought of me reacting differently & the actions that would follow do cross my mind.

When I Was 13 I Used My Mom’s Bunny Vibrator.

I grew up with a single mother who worked a lot & because of that she did not have much time for the dating scene. Being a female and her daughter she obviously wasn’t shy with being naked or taking showers with me when I was younger.. which wasn’t a problem because in my young mind that was simply my mother. Eventually when I was around 9 years old my mom was able to fit having a boyfriend into the equation.. but due to her overprotective self.. she never brought her boyfriend’s over and if by chance she did.. they had never stayed the night. Obviously there was nights where I would be in my grandparent’s care so I wasn’t holding her back or anything.. but she did make it a thing to not bring older men around me. Due to my neighborhood bestfriend that was just a year younger than me.. I was introduced to porn very early because she had an unrestricted Kindle fire tablet. So.. I knew about sex and masturbation and stuff. It wasn’t until I was 13 that I found my mother’s toys when I was looking for something in her drawers. Like I said earlier, she worked a lot so I was home alone quite a bit. One day when she was at work and I had seen her sex toys for the first time.. I was honestly distraught and a little disgusted to think my “pure” mother was doing that stuff! (Hypocritical of me, considering I was watching porn at 9.. I know.) But curiosity got the better of me and I used her bunny vibrator on my young pussy on her bed. I remember absolutely loving it so much and I would use it whenever I got the chance.. which was ALOT. Despite knowing it’s wrong I couldn’t help thinking of my mother in a sexual view.. thinking of how she used it and how she had a side to her I didn’t know about. It didn’t help that by then I had known what to look out for.. like her quiet moans in her room or the way her facial features would subtly change when she was on the verge of getting horny. Truly, she did nothing wrong as she tried to keep me sheltered from it so this is entirely my fault for thinking of her this way. Still.. I can’t help but get aroused when I think of this despite the years that have passed since then. I would NEVER mention this to anyone I know irl.. it’s only bc y’all are strangers that I’m saying anything. (FYI.. my mother was kind of lacking when it came to sex education and self care and stuff. I’m 20 yrs old and we still don’t casually mention sex or toys..)

I Think I’m Addicted To Masturbating.

I, 20 year old female, am a virgin.. and I think I’m addicted to using a vibrator. I’m scared of penetration.. like.. so much so that I don’t even enjoy using tampons.. yet I love clit stimulation. It’s embarrassing even thinking about how much my mind truly drifts into thoughts about when I can touch myself next. I have bought multiple sex toys to please myself with and I love them. Every single day if I’m not using my toys then I’m using my fingers. Either way, I am truly content with being single and I don’t really feel like I’m missing out on anything. Though, the situation lies in the fact that there were many moments where I could’ve lost my virginity.. yet I chickened out last minute… every single time. I’m not sure if penetration truly scares me or what the situation is but I have not lost my virginity despite my relentless “sex drive”. Am I broken or is it normal to want to avoid penetration sex while absolutely loving external pleasure? And do u guys think my need to touch myself will decrease if I get the real thing?